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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. Prologue
  5. One
  6. Two
  7. Three
  8. Four
  9. Five
  10. Six
  11. Seven
  12. Eight
  13. Nine
  14. Ten
  15. Eleven
  16. Twelve
  17. Thirteen
  18. Fourteen
  19. Fifteen
  20. Sixteen
  21. Seventeen
  22. Eighteen
  23. Nineteen
  24. Twenty
  25. Twenty-one
  26. Twenty-two
  27. Twenty-three
  28. Twenty-four
  29. Twenty-five
  30. Twenty-six
  31. Twenty-seven
  32. Twenty-eight
  33. Twenty-nine
  34. Thirty
  35. Thirty-one
  36. Thirty-two
  37. Thirty-three
  38. Thirty-four
  39. Thirty-five
  40. Thirty-six
  41. Thirty-seven
  42. Thirty-eight
  43. Thirty-nine
  44. Forty
  45. Forty-one
  46. Forty-two
  47. Forty-three
  48. Forty-four
  49. Forty-five
  50. Forty-six
  51. Forty-seven
  52. Forty-eight
  53. Forty-nine
  54. Fifty
  55. Fifty-one
  56. Fifty-two
  57. Fifty-three
  58. Fifty-four
  59. Fifty-five
  60. Fifty-six
  61. Fifty-seven
  62. Fifty-eight
  63. Fifty-nine
  64. Sixty
  65. Sixty-one
  66. Sixty-two
  67. Sixty-three
  68. Sixty-four
  69. Sixty-five
  70. Sixty-six
  71. Sixty-seven
  72. Epilogue
  73. Acknowledgments
  74. Read More
  75. Prologue
  76. One
  77. Two
  78. Three
  79. Four
  80. Follow Merilyn online
  81. Dedication

I’m on the floor. I try to tell Joanne I can’t breathe, but all I can do is cough up sand, over and over until the beach is underneath me.

An arm is round me. Aoife? I move my head a little and there she is, wrapping the blanket over my shoulders, saying soothing words I can’t hear but whose sound feels like a lullaby.

‘Forgive me, Aoife?’ I ask.

‘I forgive you,’ a voice whispers in my ear. Tears fall onto the sand, the cold steps back a little, and in the sound of her voice I close my eyes.

Sixty-three

‘I need to know the dates Eve Graham had off for maternity leave or sickness.’

The HR officer listed four occasions when Eve had spent time off work, then read out a fifth.

‘Oh, no, cancel that one. It was wrongly inputted as sickness rather than firearms training.’

Carla stopped writing. ‘Firearms training?’

‘Yeah, but it was four years ago, so she wouldn’t be authorised to have a gun now.’

‘Why would a forensic specialist need firearms training?’ She said it more to herself, but he replied.

‘How should I know? All it says was it was authorised and she spent three days in training.’

‘Which officer authorised it?’

‘Um, hold on. OK, here it is. PS Graham.’

Oh God, Gerry, what did you do?

What possible need could Eve have had for firearms training? Unless he’d felt Mary was such a threat to her that he wanted to make sure she could protect herself? And then, of course, what point would there be in training to use a firearm without having one to fire?

‘Bremer?’

Bremer came to his office door. ‘Helicopter arrived?’

‘I don’t know, but I think we may have a problem. I think Gerry or Eve may have access to a firearm—’

Before she had finished speaking, Bremer was on the radio to Nell.

‘DS Jackson?’

‘Come in, Control.’

‘Where are you?’

‘Still in the OP.’

‘OK, don’t leave until I get you armed backup. Carla has found reason to believe there may be a firearm at the address. You are not to enter the premises until armed response have arrived. I repeat, you are not to enter the Graham address until I give the go-ahead.’

‘But, sir –’ the whir of helicopter blades sounded in the distance, ‘– the helicopter has arrived. If we’ve only got five minutes of light to work with, we won’t have time to wait for armed response.’

‘Armed response will be there in five minutes. You are not to enter, whatever happens.’ Bremer’s face was tense. ‘Do you understand, Sergeant?’