Back When I Lost You
Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. Prologue
  5. One
  6. Two
  7. Three
  8. Four
  9. Five
  10. Six
  11. Seven
  12. Eight
  13. Nine
  14. Ten
  15. Eleven
  16. Twelve
  17. Thirteen
  18. Fourteen
  19. Fifteen
  20. Sixteen
  21. Seventeen
  22. Eighteen
  23. Nineteen
  24. Twenty
  25. Twenty-one
  26. Twenty-two
  27. Twenty-three
  28. Twenty-four
  29. Twenty-five
  30. Twenty-six
  31. Twenty-seven
  32. Twenty-eight
  33. Twenty-nine
  34. Thirty
  35. Thirty-one
  36. Thirty-two
  37. Thirty-three
  38. Thirty-four
  39. Thirty-five
  40. Thirty-six
  41. Thirty-seven
  42. Thirty-eight
  43. Thirty-nine
  44. Forty
  45. Forty-one
  46. Forty-two
  47. Forty-three
  48. Forty-four
  49. Forty-five
  50. Forty-six
  51. Forty-seven
  52. Forty-eight
  53. Forty-nine
  54. Fifty
  55. Fifty-one
  56. Fifty-two
  57. Fifty-three
  58. Fifty-four
  59. Fifty-five
  60. Fifty-six
  61. Fifty-seven
  62. Fifty-eight
  63. Fifty-nine
  64. Sixty
  65. Sixty-one
  66. Sixty-two
  67. Sixty-three
  68. Sixty-four
  69. Sixty-five
  70. Sixty-six
  71. Sixty-seven
  72. Epilogue
  73. Acknowledgments
  74. Read More
  75. Prologue
  76. One
  77. Two
  78. Three
  79. Four
  80. Follow Merilyn online
  81. Dedication

The helmet’s gun was four feet from Eve.

Eve’s gun was two feet from Joanne.

A gun went off as Joanne screamed.

And then Nell knew nothing.

She was on the floor, an officer pushing hard on her shoulder. She could hear shouts from downstairs.

‘It’s OK, the ambulance is almost here.’ The officer’s voice was gentle. She stared at his eyes, blue like the sea, his reassuring smile.

‘Eve?’ Her voice came out like a croak. She swallowed but even that movement made her wince.

‘Got her.’

‘Alive?’

He nodded. ‘You did really well.’

‘Joanne?’

The officer’s expression told her the answer. She felt a tear roll down the side of her face and down the back of her neck. Then she noticed the uniforms in the corner of the room where Joanne had been crouching. She tried to pull herself up. What were they doing? They looked frantic; discarded first-aid wrappers littered the floor around their feet.

She looked at the officer.

‘It’s not looking good.’

Nell felt a surge of hope. ‘Let me see her, please?’ She couldn’t bear the thought of Joanne dying with a violence matching that of her birth. The woman deserved so much more from life than she’d had so far. Nell pushed herself upwards. ‘Please,’ she said again, and this time the officer relented.

Joanne’s face was covered in blood from the hole in her stomach. She was making desperate grabs for air, her eyes fixed on the officers as they tried to find enough material to stop the blood pumping out of her.

Nell took her hand and gently stroked it while the officers worked.

‘Hey there,’ she said.

Joanne tried to move her head but only managed her eyes, which grabbed hold of Nell and begged her to help.

‘I can hear the ambulance.’ But she couldn’t – where the hell was it? ‘It’s going to be OK.’ She gently squeezed Joanne’s hand. Joanne’s eyes told her she didn’t believe it.

‘You’ve got to think it will – you have to fight it.’

Joanne’s eyes looked up to the ceiling. It took a moment for Nell to realise she was trying to talk. She pulled herself closer and leaned down.

‘Is she dead?’ The words barely a whisper.

‘No, they got her.’

‘Jail?’

‘Yes. She’ll go to jail for a very long time.’

Joanne attempted a nod, then winced.

Nell stroked the hair away from Joanne’s cheek and held her hand tightly. Ambulance sirens got louder. ‘Can you hear that?’

Joanne was staring at her. Mute now, her body focused on surviving.

Nell watched the heartbeat in Joanne’s neck slowly fade, each gentle thud slower than the last, before it finally stopped as the paramedics arrived at the door.

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