Chapters (43)
- WAHIDA CLARK PRESENTS:
- Chapter One
- Chapter Two
- Chapter Three
- Chapter Four
- Chapter Five
- Chapter Six
- Chapter Seven
- Chapter Eight
- Chapter Nine
- Chapter Ten
- Chapter Eleven
- Chapter Twelve
- Chapter Thirteen
- Chapter Fourteen
- Chapter Fifteen
- Chapter Sixteen
- Chapter Seventeen
- Chapter Eighteen
- Chapter Nineteen
- Chapter Twenty
- Chapter Twenty-One
- Chapter Twenty-Two
- Chapter Twenty-Three
- Chapter Twenty-Four
- Chapter Twenty-Five
- Chapter Twenty-Six
- Chapter Twenty-Seven
- Chapter Twenty-Eight
- Chapter Twenty-Nine
- Chapter Thirty
- Chapter Thirty-One
- Chapter Thirty-Two
- Chapter Thirty-Three
- Chapter Thirty-Four
- Chapter Thirty-Five
- Chapter Thirty-Six
- Chapter Thirty-Seven
- Chapter Thirty-Eight
- Chapter Thirty-Nine
- Chapter Forty
- Chapter Forty-One
- Wahida Clark on Mental and Behavioral Health
“What else is new, Jaz? This is what we do. Me and you. You don’t remember Georgia? That shit ain’t over, Jaz. I have to do the getting or get got. Bottom line. We can’t ignore that. And getting rid of my enemies cost money. I either go at Steel and Oni’s people, or wait for them to come at me. What do you want me to do? It’s going down one way or the other. I need a big fuckin’ war chest to make sure I win, Jaz. Working with Don Carlos allowed me to stack my war chest. I need you to understand that.”
“But at what cost, Faheem? Did his daughter come with the job?”
“What are you talking about?”
“You know damn well what I’m talking about! Did you fuck her?”
“No.”
He went on to tell me that Don Carlos told them what he wanted done with Seven. He wanted to bring her to her knees. Shut her down. And since she was already set up in Faheem’s hood, they all agreed that he would be the perfect one for the job. That’s why Don Carlos was so interested in Trae and Kaylin bringing their team to the table. Bottom line, Faheem felt that if he could make a shit load of cash and secure the territory for Don Carlos, he would be straight. Faheem admitted that he loved the rush of being back in the streets.
“What if she is the Feds, Faheem?”
“We would know it, Jaz. I didn’t rely on Don Carlos. I had her checked out already. She’s good.”
“Now you really got me nervous.”
“Don’t be.” He continued to ramble on.
Yes, all of Faheem’s accounts in this story were a fantasy. Except for the fact that I did take birth control and I did have a miscarriage. Nothing else ever happened. It was a figment of my man’s imagination. Faheem. My big strong King was broken. I was able to see firsthand how a mental disorder could take down the strongest of men and women. But I know Faheem; he will bounce back. And we will get through this. I don’t know what or how it happened. One day my Faheem was gone, and this new Faheem emerged. When I saw him playing with who he said was Lil’ Faheem, I knew I had to get help. My life hadn’t been the same.
Fortunately, he was getting better and he got weekend passes. But when he came home all he did was tell me stories about how he is back in the streets, working with Don Carlos. But none of it is true.