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Chapters (98)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for
  3. Also by David Bell
  4. Dedication
  5. Epigraph
  6. PART I
  7. CHAPTER ONE
  8. CHAPTER TWO
  9. CHAPTER THREE
  10. CHAPTER FOUR
  11. CHAPTER FIVE
  12. CHAPTER SIX
  13. CHAPTER SEVEN
  14. CHAPTER EIGHT
  15. CHAPTER NINE
  16. CHAPTER TEN
  17. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  18. CHAPTER TWELVE
  19. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  20. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  21. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  22. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  23. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  24. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  25. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  34. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  38. PART II
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  43. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  44. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  45. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  46. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  53. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  54. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  55. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  56. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  57. CHAPTER FIFTY
  58. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  59. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  60. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  61. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  62. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  63. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  64. PART III
  65. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  66. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  67. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  68. CHAPTER SIXTY
  69. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  70. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  71. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  72. CHAPTER SIXTY-FOUR
  73. CHAPTER SIXTY-FIVE
  74. CHAPTER SIXTY-SIX
  75. CHAPTER SIXTY-SEVEN
  76. CHAPTER SIXTY-EIGHT
  77. CHAPTER SIXTY-NINE
  78. CHAPTER SEVENTY
  79. CHAPTER SEVENTY-ONE
  80. CHAPTER SEVENTY-TWO
  81. CHAPTER SEVENTY-THREE
  82. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FOUR
  83. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FIVE
  84. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SIX
  85. PART IV
  86. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SEVEN
  87. CHAPTER SEVENTY-EIGHT
  88. CHAPTER SEVENTY-NINE
  89. CHAPTER EIGHTY
  90. CHAPTER EIGHTY-ONE
  91. CHAPTER EIGHTY-TWO
  92. CHAPTER EIGHTY-THREE
  93. CHAPTER EIGHTY-FOUR
  94. EPILOGUE
  95. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  96. Readers Guide
  97. About the Author
  98. What’s next onyour reading list?

Wallace settled on a chair Madeline had rescued from the Salvation Army store. A five-dollar special. She’d asked the guy downstairs—the one who frequently played music so loud her own windows shook—to help her pick it up, and together they’d wedged it into the trunk of his car. He’d carried it up by himself, and clearly thought he was going to get something more in return than the cup of tea Madeline gave him. She knew she’d disappointed him, but Madeline had enough trouble in her life without getting entangled with a neighbor. Her mom, who wasn’t good for much, taught her that: Maddy girl, don’t shit where you eat.

Thanks, Mom.

Madeline sat in the other chair, which had remained in the apartment after the previous tenant moved out. Madeline had thrown a sheet over it before she sat in it the first time, hoping to cover it up and eventually forget about the multiple unidentified stains on the upholstery.

Wallace smiled. “I know this is hard. It’s always difficult when a young person dies senselessly.”

It wasn’t a question. Madeline knew she was supposed to look sad, to nod her head and bite her lip. So she did.

“You knew Sophia from Yoga for Life! How long had you been seeing her there?”

“I guess a few months. I started going at the beginning of the summer. I only go once a week. On Tuesday evening they have a pay-what-you-want class, so I go then. I usually put in a dollar. I feel cheap, but it’s all I can afford.”

“Sure. That’s student life. Did you ever socialize with Sophia? Outside of the yoga studio?”

Without meaning to, Madeline looked at the door and then back at Wallace. If asked why her eyes made that dart across the room, Madeline would refer back to her childhood, to the times the police came and asked her questions about her mother or, perhaps, one of her mother’s boyfriends. Madeline felt certain one of those boyfriends—and she couldn’t name the guy or even picture him in her head anymore—gave her the advice never to enter a room without knowing how to get out. The cops, he said, liked to cover all the exits, but if you tried hard enough, you could always find a window, a trash chute, an exhaust vent. . . .

So much worthwhile wisdom from her childhood. She felt certain most of her classmates at Commonwealth had grown up in very different worlds from the one she had grown up in. She tried to embrace the difference, tried to see herself as unique. She knew she’d absorbed it all, knew it was part of who she was. A college education didn’t bleach it all out of her.