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Chapters (98)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for
  3. Also by David Bell
  4. Dedication
  5. Epigraph
  6. PART I
  7. CHAPTER ONE
  8. CHAPTER TWO
  9. CHAPTER THREE
  10. CHAPTER FOUR
  11. CHAPTER FIVE
  12. CHAPTER SIX
  13. CHAPTER SEVEN
  14. CHAPTER EIGHT
  15. CHAPTER NINE
  16. CHAPTER TEN
  17. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  18. CHAPTER TWELVE
  19. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  20. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  21. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  22. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  23. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  24. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  25. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  34. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  38. PART II
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  43. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  44. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  45. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  46. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  53. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  54. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  55. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  56. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  57. CHAPTER FIFTY
  58. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  59. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  60. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  61. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  62. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  63. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  64. PART III
  65. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  66. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  67. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  68. CHAPTER SIXTY
  69. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  70. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  71. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  72. CHAPTER SIXTY-FOUR
  73. CHAPTER SIXTY-FIVE
  74. CHAPTER SIXTY-SIX
  75. CHAPTER SIXTY-SEVEN
  76. CHAPTER SIXTY-EIGHT
  77. CHAPTER SIXTY-NINE
  78. CHAPTER SEVENTY
  79. CHAPTER SEVENTY-ONE
  80. CHAPTER SEVENTY-TWO
  81. CHAPTER SEVENTY-THREE
  82. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FOUR
  83. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FIVE
  84. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SIX
  85. PART IV
  86. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SEVEN
  87. CHAPTER SEVENTY-EIGHT
  88. CHAPTER SEVENTY-NINE
  89. CHAPTER EIGHTY
  90. CHAPTER EIGHTY-ONE
  91. CHAPTER EIGHTY-TWO
  92. CHAPTER EIGHTY-THREE
  93. CHAPTER EIGHTY-FOUR
  94. EPILOGUE
  95. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  96. Readers Guide
  97. About the Author
  98. What’s next onyour reading list?

When I pull into the driveway, the sun is already disappearing, the winter dark descending. The snow flurries have stopped, and the skies are clear, which means an even colder night. Emily and I used to take turns cooking dinner, and I want to believe all I have to look forward to is going inside and making my not-so-famous spaghetti and meatballs. We’d pair it with a bottle of semi-cheap wine and watch Jake roll his eyes at us as we laughed at our not-so-clever jokes.

Instead, I psych myself up for walking Grendel and getting back inside, battening down. Maybe eat a turkey sandwich or make a frozen meal in the microwave. I haven’t prepared the meatballs in five years.

But an unfamiliar car waits for me in the driveway when I pull behind the house.

“Shit.”

Madeline?

But would she be so obvious? She came without a car the night before. It’s too cold for the driver to wait around outside, so it isn’t until I step out that I see it’s Bowman. She climbs out and nods at me as I approach her, her hands tucked deep into the pockets of her coat.

“I hoped you’d be here soon,” she says. Mercifully, the wind is calmer, sparing us the worst of the windchill effect. “I considered going up to Goodlaw, but then I thought that might be a little too embarrassing for you. Who wants a cop showing up at their place of employment?”

“Thank you for that,” I say. “Is there something you need to ask me?”

“Oh, yes,” she says. “A few somethings.”

“Would you like to come inside?”

“I thought we’d talk down at the station,” she says. “My car’s running and warm. And I’ll bring you back when we’re finished.”

“At the station? Is that necessary?”

“It is.”

I try not to stutter. “Yeah, but I don’t know—”

“It won’t take long.”

My eyes roam longingly to the back door of the house. Inside are warmth, sanctuary, calm.

“I have to let Grendel out,” I say. “He’s been alone all day.”

“Go right ahead,” Bowman says. “He might burst if you don’t. I’ll wait here.”

Bowman stays rooted in place, watching me while I approach the door. I’m hoping like hell Grendel barks when my key goes in the lock. It wouldn’t be the best look to have Madeline sitting inside the house waiting for me with Bowman standing in the driveway.

But Grendel barks, just like it’s any other day, which it certainly isn’t.