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Chapters (98)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for
  3. Also by David Bell
  4. Dedication
  5. Epigraph
  6. PART I
  7. CHAPTER ONE
  8. CHAPTER TWO
  9. CHAPTER THREE
  10. CHAPTER FOUR
  11. CHAPTER FIVE
  12. CHAPTER SIX
  13. CHAPTER SEVEN
  14. CHAPTER EIGHT
  15. CHAPTER NINE
  16. CHAPTER TEN
  17. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  18. CHAPTER TWELVE
  19. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  20. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  21. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  22. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  23. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  24. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  25. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  34. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  38. PART II
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  43. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  44. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  45. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  46. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  53. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  54. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  55. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  56. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  57. CHAPTER FIFTY
  58. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  59. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  60. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  61. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  62. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  63. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  64. PART III
  65. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  66. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  67. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  68. CHAPTER SIXTY
  69. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  70. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  71. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  72. CHAPTER SIXTY-FOUR
  73. CHAPTER SIXTY-FIVE
  74. CHAPTER SIXTY-SIX
  75. CHAPTER SIXTY-SEVEN
  76. CHAPTER SIXTY-EIGHT
  77. CHAPTER SIXTY-NINE
  78. CHAPTER SEVENTY
  79. CHAPTER SEVENTY-ONE
  80. CHAPTER SEVENTY-TWO
  81. CHAPTER SEVENTY-THREE
  82. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FOUR
  83. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FIVE
  84. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SIX
  85. PART IV
  86. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SEVEN
  87. CHAPTER SEVENTY-EIGHT
  88. CHAPTER SEVENTY-NINE
  89. CHAPTER EIGHTY
  90. CHAPTER EIGHTY-ONE
  91. CHAPTER EIGHTY-TWO
  92. CHAPTER EIGHTY-THREE
  93. CHAPTER EIGHTY-FOUR
  94. EPILOGUE
  95. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  96. Readers Guide
  97. About the Author
  98. What’s next onyour reading list?

“Look,” he says, “you and I are good friends. I probably know you better than anyone else in this department. And I mean it when I say I’m glad to see things turning in the right direction. You’ve been through hell. Really. I mean, there but for the grace of God, you know?” He cuts a glance at the photos of his family, then goes on. “But I do feel the need to speak up, to look out for you. And I couldn’t say it last night with Lance there. I didn’t want to embarrass you. And Lance . . . he’s a little loose-tongued. I’ve learned I have to be careful what I say around him, especially when there’s alcohol involved. He gets depressed as well. I don’t think he’s written a poem since he got tenure fifteen years ago.” Preston rubs his forehead. “Between you and me, I wouldn’t mind seeing him retire. But that’s about five years away. And you just can’t easily get a tenured professor to go. So we’re kind of stuck with him. He runs his mouth to feel important, especially with students, so unless I want the whole world to know . . . Plus, I didn’t want to ruin the good time you were having. It was a really big night for you. A book published. Most of us are lucky just to have enough articles published to get tenure.”

On a few occasions, Preston has talked about writing a novel. He’s even gone so far as to show me a few chapters from a work in progress. It seemed more theoretical than dramatic and completely plotless. I couldn’t imagine anyone wanting to read it, but I gave him a few pointers, trying to help.

“You clearly had a woman there when we showed up,” he says. “I could tell by how you acted when we came in. A man acts different when a woman’s been in his house. It’s just something we can sense instinctively. You said it was your neighbor up the street, but why would a neighbor slip out the back door like a thief in the night? Why wouldn’t she want to stay and celebrate your big evening with you? With your friends?”

“She didn’t—”

“Hey,” he says. “I get it. I was single once too.” He jerks his thumb toward the photos. “It’s been a while, but I remember. I’m not trying to pry into your business, even though we are friends. A new relationship or whatever, you may want to keep it quiet. That’s cool. And Emily was smart and beautiful, but it’s been five years. That’s a long time.” He leans forward. “But I was thinking about it last night and this morning. And I talked it over with Kelly.”

“You talked with Kelly?”