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Chapters (98)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for
  3. Also by David Bell
  4. Dedication
  5. Epigraph
  6. PART I
  7. CHAPTER ONE
  8. CHAPTER TWO
  9. CHAPTER THREE
  10. CHAPTER FOUR
  11. CHAPTER FIVE
  12. CHAPTER SIX
  13. CHAPTER SEVEN
  14. CHAPTER EIGHT
  15. CHAPTER NINE
  16. CHAPTER TEN
  17. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  18. CHAPTER TWELVE
  19. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  20. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  21. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  22. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  23. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  24. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  25. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  34. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  38. PART II
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  43. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  44. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  45. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  46. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  53. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  54. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  55. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  56. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  57. CHAPTER FIFTY
  58. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  59. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  60. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  61. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  62. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  63. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  64. PART III
  65. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  66. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  67. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  68. CHAPTER SIXTY
  69. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  70. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  71. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  72. CHAPTER SIXTY-FOUR
  73. CHAPTER SIXTY-FIVE
  74. CHAPTER SIXTY-SIX
  75. CHAPTER SIXTY-SEVEN
  76. CHAPTER SIXTY-EIGHT
  77. CHAPTER SIXTY-NINE
  78. CHAPTER SEVENTY
  79. CHAPTER SEVENTY-ONE
  80. CHAPTER SEVENTY-TWO
  81. CHAPTER SEVENTY-THREE
  82. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FOUR
  83. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FIVE
  84. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SIX
  85. PART IV
  86. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SEVEN
  87. CHAPTER SEVENTY-EIGHT
  88. CHAPTER SEVENTY-NINE
  89. CHAPTER EIGHTY
  90. CHAPTER EIGHTY-ONE
  91. CHAPTER EIGHTY-TWO
  92. CHAPTER EIGHTY-THREE
  93. CHAPTER EIGHTY-FOUR
  94. EPILOGUE
  95. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  96. Readers Guide
  97. About the Author
  98. What’s next onyour reading list?

“How much time? Tomorrow?”

I sigh again. “I’m going to have to go to the bank. Maybe I can get a loan against the house. There’s a little equity there. Or maybe I can get some kind of home improvement loan. I can tell them I want to renovate the bathroom.”

“I like the way you’re thinking now, Connor. How soon?”

“I have to teach tomorrow. Then I have to get to the bank—”

“You could get a cash advance on your credit card. My mom used to do that when she was strapped. They kill you with the interest rates, of course. But it’s fast.”

“I’m not going to do that. I’ll ruin myself.”

“Ruin is definitely on the table, one way or the other,” she says. “If you don’t get the money, things could get very, very bad for you. In a number of ways.”

“What does that mean?” I ask.

“Whatever you want it to mean.”

I hold my hands out, asking for calm. “I said I’ll try. How do I get in touch with you?”

Madeline laughs, like I’m the biggest fool she’s ever met. “Sure, Connor, I’ll tell you exactly where I’m staying so you can call the police. I’ll find you. I know where you live and work. I know the places you like to go. I can watch for you. Maybe follow you. Maybe I’ll even find you in the gutter outside of Dubliners. Or maybe at the cemetery. Okay? I’ll track you down.”

“You can’t follow me.”

“Oh, I can. And I will if I want to. I’m a ghost, remember?”

“Are you safe where you’re staying?” I ask.

“As safe as anyone.”

“What do you need the money for?” I ask. “Are you mixed up in something? I mean . . . is someone forcing you to do this?”

“I need it because it’s mine. Because I earned it.” She looks and sounds younger than she has since I found her in the house. “I think you have more to lose if I expose you.”

“Maybe,” I say. “I’d lose a lot if you went and told on me.”

I let my words hang in the air between us for a moment. The sweetly smoky taste of the bourbon lingers in my mouth. Her face changes. The set of her jaw relaxes. She almost smiles.

“Madeline, how would you prove you wrote the book?” The thought pops into my head as the words come out of my mouth. I hadn’t thought of it before this moment, and I feel gross saying it. But I’m trying to survive and buy time. “You turned in a handwritten manuscript to me. Remember? And I have the only copy now.”

Her mouth opens, but she doesn’t speak.