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Chapters (98)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for
  3. Also by David Bell
  4. Dedication
  5. Epigraph
  6. PART I
  7. CHAPTER ONE
  8. CHAPTER TWO
  9. CHAPTER THREE
  10. CHAPTER FOUR
  11. CHAPTER FIVE
  12. CHAPTER SIX
  13. CHAPTER SEVEN
  14. CHAPTER EIGHT
  15. CHAPTER NINE
  16. CHAPTER TEN
  17. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  18. CHAPTER TWELVE
  19. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  20. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  21. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  22. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  23. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  24. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  25. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  34. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  38. PART II
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  43. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  44. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  45. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  46. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  53. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  54. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  55. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  56. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  57. CHAPTER FIFTY
  58. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  59. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  60. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  61. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  62. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  63. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  64. PART III
  65. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  66. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  67. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  68. CHAPTER SIXTY
  69. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  70. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  71. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  72. CHAPTER SIXTY-FOUR
  73. CHAPTER SIXTY-FIVE
  74. CHAPTER SIXTY-SIX
  75. CHAPTER SIXTY-SEVEN
  76. CHAPTER SIXTY-EIGHT
  77. CHAPTER SIXTY-NINE
  78. CHAPTER SEVENTY
  79. CHAPTER SEVENTY-ONE
  80. CHAPTER SEVENTY-TWO
  81. CHAPTER SEVENTY-THREE
  82. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FOUR
  83. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FIVE
  84. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SIX
  85. PART IV
  86. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SEVEN
  87. CHAPTER SEVENTY-EIGHT
  88. CHAPTER SEVENTY-NINE
  89. CHAPTER EIGHTY
  90. CHAPTER EIGHTY-ONE
  91. CHAPTER EIGHTY-TWO
  92. CHAPTER EIGHTY-THREE
  93. CHAPTER EIGHTY-FOUR
  94. EPILOGUE
  95. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  96. Readers Guide
  97. About the Author
  98. What’s next onyour reading list?

“I know it’s crass, but I want the book to sell.”

“Well, let’s hope it does.” Madeline’s glass clinks against the counter when she puts it down. “I can’t really resurface right now. It would be very, very complicated if I did. Dangerous, I would say. I think it’s a risk for me to be in this town.”

“Madeline, if you think someone wants to hurt you, then you should go to the police. Tell them the truth. Give them names. They can protect you.”

She shakes her head, arms crossed. “You’re so silly, aren’t you? The successful middle-aged white man who naturally thinks if you go to the police, they’ll help you with all your problems. Of course they’ll believe you. Of course they’ll take your side. Why wouldn’t the good old police help the good old man? Right? Isn’t that what always happens? A man can get away with whatever he wants. I’ve seen the police up close before. When I was a kid. They don’t help.”

“Okay,” I say. “Then tell me what I can do.”

“It’s easy, really. A simple transaction. You give me all the money from the book, and I won’t tell everyone you plagiarized it. Cash, of course. No checks. I know you had to give fifteen percent to your agent. And there are taxes and shit. Just give me the rest, since I actually wrote the book, and we’re even. When the time comes, I’ll write another book. And so can you. No one will know the real truth about this one.”

I ignore the part about me writing another book. Whether she meant it as a dig or as a statement of fact, I can’t bear to dwell on it. I just don’t know if I can ever write anything else. If the past five years have taught me anything, it’s that I may lack what it takes to finish a project I start.

As for the money . . .

“I can’t do that, Madeline,” I say. “This novel is my New York debut, and I didn’t get paid that much for it. People always think authors make a ton of money, but I really didn’t get a big advance.”

“I grew up without money,” she says. “I mean . . . nothing. So any amount will sound like a lot to me. Three or four digits is a windfall.”

“I didn’t grow up with money either.”

“You grew up with more than I did,” she says. “If your parents kept the lights on, you had more than me.”