Back If You Want to Make God Laugh
Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. ALSO BY BIANCA MARAIS
  3. Dedication
  4. Map
  5. CHAPTER ONE
  6. CHAPTER TWO
  7. CHAPTER THREE
  8. CHAPTER FOUR
  9. CHAPTER FIVE
  10. CHAPTER SIX
  11. CHAPTER SEVEN
  12. CHAPTER EIGHT
  13. CHAPTER NINE
  14. CHAPTER TEN
  15. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  16. CHAPTER TWELVE
  17. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  19. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  21. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  22. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  23. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  43. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  44. CHAPTER FORTY
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  53. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  54. CHAPTER FIFTY
  55. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  56. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  57. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  58. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  59. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  60. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  61. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  62. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  63. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  64. CHAPTER SIXTY
  65. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  66. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  67. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  68. CHAPTER SIXTY-FOUR
  69. CHAPTER SIXTY-FIVE
  70. CHAPTER SIXTY-SIX
  71. CHAPTER SIXTY-SEVEN
  72. CHAPTER SIXTY-EIGHT
  73. CHAPTER SIXTY-NINE
  74. CHAPTER SEVENTY
  75. CHAPTER SEVENTY-ONE
  76. CHAPTER SEVENTY-TWO
  77. CHAPTER SEVENTY-THREE
  78. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FOUR
  79. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FIVE
  80. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SIX
  81. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SEVEN
  82. CHAPTER SEVENTY-EIGHT
  83. CHAPTER SEVENTY-NINE
  84. CHAPTER EIGHTY
  85. CHAPTER EIGHTY-ONE
  86. CHAPTER EIGHTY-TWO
  87. CHAPTER EIGHTY-THREE
  88. CHAPTER EIGHTY-FOUR
  89. CHAPTER EIGHTY-FIVE
  90. CHAPTER EIGHTY-SIX
  91. CHAPTER EIGHTY-SEVEN
  92. CHAPTER EIGHTY-EIGHT
  93. CHAPTER EIGHTY-NINE
  94. CHAPTER NINETY
  95. CHAPTER NINETY-ONE
  96. CHAPTER NINETY-TWO
  97. CHAPTER NINETY-THREE
  98. CHAPTER NINETY-FOUR
  99. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  100. GLOSSARY OF TERMS
  101. AUTHOR’S NOTE
  102. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  103. What’s next onyour reading list?

She folds the first letter away and opens the second one, this one from the Truth and Reconciliation Commission. It’s in response to her inquiry about Dumisa, informing her that his name has come up in one of their interviews. There isn’t any further information, just a notification that information about him will be disclosed in one of the upcoming hearings, and that she’ll be informed of the date and venue once it’s scheduled.

We’ll know the truth soon, Mama. That is my birthday gift to you.

Zodwa goes inside and sits on the couch, reaching for the remote. The opening credits of the eight o’clock movie have just begun playing, with the sound turned low, when headlights sweep across the wall. It’s too early for it to be the sisters, though knowing Ruth, she’s probably come back just to check on Mandla. Zodwa gets up and walks to the window to see who it is. There’s a bakkie that she doesn’t recognize pulled up at the gate.

Zodwa waits for the intercom to buzz to announce their presence but nothing happens, and when she turns the volume from the TV down, she can hear the car idling.

That’s when the power goes out.

The house is plunged into darkness, the picture on the television contracting to a pinpoint of blue before disappearing completely. The only light in the room now comes from the car’s headlights, and Zodwa watches as a backlit figure gets out of the passenger side, reaches through the fence to flip something up, and then manually pulls the gate aside before getting back into the vehicle.

She goes cold as the car pulls inside.

The panic button? Where is the panic button?

Zodwa looks to the table but it isn’t there. It’s not on the couch either. When she looks back outside again, she doesn’t recognize the two men who are lit up in the bakkie’s interior as one of them opens a door.

“We should have done this months ago. That’s the only way to deal with vermin, show no mercy.”

“We didn’t know how bad it was then. Now we do. Now we put a stop to it.”

The men are speaking in Afrikaans. What frightens Zodwa, besides the air of aggression that hangs over them, is how drunk they are. They’re both slurring their words and the one staggers as he gets out of the bakkie. She knows from firsthand experience at the shebeen that you can’t reason with angry, drunk men.

As they advance toward the house, Zodwa sees they’re wearing what look like army uniforms. She shrinks back, not wanting them to see her through the window. She steps to the side and leans her back against the wall, flinching as they bang on the door.

“Open up, whore. Open the fucking door.”