Back When I Lost You
Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. Prologue
  5. One
  6. Two
  7. Three
  8. Four
  9. Five
  10. Six
  11. Seven
  12. Eight
  13. Nine
  14. Ten
  15. Eleven
  16. Twelve
  17. Thirteen
  18. Fourteen
  19. Fifteen
  20. Sixteen
  21. Seventeen
  22. Eighteen
  23. Nineteen
  24. Twenty
  25. Twenty-one
  26. Twenty-two
  27. Twenty-three
  28. Twenty-four
  29. Twenty-five
  30. Twenty-six
  31. Twenty-seven
  32. Twenty-eight
  33. Twenty-nine
  34. Thirty
  35. Thirty-one
  36. Thirty-two
  37. Thirty-three
  38. Thirty-four
  39. Thirty-five
  40. Thirty-six
  41. Thirty-seven
  42. Thirty-eight
  43. Thirty-nine
  44. Forty
  45. Forty-one
  46. Forty-two
  47. Forty-three
  48. Forty-four
  49. Forty-five
  50. Forty-six
  51. Forty-seven
  52. Forty-eight
  53. Forty-nine
  54. Fifty
  55. Fifty-one
  56. Fifty-two
  57. Fifty-three
  58. Fifty-four
  59. Fifty-five
  60. Fifty-six
  61. Fifty-seven
  62. Fifty-eight
  63. Fifty-nine
  64. Sixty
  65. Sixty-one
  66. Sixty-two
  67. Sixty-three
  68. Sixty-four
  69. Sixty-five
  70. Sixty-six
  71. Sixty-seven
  72. Epilogue
  73. Acknowledgments
  74. Read More
  75. Prologue
  76. One
  77. Two
  78. Three
  79. Four
  80. Follow Merilyn online
  81. Dedication

The main entrance to the hospital was brightly lit and the darkened windows above blinked machine lights, like reflected stars. Carla parked by the maternity wing, its entrance dark, as if babies were never born at night. As she walked past, the chill of the night a welcome reprieve from the weeks of heat, she thought of Baz and of the answer she was going to give him.

Carla continued left to the front entrance, where smokers gathered around the base of a tree, underneath a sign saying No Smoking. Ten feet away stood Ian Fowler with a man she didn’t know. He caught her eye and hate seemed to reach out and touch her.

She kept her head down but the man next to Ian called over to her. ‘Carla Brown. Got a quote for the Oxford Mail about how Thames Valley Police persecuted a young woman to her death?’ He stubbed his cigarette out and walked towards her, iPhone held forward as if to record her.

‘No comment,’ she said, pushing at the revolving doors.

‘Really? No comment when a woman who was wrongly convicted of killing her own baby was killed by the very woman who had testified against her?’

Carla glanced at Joanne’s husband; even in the shadows his face was grave and broken. The journalist’s anger seemed to radiate for the both of them.

She wanted to say she was sorry. She wanted to walk up to Ian and tell him that to his face.

‘No comment,’ she repeated, entering the small glass cubicle and willing it to revolve.

Bremer had been watching through the floor-to-ceiling glass window. ‘Well done.’

Carla didn’t feel like thanking him.

‘Remember, never say sorry, not until the case is closed and people are in jail.’

‘The coward’s way out?’ she said, instantly regretting it. Bremer let it slide.

‘How is she?’ she asked after a moment.

‘Argumentative. Wants to get out already. Hates being fussed over. So, very well!’

Carla laughed. ‘I’ll get her some grapes to really wind her up.’ She looked over at the M&S shop. Gerry was somewhere above them. Lying in some bed down a myriad of corridors, past countless swinging doors.

‘He’s on floor five,’ Bremer said.

She gave him a small smile. ‘Not sure I’ll go and see him.’ After all, what would she say?

‘You should. It will do you good. He’s going down for a long time – it may be your last chance.’

She nodded. He was right. She’d lost the nearest thing to a father figure she’d ever known, so the least she could do was say goodbye.