Chapters (64)
- Cover
- Dedication
- Prologue
- Five Years Later
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- Thirteen
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-one
- Twenty-two
- Twenty-three
- Twenty-four
- Twenty-five
- Twenty-six
- Twenty-seven
- Twenty-eight
- Twenty-nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-one
- Thirty-two
- Thirty-three
- Thirty-four
- Thirty-five
- Thirty-six
- Thirty-seven
- Thirty-eight
- Thirty-nine
- Forty
- Forty-one
- Forty-two
- Forty-three
- Forty-four
- Forty-five
- Forty-six
- Forty-seven
- Forty-eight
- Forty-nine
- Fifty
- Fifty-one
- Fifty-two
- Fifty-three
- Fifty-four
- Fifty-five
- Epilogue
- Acknowledgements
- Canelo Crime
- About the Author
- Also by Sheila Bugler
When he’d gone, Clodagh went for a long walk across the downs. She’d been planning to get a taxi to the beach for a swim, but she’d spotted two journalists loitering at the end of the driveway and she hadn’t been able to face having to pass them. Instead, she’d slipped out the back gate and started walking. By early afternoon, she had covered over ten miles and could easily have done another ten. The countryside here was stunning. She had explored little parts of it when Vivienne was alive, but she’d got to know it a lot better since moving here. The area never failed to surprise her. Rolling green fields with far-reaching views across the English Channel; ancient woodland and picture-postcard villages untouched by time. Because Adam worked so hard, she spent a lot of time alone. Over the last nine months, Clodagh had learned to love these solitary walks across the downs to the different villages nestled between the hills.
Walking helped her to think and today, more than ever, she needed to get her thoughts in order. The fear of having lied to the police was physical, a tightness in her chest and stomach that no amount of walking could ease.
She wished she could talk to Adam, but she’d never told him what she’d done and it was too late to do that now. There was someone she could talk to, though. Pulling her phone out of her bag, she called Ivan. When she got his voicemail, she frowned. This was the third time she’d called him over the last few days. Each time, the call had gone straight to voicemail. So far, he hadn’t returned any of her calls.
‘Me again,’ she said. ‘Sorry if it seems like I’m harassing you. I just want to make sure you’re okay. I was interviewed by the police yesterday and… oh never mind. Just call me, Ivan, would you?’
‘Stupid Croat,’ she muttered, hanging up. Where the hell was he? She wanted to see him and hug him and smack his big, moustached face and make him tell her why he wasn’t returning her calls. More than anything, she wanted to hear his laugh, because there were few things in this world that made her feel as good as the sound of that belly laugh.
She noticed the new voicemail message on her screen. The irritatingly chirpy recorded voice told her she had two new messages. The first was from Bella, asking if Clodagh was still okay to meet up tomorrow. She’d called yesterday, full of apologies for the way Simon had behaved on Monday. Clodagh had told her there was no need to apologise, and they’d arranged for Bella to come over to Clodagh’s for a proper catch-up. Clodagh sent a quick text now, telling Bella she was looking forward to seeing her. Then she moved onto the second message.