Back If You Want to Make God Laugh
Chapters (103)
  1. Cover
  2. ALSO BY BIANCA MARAIS
  3. Dedication
  4. Map
  5. CHAPTER ONE
  6. CHAPTER TWO
  7. CHAPTER THREE
  8. CHAPTER FOUR
  9. CHAPTER FIVE
  10. CHAPTER SIX
  11. CHAPTER SEVEN
  12. CHAPTER EIGHT
  13. CHAPTER NINE
  14. CHAPTER TEN
  15. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  16. CHAPTER TWELVE
  17. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  19. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  21. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  22. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  23. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  43. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  44. CHAPTER FORTY
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  53. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  54. CHAPTER FIFTY
  55. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  56. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  57. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  58. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  59. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  60. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  61. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  62. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  63. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  64. CHAPTER SIXTY
  65. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  66. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  67. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  68. CHAPTER SIXTY-FOUR
  69. CHAPTER SIXTY-FIVE
  70. CHAPTER SIXTY-SIX
  71. CHAPTER SIXTY-SEVEN
  72. CHAPTER SIXTY-EIGHT
  73. CHAPTER SIXTY-NINE
  74. CHAPTER SEVENTY
  75. CHAPTER SEVENTY-ONE
  76. CHAPTER SEVENTY-TWO
  77. CHAPTER SEVENTY-THREE
  78. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FOUR
  79. CHAPTER SEVENTY-FIVE
  80. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SIX
  81. CHAPTER SEVENTY-SEVEN
  82. CHAPTER SEVENTY-EIGHT
  83. CHAPTER SEVENTY-NINE
  84. CHAPTER EIGHTY
  85. CHAPTER EIGHTY-ONE
  86. CHAPTER EIGHTY-TWO
  87. CHAPTER EIGHTY-THREE
  88. CHAPTER EIGHTY-FOUR
  89. CHAPTER EIGHTY-FIVE
  90. CHAPTER EIGHTY-SIX
  91. CHAPTER EIGHTY-SEVEN
  92. CHAPTER EIGHTY-EIGHT
  93. CHAPTER EIGHTY-NINE
  94. CHAPTER NINETY
  95. CHAPTER NINETY-ONE
  96. CHAPTER NINETY-TWO
  97. CHAPTER NINETY-THREE
  98. CHAPTER NINETY-FOUR
  99. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  100. GLOSSARY OF TERMS
  101. AUTHOR’S NOTE
  102. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  103. What’s next onyour reading list?

Zodwa is surprised when her mother addresses the white woman. They chat for a minute and then Zodwa watches in disbelief as Leleti throws herself into the stranger’s arms, embracing her as though they are long-lost friends. Their voices rise up into the night but Zodwa can’t hear the actual words over the sound of the traffic. What she can see is her mother smiling and laughing, wiping away tears as she holds the woman at arm’s length before pulling her back, time and again, into an even tighter embrace than before.

After a few moments of conversing, the woman reaches into the car’s boot and removes a few plastic bags. She holds them out to Leleti. When Leleti refuses them, the woman takes Leleti’s hand, holding it up and pressing it to her own heart before forcing the bags on her. The encounter is abruptly ended when the tire change is completed and the taxi drivers begin furiously motioning for the woman to move out of the way.

The woman gives the newspaper seller some money. As she pulls away, she winds down her window and waves and smiles at Leleti. “Goodbye, Precious! It was so wonderful seeing you!” Precious. It’s Leleti’s English name.

Leleti waves and smiles back, an expression of wonder on her face. Zodwa doesn’t know if it’s because of the windfall of groceries or the effect seeing the woman has had on her.

Zodwa smiles timidly as she greets her mother after she’s crossed the road. “Hello, Mama. Where were you today?”

“With Beauty in Soweto.”

Zodwa is taken aback. “Soweto? Why?”

“We were making inquiries about Nomsa and Dumisa.”

“Mama . . .” Zodwa shakes her head. That Leleti has traveled so far in her weakened state is worrying. At least she was with Mama Beauty, who would have looked out for her.

“What? I need to know what happened to him before I die.”

“Mama, you’re not going to . . .” Zodwa trails off when she sees the expression on her mother’s face. “Who was that you were with now?”

“Someone I used to work for very long ago when we were both just girls. The good Lord brought us together then and still He works His wonders today.”

Zodwa doesn’t share her mother’s faith. From what she can tell, it’s a quirk of fate or a spin of the wheel that decides who must suffer and who will be spared. Still, it’s more comforting believing that than thinking God chooses which of His lambs to torture and which to reward. If Zodwa’s rape and Leleti’s suffering were God’s will rather than something random, how much worse would that be? Still, she knows better than to say as much.

“You were hugging her,” Zodwa says accusingly.

Leleti smiles in admission.

“I thought you said all white people were demons.”