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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. Prologue
  5. One
  6. Two
  7. Three
  8. Four
  9. Five
  10. Six
  11. Seven
  12. Eight
  13. Nine
  14. Ten
  15. Eleven
  16. Twelve
  17. Thirteen
  18. Fourteen
  19. Fifteen
  20. Sixteen
  21. Seventeen
  22. Eighteen
  23. Nineteen
  24. Twenty
  25. Twenty-one
  26. Twenty-two
  27. Twenty-three
  28. Twenty-four
  29. Twenty-five
  30. Twenty-six
  31. Twenty-seven
  32. Twenty-eight
  33. Twenty-nine
  34. Thirty
  35. Thirty-one
  36. Thirty-two
  37. Thirty-three
  38. Thirty-four
  39. Thirty-five
  40. Thirty-six
  41. Thirty-seven
  42. Thirty-eight
  43. Thirty-nine
  44. Forty
  45. Forty-one
  46. Forty-two
  47. Forty-three
  48. Forty-four
  49. Forty-five
  50. Forty-six
  51. Forty-seven
  52. Forty-eight
  53. Forty-nine
  54. Fifty
  55. Fifty-one
  56. Fifty-two
  57. Fifty-three
  58. Fifty-four
  59. Fifty-five
  60. Fifty-six
  61. Fifty-seven
  62. Fifty-eight
  63. Fifty-nine
  64. Sixty
  65. Sixty-one
  66. Sixty-two
  67. Sixty-three
  68. Sixty-four
  69. Sixty-five
  70. Sixty-six
  71. Sixty-seven
  72. Epilogue
  73. Acknowledgments
  74. Read More
  75. Prologue
  76. One
  77. Two
  78. Three
  79. Four
  80. Follow Merilyn online
  81. Dedication

‘Any sign it’s not natural causes?’ Nell asked as they climbed the open-air stairwell, the smell of urine heavy around them, cigarette butts and broken bottles nestling at the edges of each step.

‘Not yet, but the pathologist has only just arrived.’

She hoped it was Eve, then they might stand a chance of getting out of there before midnight. Fishing her warrant card out of her jacket, she flashed it at the uniformed officer standing discreetly beside the open door: ‘DS Nell Jackson and DC Paul Hare.’

The uniform nodded and tipped her head down the hall. ‘Parents in the front room, second on left,’ she said, her voice low. ‘Deceased on right, directly across from them.’

‘Pathologist?’ Nell asked. Her heart pumped a little faster, adrenalin and nerves kicking in.

‘In with the child.’

‘OK, thanks.’ She looked at Paul, who gave a weary smile.

‘Child first, parents second, OK?’

He nodded, then smiling her thanks at the uniform, Nell said, ‘Right, let’s go and get this over with.’

In contrast to the hall – with its frayed pink carpet and tobacco-stained walls – the nursery was freshly painted, albeit unprofessionally. Despite the darkness – blackout blinds still down from the night before – Nell could make out paint spots on the carpet beneath a large cream cot; stuffed toys cramming the end of the mattress; a red blanket folded neatly over the wooden bars. And in the far corner of the room, a lone chair, next to which sat a bottle on a table, barely touched. There had been care given to this room, Nell thought; the best had been made of a bad job. So what had gone wrong?

Eve Graham was standing by the cot, gloved hands on the frame, staring downwards. The pathologist’s short white hair caught the light from the hall, but her face – the wide cheekbones, thickly carved jawline – remained in the shadows. There was a stillness about the scene that Nell felt uncomfortable interrupting.

‘Why hasn’t she started?’ Paul asked, voice low.

‘She likes to get a sense of the scene before she starts, to take it in as it was, before we arrive and swarm all over it.’ But Nell conceded the delay was unusual, even for Eve. She must have been there for half an hour at least.

At the sound of Nell’s voice, Eve straightened, drawing in air as she removed her hands from the cot and turned to face them.

‘Better late than never, I suppose.’ Her gravelly voice betrayed years of late nights smoking Benson & Hedges while drinking whisky and wine. Her tone was light; there was no chastisement, rather a bored disinterest in their arrival. Nell relaxed. This was the Eve she knew.