Back When I Lost You
Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. Prologue
  5. One
  6. Two
  7. Three
  8. Four
  9. Five
  10. Six
  11. Seven
  12. Eight
  13. Nine
  14. Ten
  15. Eleven
  16. Twelve
  17. Thirteen
  18. Fourteen
  19. Fifteen
  20. Sixteen
  21. Seventeen
  22. Eighteen
  23. Nineteen
  24. Twenty
  25. Twenty-one
  26. Twenty-two
  27. Twenty-three
  28. Twenty-four
  29. Twenty-five
  30. Twenty-six
  31. Twenty-seven
  32. Twenty-eight
  33. Twenty-nine
  34. Thirty
  35. Thirty-one
  36. Thirty-two
  37. Thirty-three
  38. Thirty-four
  39. Thirty-five
  40. Thirty-six
  41. Thirty-seven
  42. Thirty-eight
  43. Thirty-nine
  44. Forty
  45. Forty-one
  46. Forty-two
  47. Forty-three
  48. Forty-four
  49. Forty-five
  50. Forty-six
  51. Forty-seven
  52. Forty-eight
  53. Forty-nine
  54. Fifty
  55. Fifty-one
  56. Fifty-two
  57. Fifty-three
  58. Fifty-four
  59. Fifty-five
  60. Fifty-six
  61. Fifty-seven
  62. Fifty-eight
  63. Fifty-nine
  64. Sixty
  65. Sixty-one
  66. Sixty-two
  67. Sixty-three
  68. Sixty-four
  69. Sixty-five
  70. Sixty-six
  71. Sixty-seven
  72. Epilogue
  73. Acknowledgments
  74. Read More
  75. Prologue
  76. One
  77. Two
  78. Three
  79. Four
  80. Follow Merilyn online
  81. Dedication

Pulling a blanket over her legs, Carla took a sip of wine, enjoying the quick hit of it, and let Baz’s talk of his day wash over her. She looked around the rooftop, a mixture of people in workwear, the odd group of women gearing up for a long night with their lipstick and heels, before spotting a woman standing by the wall to Carla’s left. She was shrouded in shadow but – even so – Carla could tell she looked out of place. About twenty-eight, she was dressed in a black bomber jacket, hair tucked under a scruffy hat, face obscured by a thick wool scarf, and she seemed to be looking for someone, as her eyes darted around the room, briefly alighting on Carla before looking quickly away.

‘And then the damn woman wanted different tiles in the bathroom, as if she hadn’t made enough changes,’ Baz was saying, beer almost finished. Carla turned back to him.

‘Do you see that woman?’ She gave a light nod to the woman by the wall. ‘Don’t you think she looks, well, odd?’

Baz followed her stare before shrugging and downing the last of his pint. ‘She’s obviously homeless and has come in for a bit of warm. It’s not a crime, Carla, even though the police would probably like to make it one.’

She ignored the dig. Ever since she’d hidden from Baz that she was still using contraceptives, which she’d fully admitted was a terrible thing to do, he had increasingly made negative comments about the police in general and her colleagues in particular. She weathered it, figuring it was a price worth paying for him to trust her again, but every time a jibe came it was just a reminder he didn’t.

Baz stood. ‘I’m getting another pint, want another?’

The mood he was in made her want a whole bottle, but she said, ‘No thanks, I’m good.’

She watched him walk off and felt a pang of love – but whether it was for what they had now or a memory of what had been, she couldn’t tell.

Taking a sip of wine, she looked back at the woman by the wall. She hadn’t moved. Carla thought how small she looked, as if she was trying to make herself invisible. Maybe Baz was right – she was homeless and hiding from bar staff, but there was something about the way she kept scanning the crowd which made Carla think she was waiting for something.

Suddenly, the woman took a step out of the shadows – her face pale, her thin lips and nose overshadowed by wide, dark eyes, giving her a lost look. She appeared to have found what she was looking for, eyes fixated on a spot to the right of Carla, but the strength of the crowd made it impossible for Carla to see what it was.