Back When I Lost You
Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. Prologue
  5. One
  6. Two
  7. Three
  8. Four
  9. Five
  10. Six
  11. Seven
  12. Eight
  13. Nine
  14. Ten
  15. Eleven
  16. Twelve
  17. Thirteen
  18. Fourteen
  19. Fifteen
  20. Sixteen
  21. Seventeen
  22. Eighteen
  23. Nineteen
  24. Twenty
  25. Twenty-one
  26. Twenty-two
  27. Twenty-three
  28. Twenty-four
  29. Twenty-five
  30. Twenty-six
  31. Twenty-seven
  32. Twenty-eight
  33. Twenty-nine
  34. Thirty
  35. Thirty-one
  36. Thirty-two
  37. Thirty-three
  38. Thirty-four
  39. Thirty-five
  40. Thirty-six
  41. Thirty-seven
  42. Thirty-eight
  43. Thirty-nine
  44. Forty
  45. Forty-one
  46. Forty-two
  47. Forty-three
  48. Forty-four
  49. Forty-five
  50. Forty-six
  51. Forty-seven
  52. Forty-eight
  53. Forty-nine
  54. Fifty
  55. Fifty-one
  56. Fifty-two
  57. Fifty-three
  58. Fifty-four
  59. Fifty-five
  60. Fifty-six
  61. Fifty-seven
  62. Fifty-eight
  63. Fifty-nine
  64. Sixty
  65. Sixty-one
  66. Sixty-two
  67. Sixty-three
  68. Sixty-four
  69. Sixty-five
  70. Sixty-six
  71. Sixty-seven
  72. Epilogue
  73. Acknowledgments
  74. Read More
  75. Prologue
  76. One
  77. Two
  78. Three
  79. Four
  80. Follow Merilyn online
  81. Dedication

‘Sometimes a girl came to us from a family that was functioning, to a certain extent anyway, but which had reached a crisis and needed short-term help, or maybe long-term, but either way the building blocks, though flimsy, had been stable. For the most part,’ she added. ‘Those girls were easier to help because they had things we could work with, an understanding of social norms, of consequences. But some girls came to us with none of this. They had no blocks on which to build a life. They were, to risk using a tabloid trope, feral.’

‘Which types were these two girls?’

‘Well, Aoife was a girl who’d had no foundations whatsoever. Her family – and I use that in the loosest sense of the word – had been chaotic and in crisis more often than not. She’d been in and out of care since she was one, but she also had a sensitivity which hadn’t been beaten out of her, despite all attempts. In contrast, the other child was one we thought would only be with us for a few weeks, but as the months went on and her mum didn’t want to have anything to do with her, we lost her. I don’t think she could ever get over her mum choosing her dad over her, and she kept expecting her to turn up any day, which of course she never did.’

‘Aoife was the murdered child, yes?’

Harriet nodded. ‘Yes. So very tragic. Aoife was one of those girls who pretends they don’t care about anything because that way no one can hurt them. But with Mary she was different, maternal even, so it was especially lovely to watch the two of them form such a bond.’ She gave a short laugh and settled back in her seat, teacup in hand.

‘Mary?’ Nell looked at Carla, who was clearly as stunned as she was.

‘The second child on the beach was called Mary?’

‘I will never forget those two children as long as I live. So yes, I’m quite certain she was called Mary. Mary Balcombe.’ She smiled. ‘From the moment the girls met they were inseparable. We used to joke in the office. “Who’s seen the duo today?” we’d ask, and one of us would always have seen them – on the beach, at McDonald’s, in town.’ She looked down at the floor and shook her head.

‘What happened to Mary, after Aoife died?’

‘Well, naturally we all thought she’d fall apart. But she seemed to gain some inner strength and after the initial grief, she pulled through quite well, all things considered. Worked hard at school – turned out she was as bright as a button when she put her mind to it – and scored almost the highest in her year in her end of school exams.’

‘Was Mary ever implicated in the death of Aoife?’