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Chapters (172)
  1. Dedication
  2. PART ONE
  3. Saturday, 7 March 2020
  4. Matt
  5. 2
  6. 3
  7. Matt
  8. Annabelle
  9. 2
  10. Matt
  11. Annabelle
  12. Annabelle
  13. PART TWO
  14. Late July 2004
  15. September 2004, Birmingham University
  16. 2
  17. 3
  18. 4
  19. 5
  20. 6
  21. 7
  22. Saturday, 7 March 2020, 8.30 p.m.
  23. 2
  24. Annabelle
  25. 2
  26. Birmingham, October 2004
  27. 2
  28. 3
  29. 4
  30. 5
  31. Saturday, 7 March 2020, 10.00 p.m.
  32. Annabelle
  33. Birmingham, November 2004
  34. 2
  35. 3
  36. 4
  37. 5
  38. 6
  39. 7
  40. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 4 a.m.
  41. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 6.03 a.m.
  42. 2
  43. Birmingham, December 2006
  44. 2
  45. 3
  46. 4
  47. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 6.15 a.m.
  48. Annabelle
  49. Grappenhall Library, 2009
  50. 2
  51. 3
  52. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 6.45 a.m.
  53. Matt
  54. 2
  55. Chester, 2011
  56. 2
  57. 3
  58. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 2 p.m.
  59. Annabelle
  60. Summer 2012
  61. 2
  62. 3
  63. 4
  64. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 4.55 p.m.
  65. 2
  66. Summer 2012
  67. Late Summer 2012: Wedding Day
  68. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 5.31 p.m.
  69. Annabelle
  70. 2013 Christening
  71. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 5.35 p.m.
  72. 2013: Christening Party
  73. 2
  74. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 5.41 p.m.
  75. Matt
  76. Annabelle
  77. 2014
  78. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 5.44 p.m.
  79. Annabelle
  80. PART THREE
  81. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 5.50 p.m.
  82. Annabelle
  83. Matt
  84. Annabelle
  85. Matt
  86. Annabelle
  87. Wynne
  88. Matt
  89. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 6.40 p.m.
  90. 2
  91. Annabelle
  92. Monday, 9 March 2020, 8 a.m.
  93. Matt
  94. Wynne
  95. Annabelle
  96. Wynne
  97. 2
  98. Matt
  99. 2
  100. Annabelle
  101. Matt
  102. Wynne
  103. 2
  104. Matt
  105. Wynne
  106. 2
  107. Annabelle
  108. 2
  109. Wynne
  110. Annabelle
  111. 2
  112. 1
  113. 2
  114. Matt
  115. Wynne
  116. 2
  117. Wynne
  118. Matt
  119. Annabelle
  120. Annabelle
  121. 2
  122. Tuesday, 10 March 2020, 7 a.m.
  123. 2
  124. Annabelle
  125. Annabelle
  126. 2
  127. Matt
  128. Tuesday, 10 March 2020, 6 p.m.
  129. Annabelle
  130. Finn
  131. Annabelle
  132. Finn
  133. Wynne
  134. 1
  135. 2
  136. Wynne
  137. Wednesday, 11 March 2020, 8 a.m.
  138. Finn
  139. 2
  140. Annabelle
  141. Wynne
  142. PC Gibb
  143. 2
  144. Wynne
  145. Annabelle
  146. Annabelle
  147. Wynne
  148. Matt
  149. Annabelle
  150. Annabelle
  151. 2
  152. Wynne
  153. 2
  154. Annabelle
  155. Annabelle
  156. Wynne
  157. Annabelle
  158. PC Jessie Chalmers
  159. 2
  160. 3
  161. 4
  162. Annabelle
  163. Wynne
  164. Matt
  165. Read on for a sneak peek of Alex Lake’s new novel, coming 2021 …
  166. Early Summer, 2020
  167. Chapter One
  168. Keep Reading …
  169. Acknowledgements
  170. About the Author
  171. Also by Alex Lake
  172. About the Publisher

They had three already, which was quite a handful, but he had managed to persuade her to add one more. Norman, seven, was named after her late father, a physics teacher and one of the most creative and inspiring people Matt had ever met. Keith – named after the Rolling Stone, if anyone asked – had come next, followed by Molly. Each kid had brought with them worse morning sickness and harder labours: Norman was nine pounds, Keith ten, and Molly eleven. As far as Annabelle was concerned, that was nature’s way of telling them to stop at three, but the years passed and the memories faded and, after a while, she had agreed to try for another.

His friends thought he was crazy, but he liked having kids. It was chaotic and busy, for sure, but he enjoyed it. More than that: he loved it. At work he daydreamed of sitting on the couch watching a movie with the three of them snuggled up to him and Annabelle, or of coming home and reading them a book.

And even though Norman was only seven he felt the time slipping away. He couldn’t bear the thought there were only eleven years to go until he left for university or a career or whatever came his way, to be followed swiftly by Keith and Molly.

The first seven years had vanished in the blink of an eye, so eleven more was nothing. He wasn’t ready for it, and the only way to stop it was to have more kids. Five, maybe, or six.

Annabelle might have something to say about that, but he’d cross that bridge when he came to it.

He looked out of the shop window at the car. The doors were still closed. The front doors were unlocked, but the rear doors were child-locked so, even if they tried, the kids wouldn’t be able to get out. They’d have to climb into the front and go out that way, which was unlikely.

Still, he’d be as quick as he could. He didn’t need a police officer walking past and seeing them and questioning where their mum or dad was. He was pretty sure it wasn’t against the law to leave them there but he still didn’t want to discuss whether it was good parenting or not to do so.

He grabbed a basket and moved around the shop. Milk, skimmed. A block of Irish cheddar cheese. A bag of pasta – fusilli, he noted, whatever that was. Coffee, not a brand he recognized and probably awful, but it would have to do. Bread, brown, unsliced – they had surprisingly good loaves here – and a warm baguette. He paused at the wine shelf. Maybe he would have a glass after all. Red, perhaps. It was cold, the nights drawing in. He picked up a bottle of Cabernet. That would do.