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Chapters (172)
  1. Dedication
  2. PART ONE
  3. Saturday, 7 March 2020
  4. Matt
  5. 2
  6. 3
  7. Matt
  8. Annabelle
  9. 2
  10. Matt
  11. Annabelle
  12. Annabelle
  13. PART TWO
  14. Late July 2004
  15. September 2004, Birmingham University
  16. 2
  17. 3
  18. 4
  19. 5
  20. 6
  21. 7
  22. Saturday, 7 March 2020, 8.30 p.m.
  23. 2
  24. Annabelle
  25. 2
  26. Birmingham, October 2004
  27. 2
  28. 3
  29. 4
  30. 5
  31. Saturday, 7 March 2020, 10.00 p.m.
  32. Annabelle
  33. Birmingham, November 2004
  34. 2
  35. 3
  36. 4
  37. 5
  38. 6
  39. 7
  40. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 4 a.m.
  41. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 6.03 a.m.
  42. 2
  43. Birmingham, December 2006
  44. 2
  45. 3
  46. 4
  47. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 6.15 a.m.
  48. Annabelle
  49. Grappenhall Library, 2009
  50. 2
  51. 3
  52. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 6.45 a.m.
  53. Matt
  54. 2
  55. Chester, 2011
  56. 2
  57. 3
  58. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 2 p.m.
  59. Annabelle
  60. Summer 2012
  61. 2
  62. 3
  63. 4
  64. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 4.55 p.m.
  65. 2
  66. Summer 2012
  67. Late Summer 2012: Wedding Day
  68. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 5.31 p.m.
  69. Annabelle
  70. 2013 Christening
  71. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 5.35 p.m.
  72. 2013: Christening Party
  73. 2
  74. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 5.41 p.m.
  75. Matt
  76. Annabelle
  77. 2014
  78. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 5.44 p.m.
  79. Annabelle
  80. PART THREE
  81. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 5.50 p.m.
  82. Annabelle
  83. Matt
  84. Annabelle
  85. Matt
  86. Annabelle
  87. Wynne
  88. Matt
  89. Sunday, 8 March 2020, 6.40 p.m.
  90. 2
  91. Annabelle
  92. Monday, 9 March 2020, 8 a.m.
  93. Matt
  94. Wynne
  95. Annabelle
  96. Wynne
  97. 2
  98. Matt
  99. 2
  100. Annabelle
  101. Matt
  102. Wynne
  103. 2
  104. Matt
  105. Wynne
  106. 2
  107. Annabelle
  108. 2
  109. Wynne
  110. Annabelle
  111. 2
  112. 1
  113. 2
  114. Matt
  115. Wynne
  116. 2
  117. Wynne
  118. Matt
  119. Annabelle
  120. Annabelle
  121. 2
  122. Tuesday, 10 March 2020, 7 a.m.
  123. 2
  124. Annabelle
  125. Annabelle
  126. 2
  127. Matt
  128. Tuesday, 10 March 2020, 6 p.m.
  129. Annabelle
  130. Finn
  131. Annabelle
  132. Finn
  133. Wynne
  134. 1
  135. 2
  136. Wynne
  137. Wednesday, 11 March 2020, 8 a.m.
  138. Finn
  139. 2
  140. Annabelle
  141. Wynne
  142. PC Gibb
  143. 2
  144. Wynne
  145. Annabelle
  146. Annabelle
  147. Wynne
  148. Matt
  149. Annabelle
  150. Annabelle
  151. 2
  152. Wynne
  153. 2
  154. Annabelle
  155. Annabelle
  156. Wynne
  157. Annabelle
  158. PC Jessie Chalmers
  159. 2
  160. 3
  161. 4
  162. Annabelle
  163. Wynne
  164. Matt
  165. Read on for a sneak peek of Alex Lake’s new novel, coming 2021 …
  166. Early Summer, 2020
  167. Chapter One
  168. Keep Reading …
  169. Acknowledgements
  170. About the Author
  171. Also by Alex Lake
  172. About the Publisher

Carrie had read about online bullying, but she had no idea how bad it could be. The things that were posted, the lies and rumours and insults, the sheer cruelty – she didn’t even want to think about them.

It had reached a head when Nancy had refused to go to school at all. When Carrie pushed, she showed her a photo.

It was a naked woman in an obscene pose, with Nancy’s head photoshopped onto the body. It looked very realistic, and, it turned out, many of her classmates thought it was her daughter – her then fourteen-year-old daughter. Nancy had received a barrage of messages from them, calling her a slut or a whore, others asking her for blowjobs or if she did threesomes, others simply taunting her with messages like You’ll always be porn girl or every town needs a bike for all the boys to ride.

Nancy had begged her parents not to say anything to anyone – You’ll just make it worse, she said, although Carrie didn’t know how it could be worse – but they had insisted. The school and the police had done what they could, which, since the photo had come from an anonymous account, was nothing other than talk to the pupils to try and scare them into leaving Nancy alone.

Which they did. She was cold-shouldered and excluded and sniggered at in the corridor. Dana did all the things bullies did: she stared at her for long periods of time, whispered when she passed by, burst out laughing if she saw her.

So Carrie was glad the Coronavirus had come, glad when school closed early, glad to have her daughter back in the house where she could try to repair the damage.

Because Nancy was shattered. Pale, thin, drawn, unable to take pleasure in anything.

But gradually she started to eat and laugh and read and recover something of who she had been.

Carrie and Rob had looked for houses in another school district. They were going to make a new start, get their daughter out of the hell she had been in.

They were going to move on.

But first there was the summer to get through. And today was a good start. Sun, sea air, exercise.

Carrie sipped her seltzer. Nancy was about a hundred yards away, ambling along the beach by a low cliff. She started to climb it. It was not all that high – maybe thirty feet – but the far side was a sheer drop onto an outcrop of jagged rocks, against which the waves crashed and pounded.

When she reached the top she paused and looked out over the ocean, then took a deep breath.

Yes, Carrie thought, breathe it in. Breathe in that strength and health and life.

And then Nancy started, like a deer that has heard a rifle shot. She looked over her shoulder and froze.

Nancy followed her gaze. And there she was.

Standing behind her on the cliff.

Dana.