“You’re my submissive,” he answers, and I lose it.

“Is that really fucking it?” I blurt out with a deep, painful furrow in my brow. “You’re just my Dom and I’m your submissive, and this is all about sex, is that it? So, you don't actually give a fuck about me? You just want to fuck me and come all over me, but you don't actually value me? Well, if that’s the case, you can keep your fucking breakfast in bed, Nasir. I told you, I’m not Ava from The Patient. I’m not some desperate, psychotic girl who needs your attention. If you don't put any value in me—in us—then what’s the point of all this?”

As I start to climb out of bed, Nas quickly jumps up first with raised hands, his dick dangling between his legs. “Wait, I’m sorry. Yes, you're more to me than just my submissive. I’m sorry, okay? I’m not used to feeling anything for anybody, and I don't really know what to do with these feelings. You're special, Alina, in a way that I didn't expect, and it’s … complicating things … but I don't want to lose you. You make me feel powerful in a way I’ve never experienced before, and it’s weird to me. You allow me to be myself. You root for me unlike anyone ever has, and I feel like I’ve found a home in you. It makes me wonder what the hell is wrong with me sometimes, and I’m sorry I don't know how to define it, but I just don't. Usually, at this point in my previous relationships I would've already ended it, and maybe that makes me a bad person, but I can’t do that with you. So, just please be patient with me and we’ll work it out, okay? I’m sorry, and no matter what else happens, don't ever let yourself forget that you're special to me. You very much are. You're more than just my submissive. I just don't know what to do at this part. How I feel about you is new territory for me, and I’m still figuring it all out.”

I stand next to the bed and observe the panicked look on Nas’s face, and it tells me more than his words could. I can hear the emotion in his voice, but the look on his face says it all. He actually doesn't want me to leave, and just watching me get out of bed was enough to bring it out of him. There it is. That’s all I wanted, so I slowly sit down on the bed, still glaring at him while I sneak glances at his dick.