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Chapters (58)
  1. Full Page Image
  2. Contents
  3. Copyright
  4. Important Note:
  5. ~ Ground Zero ~
  6. Chapter One
  7. Chapter Two
  8. Chapter Three
  9. Chapter Four
  10. Chapter Five
  11. ~ Absolutely ~
  12. Chapter Six
  13. Chapter Seven
  14. Chapter Eight
  15. Chapter Nine
  16. ~ Someone To Feed It ~
  17. Chapter Ten
  18. Chapter Eleven
  19. Chapter Twelve
  20. Chapter Thirteen
  21. Chapter Fourteen
  22. Chapter Fifteen
  23. ~ I’ve Got You Now ~
  24. Chapter Sixteen
  25. Chapter Seventeen
  26. Chapter Eighteen
  27. Chapter Nineteen
  28. Chapter Twenty
  29. Chapter Twenty-One
  30. Chapter Twenty-Two
  31. ~ Him ~
  32. Chapter Twenty-Three
  33. Chapter Twenty-Four
  34. Chapter Twenty-Five
  35. Chapter Twenty-Six
  36. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  37. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  38. ~ As I Fall ~
  39. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  40. Chapter Thirty
  41. Chapter Thirty-One
  42. Chapter Thirty-Two
  43. Chapter Thirty-Three
  44. Chapter Thirty-Four
  45. Chapter Thirty-Five
  46. Chapter Thirty-Six
  47. ~ The Luckiest Girl In The World ~
  48. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  49. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  50. Two Months Later
  51. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  52. Chapter Forty
  53. Chapter Forty-One
  54. Chapter Forty-Two
  55. Six Months Later
  56. Chapter Forty-Three
  57. Acknowledgments
  58. Also by WS Greer

Nas lifts his chin and kisses me on the forehead before standing up and walking out of view. As soon as he’s gone, I smile from ear to ear. It feels incredible to have someone finally see me for who I truly am. He has seen my darkness and embraced it. I don't have to hide anymore. I don't have to shut down the part of my brain that whispers blackness to me. I can be myself. No more warring in my mind. I can finally be at peace. This is the happiest I’ve ever felt.

I can’t see Nas anymore, but I can hear him. He opens a cabinet somewhere behind me—a cabinet that contains things I haven't seen. I don't know what torture toys he has back there, but my anxiety is being buttressed by my excitement. He doesn't have to show me. I just want to feel it. For the first time in my life, I don't hear a dark voice in my head. There is only me—the real me who wants the pain. I am no longer separate from my darkness. We are one. I’m not watching anything happen to me. I’m experiencing it all. I’m finally living.

After a moment of indecisiveness behind me, Nas finally returns to the front of the bench. He has both hands behind his back, and I’m pretty sure I see something dangling behind him when he reaches me, but he doesn’t mention it. Instead, he crouches down in front of me again, and looks me straight in the eye.

“In this world of ours,” he begins. “I’m king. I am god. I’m your Dom, and you're my submissive. You belong to me, but it’s important that you remember that I also belong to you. Yes, I’m in charge, but I’m yours, and at the heart of what we do is the fact that you're stronger than me, Alina. You have more power than I do. The only reason I have control over you is because you give it to me. Without your consent, I am powerless. So, while I’m in control, it’s you who’s actually in charge. You're the goddess who has given control over to me, and you can take it away at any moment. All you have to do is say the safe word. Say this word one time, and we stop everything immediately. No questions asked, and absolutely no shame. Do you understand what I’m saying?”

“Yes, Sir,” I answer, feeling soothed by Nas’s words as my skin itches to feel something.