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  1. I
  2. ELEVENTH, OR COOKED CREAM
  3. II
  4. INTERLUDE—THE DAY OF ACCIDENTS, OR HOW ELEVENTH CAME TO BE FIRST
  5. III
  6. THE ORACLE AND THE APPRENTICE
  7. IV
  8. THE WATERS SPEAK
  9. V
  10. OVERCOOKED AND DESPISED
  11. VI
  12. LIKE THE LEAPING OF FROGS
  13. VII
  14. INTERLUDE—ANOTHER MISFORTUNE
  15. VIII
  16. A SACK OF CABBAGES IN THE DARK
  17. IX
  18. NO WORDS
  19. X
  20. THE MORNING PERAMBULATION OF THE SHEPHERD, OR THE HAREBRAINED AIRMONGER
  21. XI
  22. TENDER MANDIBLES
  23. XII
  24. FUR
  25. XIII
  26. HEARTH
  27. XIV
  28. THE LIMBS OF ANTS AND BEETLES
  29. XV
  30. THE WAY A BEAR LICKS HER CUBS INTO SHAPE
  31. XVI
  32. WHAT ANIMAL?
  33. XVII
  34. TRUTHS, OR TWO WHEELS SHEEP CHEESE
  35. XVIII
  36. ALL-TOOTHY FUR
  37. XIX
  38. AN EMPTINESS ALMOST UNEMPTIED
  39. XX
  40. A DELICATE ANIMAL
  41. XXI
  42. AH, THERE YOU ARE
  43. XXII
  44. NEVER MIND WORDS AND MAGIC AND MEANT TO
  45. XXIII
  46. THE FLOWERS THAT BLOOM IN THE THICK MUCK OF PIGS
  47. XXIV
  48. THE ROUND GOODNESS OF EGG
  49. XXV
  50. JUST A LONE MALE
  51. XXVI
  52. INTERLUDE—AN INFESTATION IN THE PRIESTS’ LIBRARY
  53. XXVII
  54. INKY BEETLES OF TRUTH
  55. XXVIII
  56. LOVE MAKES HER LIGHT AS A LAMB
  57. XXIX
  58. THE PIGLETS GROW FASTER TO PLEASE HIM
  59. XXX
  60. A MOUNTAIN TO MAKE THE SOUND MM
  61. XXXI
  62. WITH SOOT LEFT FROM FLAMES
  63. XXXII
  64. ANOTHER PANCAKE, PERHAPS?
  65. XXXIII
  66. SLIPPERY FISH SCALES
  67. XXXIV
  68. INTERLUDE—A MASSAGE OF THE TOES AND A TONIC OF BEETROOT
  69. XXXV
  70. A FAT, FLABBY RAT IN ITS MOUTH
  71. XXXVI
  72. A LITTLE CLOUD
  73. XXXVII
  74. A LIE, A SEED OF UNCERTAINTY
  75. XXXVIII
  76. NOTHING-FULL
  77. XXXIX
  78. THE SMELL OF BIRDS IN THE AIR
  79. XL
  80. ONETWOTHREEFOURFIVESIX
  81. XLI
  82. THE KING GROWS TIRED OF HIS ACROBATS
  83. XLII
  84. A GREASY SHRIEK
  85. XLIII
  86. TSPTSP, OR THE VIOLENT NOISE OF NATURE
  87. XLIV
  88. THE FEELING OF TEETH IN HIS MOUTH
  89. XLV
  90. A TERRIFYING EAGERNESS, OR CURDS ROUNDING IN WHEY
  91. XLVI
  92. DORMICE, FLAMINGOES, HONEYCAKE, PLUMS
  93. XLVII
  94. SAUSAGE-GREASED FINGERS
  95. XLVIII
  96. ALL BELLY EMPTY AND FULL
  97. XLIX
  98. A PLATTER OF MEAT
  99. L
  100. EMPTY, EMPTY, EMPTY
  101. LI
  102. SOFT, FAT, AND GHOSTLY
  103. LII
  104. DRIP
  105. LIII
  106. THE NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING, OR TTHHHRRRP
  107. LIV
  108. THE UNPICKING
  109. LV
  110. A MIRAGE, A FEVER
  111. LVI
  112. HOW CURIOUS: A WAY IN
  113. LVII
  114. TOO-HASTY SEAMS
  115. LVIII
  116. HE LEAVES THE BONES
  117. LIX
  118. NO-LONGER-A-NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING
  119. LX
  120. SHE SPEAKS! SHE SPEAKS!
  121. LXI
  122. WRRRR
  123. LXII
  124. INTERLUDE—FRAGMENTS AND EPHEMERA
  125. LXIII
  126. LIKE SLEEPING, LIKE DREAMING
  127. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

“I will put it in the library with the other parchments. No one will know to look for it. It will simply stay hidden on the shelves… likely for centuries.” He started to roll the parchment into a long column.

“Wait,” Alba said. She dipped her reed into the ink. “If that’s true… there’s one more thing I would like to write.”

Maurus spread the parchment across her lap, then stood to stretch. While she wrote, he strolled in a small circle.

I, THE ORACLE-APPRENTICE, Alba marked carefully, SAW IN A VISION THAT THE KING’S MOTHER GAVE BIRTH TO TWINS. I SAW THE KING’S SERVANT ABANDON THE TWINS IN THE MOUNTAINS. THE HEIR WAS NOT STILLBORN.

Alba hesitated, then continued. I AM TO BLAME FOR THE DEATH OF THE BABES, FOR I GAVE THE KING A TERRIBLE PROPHECY.

She looked over the words she had written, sturdy certainties beetling over the blank space, hurrying out with their knowledge.

Peering over her shoulder, Maurus breathed. “No… oh no.”

“It is the truth.”

“You cannot write this.”

“I should not have said anything. I saw how fragile he was. It’s my fault he felt he had to abandon the babes. It’s my fault the babes were… lost.”

“I cannot put this into the library… we have to destroy it.”

“No—you must make sure it is kept! Please. You said no one would find it.”

Maurus shook his head. “No, before—it was only us on the parchment. If anyone saw… well, we would not risk more than we are risking now, here, sitting in the dark. But you write of the king. Of deeds the king has done. This can’t be found. Ever.”

“Please.” Alba pushed the parchment toward the boy. “I have to know that this… that this truth is somewhere. That it exists.”

“Alba,” the boy said, and Alba started at hearing her name said aloud.

“Maurus,” she said, and the boy started, too. “Please.”

An owl shrieked in the distance. Alba shivered, and the boy, seeing her shiver, nodded.

“This is a terrible risk,” he said, but he took the parchment.

“It is a terrible truth,” Alba said. “Thank you… Maurus.”

XVIII

ALL-TOOTHY FUR

The next day found Rae still singing. She sang as she shook out her bedding—Wolf in the den; she sang as she dipped her bread into milk—the dark of the earth. She sang as she helped Nessa tend to the ewes—the creeping of root; she sang as she helped Mop carry water from the stream—the scruffling of dirt. She sang all through their morning chores and noonday meal, and when the afternoon grew warm and still, all the sheep even tranquil in the fields, Nessa finally sent her out.

“Enough, child!” Nessa said. “Dear daughter, enough! A body needs some quiet. Go, go out of doors for a while. You have too much energy for me today.”

So Rae ran out into the sunshine, out across the stream, and up into the meadows. She stood facing the hills and bellowed out her song again and again, listening to the land send it back to her, her voice transformed by trees and cliffs and air: wolf dark root dirt beast fur empty empty empty. Tiring at last of this game, she lay down in the grass. The seed heads fanned over her, half shadowing, half tickling her. Closing her eyes, she listened to the wind pushing through the field: She felt it still full of her words, and the longer she listened, the further she fell into the warm hushing quiet, until, without meaning to, she drifted into the warm hushing quiet of sleep.