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Contents ( 127)
  1. I
  2. ELEVENTH, OR COOKED CREAM
  3. II
  4. INTERLUDE—THE DAY OF ACCIDENTS, OR HOW ELEVENTH CAME TO BE FIRST
  5. III
  6. THE ORACLE AND THE APPRENTICE
  7. IV
  8. THE WATERS SPEAK
  9. V
  10. OVERCOOKED AND DESPISED
  11. VI
  12. LIKE THE LEAPING OF FROGS
  13. VII
  14. INTERLUDE—ANOTHER MISFORTUNE
  15. VIII
  16. A SACK OF CABBAGES IN THE DARK
  17. IX
  18. NO WORDS
  19. X
  20. THE MORNING PERAMBULATION OF THE SHEPHERD, OR THE HAREBRAINED AIRMONGER
  21. XI
  22. TENDER MANDIBLES
  23. XII
  24. FUR
  25. XIII
  26. HEARTH
  27. XIV
  28. THE LIMBS OF ANTS AND BEETLES
  29. XV
  30. THE WAY A BEAR LICKS HER CUBS INTO SHAPE
  31. XVI
  32. WHAT ANIMAL?
  33. XVII
  34. TRUTHS, OR TWO WHEELS SHEEP CHEESE
  35. XVIII
  36. ALL-TOOTHY FUR
  37. XIX
  38. AN EMPTINESS ALMOST UNEMPTIED
  39. XX
  40. A DELICATE ANIMAL
  41. XXI
  42. AH, THERE YOU ARE
  43. XXII
  44. NEVER MIND WORDS AND MAGIC AND MEANT TO
  45. XXIII
  46. THE FLOWERS THAT BLOOM IN THE THICK MUCK OF PIGS
  47. XXIV
  48. THE ROUND GOODNESS OF EGG
  49. XXV
  50. JUST A LONE MALE
  51. XXVI
  52. INTERLUDE—AN INFESTATION IN THE PRIESTS’ LIBRARY
  53. XXVII
  54. INKY BEETLES OF TRUTH
  55. XXVIII
  56. LOVE MAKES HER LIGHT AS A LAMB
  57. XXIX
  58. THE PIGLETS GROW FASTER TO PLEASE HIM
  59. XXX
  60. A MOUNTAIN TO MAKE THE SOUND MM
  61. XXXI
  62. WITH SOOT LEFT FROM FLAMES
  63. XXXII
  64. ANOTHER PANCAKE, PERHAPS?
  65. XXXIII
  66. SLIPPERY FISH SCALES
  67. XXXIV
  68. INTERLUDE—A MASSAGE OF THE TOES AND A TONIC OF BEETROOT
  69. XXXV
  70. A FAT, FLABBY RAT IN ITS MOUTH
  71. XXXVI
  72. A LITTLE CLOUD
  73. XXXVII
  74. A LIE, A SEED OF UNCERTAINTY
  75. XXXVIII
  76. NOTHING-FULL
  77. XXXIX
  78. THE SMELL OF BIRDS IN THE AIR
  79. XL
  80. ONETWOTHREEFOURFIVESIX
  81. XLI
  82. THE KING GROWS TIRED OF HIS ACROBATS
  83. XLII
  84. A GREASY SHRIEK
  85. XLIII
  86. TSPTSP, OR THE VIOLENT NOISE OF NATURE
  87. XLIV
  88. THE FEELING OF TEETH IN HIS MOUTH
  89. XLV
  90. A TERRIFYING EAGERNESS, OR CURDS ROUNDING IN WHEY
  91. XLVI
  92. DORMICE, FLAMINGOES, HONEYCAKE, PLUMS
  93. XLVII
  94. SAUSAGE-GREASED FINGERS
  95. XLVIII
  96. ALL BELLY EMPTY AND FULL
  97. XLIX
  98. A PLATTER OF MEAT
  99. L
  100. EMPTY, EMPTY, EMPTY
  101. LI
  102. SOFT, FAT, AND GHOSTLY
  103. LII
  104. DRIP
  105. LIII
  106. THE NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING, OR TTHHHRRRP
  107. LIV
  108. THE UNPICKING
  109. LV
  110. A MIRAGE, A FEVER
  111. LVI
  112. HOW CURIOUS: A WAY IN
  113. LVII
  114. TOO-HASTY SEAMS
  115. LVIII
  116. HE LEAVES THE BONES
  117. LIX
  118. NO-LONGER-A-NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING
  119. LX
  120. SHE SPEAKS! SHE SPEAKS!
  121. LXI
  122. WRRRR
  123. LXII
  124. INTERLUDE—FRAGMENTS AND EPHEMERA
  125. LXIII
  126. LIKE SLEEPING, LIKE DREAMING
  127. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

One evening, when Alba had grown tired of copying, she tried to write words for which she had no model.

ALBA, she wrote, sounding it out. ALBA.

“What’s that?” the boy asked, watching her progress.

“My name.” ALBA ALBA ALBA, she wrote in large, dark strokes: A whole colony of ants carried her personhood over the page. ALBA. The insects marched with the truth: Alba, not Oracle-Apprentice. Alba.

“Maurus,” said the boy-priest softly.

“Maurus?” Alba paused.

“My name. Before I became apprenticed to the priests.”

“Maurus,” she said, and touched the tip of the reed to the parchment. Maurus.

ONCE I LIVED IN A HOME WITH MY MOTHER AND FATHER AND BROTHERS, she wrote slowly. WHEN I WAS STILL A GIRL, THE PRIESTS CAME TO OUR VILLAGE AND TOOK ME AWAY FROM MY FAMILY. NO ONE PROTESTED. NO ONE TRIED TO STOP THEM.

“My mother tried to stop them when they came to my village,” the boy said quietly. “She tried to say I was needed. I remember, she pleaded with my father—He helps with the children. I did—I was the oldest of six. I helped keep them fed and bathed. I cooked for them and mended their clothes and saw that their faces were washed. When my mother’s hands were full, I rocked the littlest ones to sleep. But my father called me another mouth to feed, and said it was good fortune the priests had come. They were not even seeking novitiates, but my father convinced them to take me.”

MAURUS, wrote Alba, WAS SENT TO THE PRIESTS BY HIS FATH—

“No.” Maurus stopped her hand. “Write instead that Maurus cared for his brothers and sisters.”

MAURUS CARED FOR HIS BROTHERS AND SISTERS, Alba wrote. HE BATHED THEM AND COOKED FOR THEM AND MENDED THEIR CLOTHES AND ROCKED THEM TO SLEEP. She thought for a minute, remembering, and then added, HIS MOTHER TAUGHT HIM TO MAKE A STEW WITH CHICKPEAS.

“Write that I miss them.”

HE MISSES THEM STILL, she wrote. HE LOVED THEM.

The two stared at the parchment now nearly covered with Alba’s uncertain markings. Under the flickering lantern, the little insect-legs seemed set in motion, skittering eagerly over the page. Alba felt a sense of satisfaction to see these cicadas and beetles and spiders scurrying out with their hard, shiny bodies of truth.

“I cried,” Maurus added. “I cried for days. Even years later, often, in hours I was alone.”

Alba nodded. “I was too angry to cry,” she said finally. “But still…” She shook her head.

They sat for a time in silence, watching the sky begin to grow gray around them.

“You remind me of my little sister,” Maurus said at last. “She was stubborn, like you. She’d have wanted to learn to write as well.”

Not exactly younger, Alba thought, but she did not see how she could even begin to explain. Maurus now appeared nearly grown, while she still looked like a child. Besides, she liked feeling like his younger sister. “What will you do with this writing?” she asked instead. “If the priests see it, they will know you have been teaching me.”