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  1. I
  2. ELEVENTH, OR COOKED CREAM
  3. II
  4. INTERLUDE—THE DAY OF ACCIDENTS, OR HOW ELEVENTH CAME TO BE FIRST
  5. III
  6. THE ORACLE AND THE APPRENTICE
  7. IV
  8. THE WATERS SPEAK
  9. V
  10. OVERCOOKED AND DESPISED
  11. VI
  12. LIKE THE LEAPING OF FROGS
  13. VII
  14. INTERLUDE—ANOTHER MISFORTUNE
  15. VIII
  16. A SACK OF CABBAGES IN THE DARK
  17. IX
  18. NO WORDS
  19. X
  20. THE MORNING PERAMBULATION OF THE SHEPHERD, OR THE HAREBRAINED AIRMONGER
  21. XI
  22. TENDER MANDIBLES
  23. XII
  24. FUR
  25. XIII
  26. HEARTH
  27. XIV
  28. THE LIMBS OF ANTS AND BEETLES
  29. XV
  30. THE WAY A BEAR LICKS HER CUBS INTO SHAPE
  31. XVI
  32. WHAT ANIMAL?
  33. XVII
  34. TRUTHS, OR TWO WHEELS SHEEP CHEESE
  35. XVIII
  36. ALL-TOOTHY FUR
  37. XIX
  38. AN EMPTINESS ALMOST UNEMPTIED
  39. XX
  40. A DELICATE ANIMAL
  41. XXI
  42. AH, THERE YOU ARE
  43. XXII
  44. NEVER MIND WORDS AND MAGIC AND MEANT TO
  45. XXIII
  46. THE FLOWERS THAT BLOOM IN THE THICK MUCK OF PIGS
  47. XXIV
  48. THE ROUND GOODNESS OF EGG
  49. XXV
  50. JUST A LONE MALE
  51. XXVI
  52. INTERLUDE—AN INFESTATION IN THE PRIESTS’ LIBRARY
  53. XXVII
  54. INKY BEETLES OF TRUTH
  55. XXVIII
  56. LOVE MAKES HER LIGHT AS A LAMB
  57. XXIX
  58. THE PIGLETS GROW FASTER TO PLEASE HIM
  59. XXX
  60. A MOUNTAIN TO MAKE THE SOUND MM
  61. XXXI
  62. WITH SOOT LEFT FROM FLAMES
  63. XXXII
  64. ANOTHER PANCAKE, PERHAPS?
  65. XXXIII
  66. SLIPPERY FISH SCALES
  67. XXXIV
  68. INTERLUDE—A MASSAGE OF THE TOES AND A TONIC OF BEETROOT
  69. XXXV
  70. A FAT, FLABBY RAT IN ITS MOUTH
  71. XXXVI
  72. A LITTLE CLOUD
  73. XXXVII
  74. A LIE, A SEED OF UNCERTAINTY
  75. XXXVIII
  76. NOTHING-FULL
  77. XXXIX
  78. THE SMELL OF BIRDS IN THE AIR
  79. XL
  80. ONETWOTHREEFOURFIVESIX
  81. XLI
  82. THE KING GROWS TIRED OF HIS ACROBATS
  83. XLII
  84. A GREASY SHRIEK
  85. XLIII
  86. TSPTSP, OR THE VIOLENT NOISE OF NATURE
  87. XLIV
  88. THE FEELING OF TEETH IN HIS MOUTH
  89. XLV
  90. A TERRIFYING EAGERNESS, OR CURDS ROUNDING IN WHEY
  91. XLVI
  92. DORMICE, FLAMINGOES, HONEYCAKE, PLUMS
  93. XLVII
  94. SAUSAGE-GREASED FINGERS
  95. XLVIII
  96. ALL BELLY EMPTY AND FULL
  97. XLIX
  98. A PLATTER OF MEAT
  99. L
  100. EMPTY, EMPTY, EMPTY
  101. LI
  102. SOFT, FAT, AND GHOSTLY
  103. LII
  104. DRIP
  105. LIII
  106. THE NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING, OR TTHHHRRRP
  107. LIV
  108. THE UNPICKING
  109. LV
  110. A MIRAGE, A FEVER
  111. LVI
  112. HOW CURIOUS: A WAY IN
  113. LVII
  114. TOO-HASTY SEAMS
  115. LVIII
  116. HE LEAVES THE BONES
  117. LIX
  118. NO-LONGER-A-NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING
  119. LX
  120. SHE SPEAKS! SHE SPEAKS!
  121. LXI
  122. WRRRR
  123. LXII
  124. INTERLUDE—FRAGMENTS AND EPHEMERA
  125. LXIII
  126. LIKE SLEEPING, LIKE DREAMING
  127. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

Over and over in the shadowy hours, she berated herself: She should not have revealed the heir. The girl would die because of her.

“Rae!”

A mineral silence.

“Rae!”

Was the heir still alive?

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She looked for signs. But in this dank little chamber, held away from everything, there were none. Not in the dark, in the dirt, in the stones, in the scattering of straw on the floor—no, none at all.

Once she saw a beetle, shiny and dark, twist itself from the dirt, and she followed its gentle, scraping trail as it made its way around the chamber. She searched her memories—Is it an augury? She didn’t think so. Nevertheless, she found its presence—a tiny herald from the outside—and its path—meandering and purposeful all at once—comforting. She watched it clamber stone over stone. When it disappeared again into the wall, leaving her alone in the dirt and the dark, she nearly cried. The silence pressed on her, flattening her into the shadows.

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The hours grew longer still. She tried to pass the time in sleep.

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Once, it must have rained. The wet crept down the walls until finally a drip, drip, drip sounded from a rock in the corner.

She listened to it for hours. Drip. A puddle grew on the floor.

Drip.

In the dark, it kept her awake.

Drip.

Drip.

Drip.

She lay on the straw, listening to the sound that was never quite steady.

Drip.

The damp spread under her limbs.

Drip.

She thought she would never fall asleep, the—drip—came and—drip—went so unevenly.

Drip.

Still, she must have fallen asleep, for finally—drip—she found herself dreaming. She dreamed the water was falling—drip—onto her body, then that she was the water itself—drip—falling and slipping into the earth. She dreamed she was moving—drip—all through the earth, all through the air between the dirt and stones; she dreamed she was slipping past roots twisting their slender fingers, past beetles and grubs and other creeping things staring at her with their deep insect eyes. She dreamed she patted their chubby bodies—their hairy shoulders, their copper wings. She dreamed they whispered to her in their thick insect tongues, and their words were the sun and clouds humming over a field at midday. She dreamed she was in this field, in the bending blades of grass, in the seed-heavy heads, in the soft petals of cowslip, in the humid haze that clung to everything green. She dreamed herself into the pollen, into the pith—into tendrils and shoots and leaves.

Drip.

There was the heir, seeds and burrs and insect wings bright as jewels in her wind-knotted locks. There was the wolf, fur pushed and ruffled in the cloud-shifting breeze. They sat at the far edge of a meadow.

Drip.

The heir was chanting—

“The wind-tossed fields, the pebbled brook,

the ridge of sharpened pines,