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Contents ( 127)
  1. I
  2. ELEVENTH, OR COOKED CREAM
  3. II
  4. INTERLUDE—THE DAY OF ACCIDENTS, OR HOW ELEVENTH CAME TO BE FIRST
  5. III
  6. THE ORACLE AND THE APPRENTICE
  7. IV
  8. THE WATERS SPEAK
  9. V
  10. OVERCOOKED AND DESPISED
  11. VI
  12. LIKE THE LEAPING OF FROGS
  13. VII
  14. INTERLUDE—ANOTHER MISFORTUNE
  15. VIII
  16. A SACK OF CABBAGES IN THE DARK
  17. IX
  18. NO WORDS
  19. X
  20. THE MORNING PERAMBULATION OF THE SHEPHERD, OR THE HAREBRAINED AIRMONGER
  21. XI
  22. TENDER MANDIBLES
  23. XII
  24. FUR
  25. XIII
  26. HEARTH
  27. XIV
  28. THE LIMBS OF ANTS AND BEETLES
  29. XV
  30. THE WAY A BEAR LICKS HER CUBS INTO SHAPE
  31. XVI
  32. WHAT ANIMAL?
  33. XVII
  34. TRUTHS, OR TWO WHEELS SHEEP CHEESE
  35. XVIII
  36. ALL-TOOTHY FUR
  37. XIX
  38. AN EMPTINESS ALMOST UNEMPTIED
  39. XX
  40. A DELICATE ANIMAL
  41. XXI
  42. AH, THERE YOU ARE
  43. XXII
  44. NEVER MIND WORDS AND MAGIC AND MEANT TO
  45. XXIII
  46. THE FLOWERS THAT BLOOM IN THE THICK MUCK OF PIGS
  47. XXIV
  48. THE ROUND GOODNESS OF EGG
  49. XXV
  50. JUST A LONE MALE
  51. XXVI
  52. INTERLUDE—AN INFESTATION IN THE PRIESTS’ LIBRARY
  53. XXVII
  54. INKY BEETLES OF TRUTH
  55. XXVIII
  56. LOVE MAKES HER LIGHT AS A LAMB
  57. XXIX
  58. THE PIGLETS GROW FASTER TO PLEASE HIM
  59. XXX
  60. A MOUNTAIN TO MAKE THE SOUND MM
  61. XXXI
  62. WITH SOOT LEFT FROM FLAMES
  63. XXXII
  64. ANOTHER PANCAKE, PERHAPS?
  65. XXXIII
  66. SLIPPERY FISH SCALES
  67. XXXIV
  68. INTERLUDE—A MASSAGE OF THE TOES AND A TONIC OF BEETROOT
  69. XXXV
  70. A FAT, FLABBY RAT IN ITS MOUTH
  71. XXXVI
  72. A LITTLE CLOUD
  73. XXXVII
  74. A LIE, A SEED OF UNCERTAINTY
  75. XXXVIII
  76. NOTHING-FULL
  77. XXXIX
  78. THE SMELL OF BIRDS IN THE AIR
  79. XL
  80. ONETWOTHREEFOURFIVESIX
  81. XLI
  82. THE KING GROWS TIRED OF HIS ACROBATS
  83. XLII
  84. A GREASY SHRIEK
  85. XLIII
  86. TSPTSP, OR THE VIOLENT NOISE OF NATURE
  87. XLIV
  88. THE FEELING OF TEETH IN HIS MOUTH
  89. XLV
  90. A TERRIFYING EAGERNESS, OR CURDS ROUNDING IN WHEY
  91. XLVI
  92. DORMICE, FLAMINGOES, HONEYCAKE, PLUMS
  93. XLVII
  94. SAUSAGE-GREASED FINGERS
  95. XLVIII
  96. ALL BELLY EMPTY AND FULL
  97. XLIX
  98. A PLATTER OF MEAT
  99. L
  100. EMPTY, EMPTY, EMPTY
  101. LI
  102. SOFT, FAT, AND GHOSTLY
  103. LII
  104. DRIP
  105. LIII
  106. THE NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING, OR TTHHHRRRP
  107. LIV
  108. THE UNPICKING
  109. LV
  110. A MIRAGE, A FEVER
  111. LVI
  112. HOW CURIOUS: A WAY IN
  113. LVII
  114. TOO-HASTY SEAMS
  115. LVIII
  116. HE LEAVES THE BONES
  117. LIX
  118. NO-LONGER-A-NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING
  119. LX
  120. SHE SPEAKS! SHE SPEAKS!
  121. LXI
  122. WRRRR
  123. LXII
  124. INTERLUDE—FRAGMENTS AND EPHEMERA
  125. LXIII
  126. LIKE SLEEPING, LIKE DREAMING
  127. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

When Rae let the last of the echoes die away, she opened her eyes to find Mop staring at her. His face had twisted strangely.

“Where did you find such words, child?”

“They just came to me, Mop. I listened, like you said to do. Was it not good?”

Mop hesitated, looking from the girl to the hills, where the words still seemed to be winding their way through the foliage. “It is… the oddest shepherd song I’ve ever heard, Rae.”

“You didn’t like it?” Rae’s face fell. She had wanted to sing like her father.

“I didn’t say that.” Mop ran his hand over Rae’s hair, plucking out a few flossy seeds caught in her locks. “It is just… unusual. Surprising. You are surprising.” Kneeling as much as his knees would allow, he rested his hands on her shoulders. “And I mean that it was lovely, and I hope to hear it in the meadow every day. The sheep want to hear it, too—whatever kind of song you want to sing. Even songs about wolves.”

Rae grinned, her gaggle of teeth each a happy grin on its own.

All that afternoon, as Rae and Mop watched the grazing flock, Rae sang her song. Sometimes she sang it quietly, half under her breath, so it floated just over the waves of grass and the rippling light of the stream; sometimes she shouted it toward the sky so it crashed against the distant mountains and startled the birds from the trees. And when the sun began to dip behind the hills and it came time to lead the flocks back to their shelter, she took Mop’s hand and sang it again as they walked to their house and Nessa waiting in the doorway to wrap Rae in her arms.

“Wolf in the den

the dark of the earth

the creeping of root

the scruffling of dirt

all-belly beast

and all-toothy fur

empty of all

but wordlessness words.”

XVI

WHAT ANIMAL?

Four legs stiff on the rocky ledge, the wolf stood. The wind pushed against his fur. The sun pushed against his fur. Smelling, there was a smelling of sun against rock, metallic and dry, and farther, the heat of dirt around pine. There, too, was a burrowing, a shrew burrowing in the hot, dry soil around the roots of the pine; he could taste its shrewish hide squirming.

He flicked his ears. The scrabbling shrew, the wind against rock, the wind against tree—the noises came to him. He flicked his ears again. There was another sound, something else carried on the wind. What animal? He sniffed. He could not taste it. He did not know the feel of its fur or its feathers or bones. The wind again, a thread of sound. Distant. Soft. What animal? He sniffed and stood and flicked his ears. What animal? What sound?

The wind pushed against his fur. The sun pushed against his fur. Deep in the wolf, something turned toward the sound carried on the wind. What animal?