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Contents ( 127)
  1. I
  2. ELEVENTH, OR COOKED CREAM
  3. II
  4. INTERLUDE—THE DAY OF ACCIDENTS, OR HOW ELEVENTH CAME TO BE FIRST
  5. III
  6. THE ORACLE AND THE APPRENTICE
  7. IV
  8. THE WATERS SPEAK
  9. V
  10. OVERCOOKED AND DESPISED
  11. VI
  12. LIKE THE LEAPING OF FROGS
  13. VII
  14. INTERLUDE—ANOTHER MISFORTUNE
  15. VIII
  16. A SACK OF CABBAGES IN THE DARK
  17. IX
  18. NO WORDS
  19. X
  20. THE MORNING PERAMBULATION OF THE SHEPHERD, OR THE HAREBRAINED AIRMONGER
  21. XI
  22. TENDER MANDIBLES
  23. XII
  24. FUR
  25. XIII
  26. HEARTH
  27. XIV
  28. THE LIMBS OF ANTS AND BEETLES
  29. XV
  30. THE WAY A BEAR LICKS HER CUBS INTO SHAPE
  31. XVI
  32. WHAT ANIMAL?
  33. XVII
  34. TRUTHS, OR TWO WHEELS SHEEP CHEESE
  35. XVIII
  36. ALL-TOOTHY FUR
  37. XIX
  38. AN EMPTINESS ALMOST UNEMPTIED
  39. XX
  40. A DELICATE ANIMAL
  41. XXI
  42. AH, THERE YOU ARE
  43. XXII
  44. NEVER MIND WORDS AND MAGIC AND MEANT TO
  45. XXIII
  46. THE FLOWERS THAT BLOOM IN THE THICK MUCK OF PIGS
  47. XXIV
  48. THE ROUND GOODNESS OF EGG
  49. XXV
  50. JUST A LONE MALE
  51. XXVI
  52. INTERLUDE—AN INFESTATION IN THE PRIESTS’ LIBRARY
  53. XXVII
  54. INKY BEETLES OF TRUTH
  55. XXVIII
  56. LOVE MAKES HER LIGHT AS A LAMB
  57. XXIX
  58. THE PIGLETS GROW FASTER TO PLEASE HIM
  59. XXX
  60. A MOUNTAIN TO MAKE THE SOUND MM
  61. XXXI
  62. WITH SOOT LEFT FROM FLAMES
  63. XXXII
  64. ANOTHER PANCAKE, PERHAPS?
  65. XXXIII
  66. SLIPPERY FISH SCALES
  67. XXXIV
  68. INTERLUDE—A MASSAGE OF THE TOES AND A TONIC OF BEETROOT
  69. XXXV
  70. A FAT, FLABBY RAT IN ITS MOUTH
  71. XXXVI
  72. A LITTLE CLOUD
  73. XXXVII
  74. A LIE, A SEED OF UNCERTAINTY
  75. XXXVIII
  76. NOTHING-FULL
  77. XXXIX
  78. THE SMELL OF BIRDS IN THE AIR
  79. XL
  80. ONETWOTHREEFOURFIVESIX
  81. XLI
  82. THE KING GROWS TIRED OF HIS ACROBATS
  83. XLII
  84. A GREASY SHRIEK
  85. XLIII
  86. TSPTSP, OR THE VIOLENT NOISE OF NATURE
  87. XLIV
  88. THE FEELING OF TEETH IN HIS MOUTH
  89. XLV
  90. A TERRIFYING EAGERNESS, OR CURDS ROUNDING IN WHEY
  91. XLVI
  92. DORMICE, FLAMINGOES, HONEYCAKE, PLUMS
  93. XLVII
  94. SAUSAGE-GREASED FINGERS
  95. XLVIII
  96. ALL BELLY EMPTY AND FULL
  97. XLIX
  98. A PLATTER OF MEAT
  99. L
  100. EMPTY, EMPTY, EMPTY
  101. LI
  102. SOFT, FAT, AND GHOSTLY
  103. LII
  104. DRIP
  105. LIII
  106. THE NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING, OR TTHHHRRRP
  107. LIV
  108. THE UNPICKING
  109. LV
  110. A MIRAGE, A FEVER
  111. LVI
  112. HOW CURIOUS: A WAY IN
  113. LVII
  114. TOO-HASTY SEAMS
  115. LVIII
  116. HE LEAVES THE BONES
  117. LIX
  118. NO-LONGER-A-NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING
  119. LX
  120. SHE SPEAKS! SHE SPEAKS!
  121. LXI
  122. WRRRR
  123. LXII
  124. INTERLUDE—FRAGMENTS AND EPHEMERA
  125. LXIII
  126. LIKE SLEEPING, LIKE DREAMING
  127. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

Was this how Mop and Ness—in all their years of dreaming of children—thought a child would reach them? This panic and shock of mountain-found babe—so wind-cold, so empty-bellied? The rush to light the fire, to heat the milk, to warm the infant? The race to find the little pot they used to nurse the ailing lambs? The terror when the babe seemed too weak to take the spout? The astonishment when, with delicate pinkie finger, they’d scooped glistening sap and insect wing from the soft inside of its cheek? Surely not. But when at last they had house and milk and babe warm, when they’d unwrapped the soiled linens and reswaddled the child in soft wool, and when panic and terror had begun to subside, Mop saw suddenly before him the life he had envisioned so long ago. Though his wife, never a mother, looked now more a grandmother, her face—as weather beaten and furrowed as the slopes he had just climbed—had softened at the sight of the little life suckling in her arms, and, for a moment, in the pale light of the fire, she appeared to Mop as she had in the earliest days of their marriage, when she sat stitching small clothes for children that had never come.

“What should we do with…?” Mop, whispering, gestured to the sleeping child.

“Do?” Nessa looked startled. “As one does. Feed. Care. Raise. Love.”

“But it isn’t…” Mop hesitated. “Ours.”

“Not ours? I think this child would have been the wolves’ or the buzzards’ if you’d not come along.” Nessa’s voice broke, and Mop glanced up in surprise. She was not one to let emotion overcome her. “Just brutish,” she hissed, turning away and rubbing a knuckle across her eye. “Brutish to abandon a helpless babe like that. Especially when she comes from a place with rags as fine as these.” She gestured to the soiled fabric she had unwrapped from the child. “I’ve never seen such cloth. We may not have anything as lovely as those rags”—her chin nodded over their scant furnishings, their dirt floor—“but we’ll share all we have. Whatever we can give this babe is better than the fate she would have found on the mountain.”

Mop started. “She?”

“She.” Nessa handed the sleeping child to Mop. “A little girl.”

Mop looked down at the swaddled infant. Though he had carried the bundle clutched tight in his arms down rocks and cliffs and treacherous passes, he felt suddenly he might break this fragile creature. He held her lightly, hardly daring to breathe.

Tentatively, Mop touched the impossibly small fingers on the impossibly small hand. Immediately, the hand, soft as plum blossoms, curled around his. He stared wonderingly at the strangeness of his finger—his weatherworn and calloused skin—surrounded by this soft new life.

Mop opened his mouth. The sleeping girl in his arms filled him with a kind of terror, and he wanted desperately to express this terror to his wife—How could they be responsible for this life? Were they not too old? Too poor? Too far from the village? Did they not have too many sheep? Did they not struggle sometimes even to feed themselves? What could they offer this child? Would the life they gave her be hard? Unpleasant? Full of misery and despair? Would she ever see any kind of happiness?—but the plum-petal hand was still gripped tight around his finger, and this, too, offered a kind of answer to his terror.