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Contents ( 127)
  1. I
  2. ELEVENTH, OR COOKED CREAM
  3. II
  4. INTERLUDE—THE DAY OF ACCIDENTS, OR HOW ELEVENTH CAME TO BE FIRST
  5. III
  6. THE ORACLE AND THE APPRENTICE
  7. IV
  8. THE WATERS SPEAK
  9. V
  10. OVERCOOKED AND DESPISED
  11. VI
  12. LIKE THE LEAPING OF FROGS
  13. VII
  14. INTERLUDE—ANOTHER MISFORTUNE
  15. VIII
  16. A SACK OF CABBAGES IN THE DARK
  17. IX
  18. NO WORDS
  19. X
  20. THE MORNING PERAMBULATION OF THE SHEPHERD, OR THE HAREBRAINED AIRMONGER
  21. XI
  22. TENDER MANDIBLES
  23. XII
  24. FUR
  25. XIII
  26. HEARTH
  27. XIV
  28. THE LIMBS OF ANTS AND BEETLES
  29. XV
  30. THE WAY A BEAR LICKS HER CUBS INTO SHAPE
  31. XVI
  32. WHAT ANIMAL?
  33. XVII
  34. TRUTHS, OR TWO WHEELS SHEEP CHEESE
  35. XVIII
  36. ALL-TOOTHY FUR
  37. XIX
  38. AN EMPTINESS ALMOST UNEMPTIED
  39. XX
  40. A DELICATE ANIMAL
  41. XXI
  42. AH, THERE YOU ARE
  43. XXII
  44. NEVER MIND WORDS AND MAGIC AND MEANT TO
  45. XXIII
  46. THE FLOWERS THAT BLOOM IN THE THICK MUCK OF PIGS
  47. XXIV
  48. THE ROUND GOODNESS OF EGG
  49. XXV
  50. JUST A LONE MALE
  51. XXVI
  52. INTERLUDE—AN INFESTATION IN THE PRIESTS’ LIBRARY
  53. XXVII
  54. INKY BEETLES OF TRUTH
  55. XXVIII
  56. LOVE MAKES HER LIGHT AS A LAMB
  57. XXIX
  58. THE PIGLETS GROW FASTER TO PLEASE HIM
  59. XXX
  60. A MOUNTAIN TO MAKE THE SOUND MM
  61. XXXI
  62. WITH SOOT LEFT FROM FLAMES
  63. XXXII
  64. ANOTHER PANCAKE, PERHAPS?
  65. XXXIII
  66. SLIPPERY FISH SCALES
  67. XXXIV
  68. INTERLUDE—A MASSAGE OF THE TOES AND A TONIC OF BEETROOT
  69. XXXV
  70. A FAT, FLABBY RAT IN ITS MOUTH
  71. XXXVI
  72. A LITTLE CLOUD
  73. XXXVII
  74. A LIE, A SEED OF UNCERTAINTY
  75. XXXVIII
  76. NOTHING-FULL
  77. XXXIX
  78. THE SMELL OF BIRDS IN THE AIR
  79. XL
  80. ONETWOTHREEFOURFIVESIX
  81. XLI
  82. THE KING GROWS TIRED OF HIS ACROBATS
  83. XLII
  84. A GREASY SHRIEK
  85. XLIII
  86. TSPTSP, OR THE VIOLENT NOISE OF NATURE
  87. XLIV
  88. THE FEELING OF TEETH IN HIS MOUTH
  89. XLV
  90. A TERRIFYING EAGERNESS, OR CURDS ROUNDING IN WHEY
  91. XLVI
  92. DORMICE, FLAMINGOES, HONEYCAKE, PLUMS
  93. XLVII
  94. SAUSAGE-GREASED FINGERS
  95. XLVIII
  96. ALL BELLY EMPTY AND FULL
  97. XLIX
  98. A PLATTER OF MEAT
  99. L
  100. EMPTY, EMPTY, EMPTY
  101. LI
  102. SOFT, FAT, AND GHOSTLY
  103. LII
  104. DRIP
  105. LIII
  106. THE NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING, OR TTHHHRRRP
  107. LIV
  108. THE UNPICKING
  109. LV
  110. A MIRAGE, A FEVER
  111. LVI
  112. HOW CURIOUS: A WAY IN
  113. LVII
  114. TOO-HASTY SEAMS
  115. LVIII
  116. HE LEAVES THE BONES
  117. LIX
  118. NO-LONGER-A-NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING
  119. LX
  120. SHE SPEAKS! SHE SPEAKS!
  121. LXI
  122. WRRRR
  123. LXII
  124. INTERLUDE—FRAGMENTS AND EPHEMERA
  125. LXIII
  126. LIKE SLEEPING, LIKE DREAMING
  127. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

The guard hesitated. “My orders,” he said at last, voice trembling. “My duty—”

“A sausage,” Rae said. “Just one link. Or a crust of bread. Please. Why won’t you help me?”

The door was silent. Rae stretched to look through the window. The guard had moved down the hall. She could just see him standing against the wall, cratered eyes darting now and again at her door.

“Please!” she yelled through the gap.

Eyes growing darker, he moved farther away.

Rae sat on the floor. She watched the wolf. The dullness of his eyes, the flatness of his coat, the protrusion of his bones all told her of a coming crisis: His slow, distraught motions reminded her of the desperate final scramblings of a ewe or lamb before it succumbed to injury or disease.

Her own stomach was painfully empty. She’d had water to drink, but water only marked the emptiness more. Her whole body, her whole mind, seemed to slosh with fatigue.

The light from the tiny window was a heavy gray: It had been raining for hours. The rocks in the walls were slick with damp.

Tentatively, standing and reaching, she ran her fingers between the stones. She scraped a little, digging into the earth. She tried here. And there. Her nails grew black as she scratched and scratched. Another place. Another. She dug and scraped. Finally—there. She found one.

Pinching the spongy body, she pulled it from its earthen nest. A grub rolled, soft and fat and ghostly, into her palm. Its tiny legs, missing the dirt they usually held, churned frantically.

“Sorry,” she whispered to it, then, “Wolf,” she called. She held the pallid thing on the flat of her palm.

He nosed it—a soft breath in her hand.

He ate it—a delicate bite with his muzzle.

His eyes were as dull as before. He returned to his pacing.

Well, thought Rae. It’s something. She looked again at the walls, wondering how many creatures stirred deep behind the stones.

LII

DRIP

For days, Alba sat below, tormented by the memory of the advisor’s twisting worm. Hour after hour in the dark, she saw the gray tail squirming into the slack cheek—and her own stomach turned with the worm’s corkscrewing; she knew what his writhing grin meant.

She beat her fists against the door. She cried into the gap. “You cannot!” she wailed. “You cannot leave her to be torn apart!”

Her voice grew hoarse, her hands splintered and bruised. But no one answered. No passing guard ever turned his head.

“Rae!” she tried. She scratched at the walls, pulled at the stones. Though her nails cracked and blackened with soil, she could not loosen more than a few spoonfuls; she could not shift any of the rocks. “Rae!”

She tried to comfort herself. She no longer heard the distant cries of children in the dark; perhaps they’d been freed. She tried to imagine their homecomings… how they’d be swept into their parents’ arms, how the villages would ring with music and celebration, how for days and months, perhaps even years ahead, the mothers and fathers—on the most mundane of errands—would take their children’s hands as if they were still small, and even the oldest, most cynical of all, would not pull away but walk with their parents’ hands clasped tight in their own.… but these imaginings were not comfort enough.