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Contents ( 127)
  1. I
  2. ELEVENTH, OR COOKED CREAM
  3. II
  4. INTERLUDE—THE DAY OF ACCIDENTS, OR HOW ELEVENTH CAME TO BE FIRST
  5. III
  6. THE ORACLE AND THE APPRENTICE
  7. IV
  8. THE WATERS SPEAK
  9. V
  10. OVERCOOKED AND DESPISED
  11. VI
  12. LIKE THE LEAPING OF FROGS
  13. VII
  14. INTERLUDE—ANOTHER MISFORTUNE
  15. VIII
  16. A SACK OF CABBAGES IN THE DARK
  17. IX
  18. NO WORDS
  19. X
  20. THE MORNING PERAMBULATION OF THE SHEPHERD, OR THE HAREBRAINED AIRMONGER
  21. XI
  22. TENDER MANDIBLES
  23. XII
  24. FUR
  25. XIII
  26. HEARTH
  27. XIV
  28. THE LIMBS OF ANTS AND BEETLES
  29. XV
  30. THE WAY A BEAR LICKS HER CUBS INTO SHAPE
  31. XVI
  32. WHAT ANIMAL?
  33. XVII
  34. TRUTHS, OR TWO WHEELS SHEEP CHEESE
  35. XVIII
  36. ALL-TOOTHY FUR
  37. XIX
  38. AN EMPTINESS ALMOST UNEMPTIED
  39. XX
  40. A DELICATE ANIMAL
  41. XXI
  42. AH, THERE YOU ARE
  43. XXII
  44. NEVER MIND WORDS AND MAGIC AND MEANT TO
  45. XXIII
  46. THE FLOWERS THAT BLOOM IN THE THICK MUCK OF PIGS
  47. XXIV
  48. THE ROUND GOODNESS OF EGG
  49. XXV
  50. JUST A LONE MALE
  51. XXVI
  52. INTERLUDE—AN INFESTATION IN THE PRIESTS’ LIBRARY
  53. XXVII
  54. INKY BEETLES OF TRUTH
  55. XXVIII
  56. LOVE MAKES HER LIGHT AS A LAMB
  57. XXIX
  58. THE PIGLETS GROW FASTER TO PLEASE HIM
  59. XXX
  60. A MOUNTAIN TO MAKE THE SOUND MM
  61. XXXI
  62. WITH SOOT LEFT FROM FLAMES
  63. XXXII
  64. ANOTHER PANCAKE, PERHAPS?
  65. XXXIII
  66. SLIPPERY FISH SCALES
  67. XXXIV
  68. INTERLUDE—A MASSAGE OF THE TOES AND A TONIC OF BEETROOT
  69. XXXV
  70. A FAT, FLABBY RAT IN ITS MOUTH
  71. XXXVI
  72. A LITTLE CLOUD
  73. XXXVII
  74. A LIE, A SEED OF UNCERTAINTY
  75. XXXVIII
  76. NOTHING-FULL
  77. XXXIX
  78. THE SMELL OF BIRDS IN THE AIR
  79. XL
  80. ONETWOTHREEFOURFIVESIX
  81. XLI
  82. THE KING GROWS TIRED OF HIS ACROBATS
  83. XLII
  84. A GREASY SHRIEK
  85. XLIII
  86. TSPTSP, OR THE VIOLENT NOISE OF NATURE
  87. XLIV
  88. THE FEELING OF TEETH IN HIS MOUTH
  89. XLV
  90. A TERRIFYING EAGERNESS, OR CURDS ROUNDING IN WHEY
  91. XLVI
  92. DORMICE, FLAMINGOES, HONEYCAKE, PLUMS
  93. XLVII
  94. SAUSAGE-GREASED FINGERS
  95. XLVIII
  96. ALL BELLY EMPTY AND FULL
  97. XLIX
  98. A PLATTER OF MEAT
  99. L
  100. EMPTY, EMPTY, EMPTY
  101. LI
  102. SOFT, FAT, AND GHOSTLY
  103. LII
  104. DRIP
  105. LIII
  106. THE NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING, OR TTHHHRRRP
  107. LIV
  108. THE UNPICKING
  109. LV
  110. A MIRAGE, A FEVER
  111. LVI
  112. HOW CURIOUS: A WAY IN
  113. LVII
  114. TOO-HASTY SEAMS
  115. LVIII
  116. HE LEAVES THE BONES
  117. LIX
  118. NO-LONGER-A-NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING
  119. LX
  120. SHE SPEAKS! SHE SPEAKS!
  121. LXI
  122. WRRRR
  123. LXII
  124. INTERLUDE—FRAGMENTS AND EPHEMERA
  125. LXIII
  126. LIKE SLEEPING, LIKE DREAMING
  127. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

He padded up this hall. He padded down another.

He padded to the top of the long corridor that led below.

Hesitatingly, he descended into the dark.

Stopping at the door where the heir and the wolf were kept, he put his ear to the wood.

A soft song.

“The meadows now all wait for us,

the hills, the cliffs, the stream,

the forest with its endless dusk,

the hushing fern-swept green.…”

The sounds were bright as splashing water. As lilting as honey. He closed his eyes. He felt the song slipping through him, both filling him and marking places he did not know were empty. Oh, so empty. It scraped a place behind his ribs. It marked a hollow in his belly. It scrubbed against the voids in his legs and feet and shoulders and arms. Oh, the song was beautiful. And, oh, it was terrible. It was terrible feeling this emptiness. Empty, empty, empty.

He put his eye to the hole in the door.

Too dark.

But even in the darkness, the song went on. How could sounds like those come from such a dark place?

He hurried down the corridor. He plucked a lantern off its hook and hurried back. He held the lantern to the window in the door.

A long beam showed the dark form of the girl cradling the beast. She sang and sang and sang.

Oh. The emptiness. It was all through him. It was white-hot and sterile. He was hollow all through, as empty as smoke.

“Enough!” he cried. He slammed his hand on the door. “Enough!”

The singing stopped.

The no-longer-a-boy-boy-king smiled with relief. He padded back to his room and lay on his silks. He stared into the darkness. He listened to the silence.

He waited for sleep to return.

He waited.

And waited.

And waited.

LI

SOFT, FAT, AND GHOSTLY

Rae stood with her ear against the door. Outside, the guard with shadowed eyes was whispering to the governor-advisor.

“She refuses to go!”

“Then let her refuse.”

“But will she not starve?”

“Then she will starve.”

“But she’s only a child!”

“She is a threat to the king. If she wishes to harm herself…” A silence that could be only a shrug followed. “Then let her do so.”

“Bu—”

“You have in the past shown yourself dutiful.” The governor-advisor’s voice was sharp, the word dutiful stretched under some weight. “Do not let us now question whether you are. Do not intervene in the affairs of the king.”

One set of footsteps strode away.

After a moment, the whispering was at the window, regretful and urgent. “You must come to eat.”

“The wolf is not being fed,” Rae said simply. “I know he is not. I will eat when I see that he’s eaten.”

“They say he is fed whe—”

“They do not tell the truth.” She glanced at the wolf. He had once again begun pacing, but now his pacing seemed less about entrapment and more about… desperation. Even so, his pacing was laggardly. His feet dragged behind the motion of his legs, so with each step, his claws scratched the dirt. His nose and ears hung low; his tawny coat had lost its luster. “Please,” she begged at the little window. “Bring me something I can give him.”