Back Afterlove
Chapters (86)
  1. Title Page
  2. CONTENTS
  3. Love
  4. Before
  5. One
  6. ONE
  7. Two
  8. TWO
  9. Three
  10. THREE
  11. Four
  12. FOUR
  13. Five
  14. FIVE
  15. Six
  16. SIX
  17. Seven
  18. SEVEN
  19. Eight
  20. EIGHT
  21. Nine
  22. NINE
  23. Ten
  24. TEN
  25. Eleven
  26. ELEVEN
  27. After
  28. One
  29. ONE
  30. Two
  31. TWO
  32. Three
  33. THREE
  34. Four
  35. FOUR
  36. Five
  37. FIVE
  38. Six
  39. SIX
  40. Seven
  41. SEVEN
  42. Eight
  43. EIGHT
  44. Nine
  45. NINE
  46. Ten
  47. TEN
  48. Eleven
  49. ELEVEN
  50. Twelve
  51. TWELVE
  52. Thirteen
  53. THIRTEEN
  54. Fourteen
  55. FOURTEEN
  56. Fifteen
  57. FIFTEEN
  58. Sixteen
  59. SIXTEEN
  60. Seventeen
  61. SEVENTEEN
  62. Eighteen
  63. EIGHTEEN
  64. Nineteen
  65. NINETEEN
  66. Twenty
  67. TWENTY
  68. Twenty-One
  69. TWENTY-ONE
  70. Twenty-Two
  71. TWENTY-TWO
  72. Twenty-Three
  73. TWENTY-THREE
  74. Twenty-Four
  75. TWENTY-FOUR
  76. Twenty-Five
  77. TWENTY-FIVE
  78. Twenty-Six
  79. TWENTY-SIX
  80. Twenty-Seven
  81. TWENTY-SEVEN
  82. Twenty-Eight
  83. TWENTY-EIGHT
  84. Eleven Months Later
  85. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  86. Copyright

‘Thanks, Mama,’ I say, making actual heart eyes at the steaming roti on the plate in front of me, but when I reach for it, she pulls her hand back and nods at the sink.

‘Wash your hands.’

I do as I’m told with a theatrical groan.

‘Don’t be so dramatic, Ashana,’ she tells me, watching as I head over to the sink. ‘Do you know how many germs you’ve come into contact with today? You may as well eat this off the pavement. Come.’

I hold my hands out to her and, content that they’re clean, she finally hands over the plate and pads back to the stove.

‘What’s for dinner?’ I ask.

It’s Friday so I already know what it is; pulling a face when she says, ‘Fish curry.’

‘Yum!’ I say, tearing off a piece of the roti and popping it into my mouth.

‘It’s good for you.’

We used to have fish and chips on a Friday night. It was the one indulgence my mother allowed herself, but then my father had to stop working at the hospital so now it’s fish curry.

‘How was your day?’ I ask, watching as she holds her palm over the tawa. ‘Did you get any sleep?’

‘Not really. That bloody dog next door has been barking its head off all day.’

She sighs and she sounds tired – really tired – and I feel bad for being an ungrateful brat about the fish curry, which she’s probably been making for hours while Adara and I have been trying on lipstick.

‘I’m sorry,’ I say, watching as she takes another ball of dough from under the damp kitchen towel next to the stove and rolls it into a circle using the thin wooden belna that used to belong to my grandmother.

‘Between him and that cat two doors down . . .’

‘Dorito?’ I ask with a frown. ‘What did he ever do to you?’

‘He hates me. He always hisses at me when I walk past.’

‘Cats can sense evil, can’t they?’

‘It’s a shame they don’t sense disrespectful daughters.’

She arches an eyebrow at me and it’s quite a feat given that her eyebrows have all but disappeared after years of over-plucking, but she manages to make her point.

‘You’re just jealous because he likes me, but he doesn’t like you,’ I tell her with a smug smile.

‘He only likes you because you stroke him every time you go past. Why do you think I got you to wash your hands as soon as you got in?’ she says, pointing the belna at me.

She’s right, of course. I did tickle him between the ears as I passed him on Miss Larson’s doormat.

I don’t tell her that, though. ‘He just likes me because I fixed his boiler.’

‘When did you fix Miss Larson’s boiler?’