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Chapters (86)
  1. Title Page
  2. CONTENTS
  3. Love
  4. Before
  5. One
  6. ONE
  7. Two
  8. TWO
  9. Three
  10. THREE
  11. Four
  12. FOUR
  13. Five
  14. FIVE
  15. Six
  16. SIX
  17. Seven
  18. SEVEN
  19. Eight
  20. EIGHT
  21. Nine
  22. NINE
  23. Ten
  24. TEN
  25. Eleven
  26. ELEVEN
  27. After
  28. One
  29. ONE
  30. Two
  31. TWO
  32. Three
  33. THREE
  34. Four
  35. FOUR
  36. Five
  37. FIVE
  38. Six
  39. SIX
  40. Seven
  41. SEVEN
  42. Eight
  43. EIGHT
  44. Nine
  45. NINE
  46. Ten
  47. TEN
  48. Eleven
  49. ELEVEN
  50. Twelve
  51. TWELVE
  52. Thirteen
  53. THIRTEEN
  54. Fourteen
  55. FOURTEEN
  56. Fifteen
  57. FIFTEEN
  58. Sixteen
  59. SIXTEEN
  60. Seventeen
  61. SEVENTEEN
  62. Eighteen
  63. EIGHTEEN
  64. Nineteen
  65. NINETEEN
  66. Twenty
  67. TWENTY
  68. Twenty-One
  69. TWENTY-ONE
  70. Twenty-Two
  71. TWENTY-TWO
  72. Twenty-Three
  73. TWENTY-THREE
  74. Twenty-Four
  75. TWENTY-FOUR
  76. Twenty-Five
  77. TWENTY-FIVE
  78. Twenty-Six
  79. TWENTY-SIX
  80. Twenty-Seven
  81. TWENTY-SEVEN
  82. Twenty-Eight
  83. TWENTY-EIGHT
  84. Eleven Months Later
  85. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  86. Copyright

‘I needed change,’ she explains, letting go of my hand to reach into the pocket of her coat. She takes out some pound coins and inserts them into the slot then grabs my hand again and pulls me inside. I sit beside her on the bench and as we wait for the flash to go off, I suddenly feel very safe.

Like nothing can happen to us here.

The first flash catches us by surprise, but we recover quickly, doing a series of silly poses that concludes with Poppy grabbing me so suddenly, her hands on my face, that I laugh into her open mouth as she kisses me. It makes her laugh too and we stay like that for a few moments, laughing and kissing. It feels so real and for the first time since I found her in the cemetery, Poppy isn’t this fleeting, fragile thing. A bird that will fly away if I don’t hold on to her with both hands. She’s there – right there – warm and solid and utterly fearless, like nothing can break her. And if we can just stay here, I think, right here in this photo booth, nothing ever will.

But we can’t, I know, so I pull the curtain back, taking her hand and leading her out, the pair of us giggling as we wait for the photos to be printed. When they are, she snatches them out of the slot, but her face falls when she sees them. I take the square of glossy paper from her, wondering what’s wrong – if they didn’t come out or I’ve ruined them by pulling an ugly face – but then I see.

It’s not me.

It is, but it’s not the me that she can see now, it’s the me she looked past outside the Dome.

She doesn’t look like her, either, her red hair tamed in black and white, losing a little of its magic.

So we leave the photos there, tucking them among the other ones people left behind that are stuck to the front of the booth. I take her hand and we walk out in silence, no longer amused by the taxidermy crow.