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Contents ( 127)
  1. I
  2. ELEVENTH, OR COOKED CREAM
  3. II
  4. INTERLUDE—THE DAY OF ACCIDENTS, OR HOW ELEVENTH CAME TO BE FIRST
  5. III
  6. THE ORACLE AND THE APPRENTICE
  7. IV
  8. THE WATERS SPEAK
  9. V
  10. OVERCOOKED AND DESPISED
  11. VI
  12. LIKE THE LEAPING OF FROGS
  13. VII
  14. INTERLUDE—ANOTHER MISFORTUNE
  15. VIII
  16. A SACK OF CABBAGES IN THE DARK
  17. IX
  18. NO WORDS
  19. X
  20. THE MORNING PERAMBULATION OF THE SHEPHERD, OR THE HAREBRAINED AIRMONGER
  21. XI
  22. TENDER MANDIBLES
  23. XII
  24. FUR
  25. XIII
  26. HEARTH
  27. XIV
  28. THE LIMBS OF ANTS AND BEETLES
  29. XV
  30. THE WAY A BEAR LICKS HER CUBS INTO SHAPE
  31. XVI
  32. WHAT ANIMAL?
  33. XVII
  34. TRUTHS, OR TWO WHEELS SHEEP CHEESE
  35. XVIII
  36. ALL-TOOTHY FUR
  37. XIX
  38. AN EMPTINESS ALMOST UNEMPTIED
  39. XX
  40. A DELICATE ANIMAL
  41. XXI
  42. AH, THERE YOU ARE
  43. XXII
  44. NEVER MIND WORDS AND MAGIC AND MEANT TO
  45. XXIII
  46. THE FLOWERS THAT BLOOM IN THE THICK MUCK OF PIGS
  47. XXIV
  48. THE ROUND GOODNESS OF EGG
  49. XXV
  50. JUST A LONE MALE
  51. XXVI
  52. INTERLUDE—AN INFESTATION IN THE PRIESTS’ LIBRARY
  53. XXVII
  54. INKY BEETLES OF TRUTH
  55. XXVIII
  56. LOVE MAKES HER LIGHT AS A LAMB
  57. XXIX
  58. THE PIGLETS GROW FASTER TO PLEASE HIM
  59. XXX
  60. A MOUNTAIN TO MAKE THE SOUND MM
  61. XXXI
  62. WITH SOOT LEFT FROM FLAMES
  63. XXXII
  64. ANOTHER PANCAKE, PERHAPS?
  65. XXXIII
  66. SLIPPERY FISH SCALES
  67. XXXIV
  68. INTERLUDE—A MASSAGE OF THE TOES AND A TONIC OF BEETROOT
  69. XXXV
  70. A FAT, FLABBY RAT IN ITS MOUTH
  71. XXXVI
  72. A LITTLE CLOUD
  73. XXXVII
  74. A LIE, A SEED OF UNCERTAINTY
  75. XXXVIII
  76. NOTHING-FULL
  77. XXXIX
  78. THE SMELL OF BIRDS IN THE AIR
  79. XL
  80. ONETWOTHREEFOURFIVESIX
  81. XLI
  82. THE KING GROWS TIRED OF HIS ACROBATS
  83. XLII
  84. A GREASY SHRIEK
  85. XLIII
  86. TSPTSP, OR THE VIOLENT NOISE OF NATURE
  87. XLIV
  88. THE FEELING OF TEETH IN HIS MOUTH
  89. XLV
  90. A TERRIFYING EAGERNESS, OR CURDS ROUNDING IN WHEY
  91. XLVI
  92. DORMICE, FLAMINGOES, HONEYCAKE, PLUMS
  93. XLVII
  94. SAUSAGE-GREASED FINGERS
  95. XLVIII
  96. ALL BELLY EMPTY AND FULL
  97. XLIX
  98. A PLATTER OF MEAT
  99. L
  100. EMPTY, EMPTY, EMPTY
  101. LI
  102. SOFT, FAT, AND GHOSTLY
  103. LII
  104. DRIP
  105. LIII
  106. THE NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING, OR TTHHHRRRP
  107. LIV
  108. THE UNPICKING
  109. LV
  110. A MIRAGE, A FEVER
  111. LVI
  112. HOW CURIOUS: A WAY IN
  113. LVII
  114. TOO-HASTY SEAMS
  115. LVIII
  116. HE LEAVES THE BONES
  117. LIX
  118. NO-LONGER-A-NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING
  119. LX
  120. SHE SPEAKS! SHE SPEAKS!
  121. LXI
  122. WRRRR
  123. LXII
  124. INTERLUDE—FRAGMENTS AND EPHEMERA
  125. LXIII
  126. LIKE SLEEPING, LIKE DREAMING
  127. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

The cave dripped with dampness. Shadows shifted in the mist along the walls: Alba saw a wolf form and slink in the dark earth of the cave. She looked again and saw only grubs and worms, constellations of soft white bodies twisting up the darkness. She shook her head to clear her vision. The two men swayed before her.

“They cannot be alive.” The vast brow was wrinkling in anger. “It is not possible.”

“Find them!” howled the king. “They must be found now!”

“The twins are alive,” the oracle continued, unhearing. “Unloved and abhorred, you’ll be brought down by your own blood. And no one will weep. And no one will mourn.”

XXIV

THE ROUND GOODNESS OF EGG

Rae returned to the wolf as often as she dared. In the mornings, before Mop and Ness rose from their beds; in the afternoons, when the sheep were grazing on a distant hill; in the evenings, while the heat was still softening the parsnips set to boil over the fire—whenever she was not needed, she’d steal away. She carried eggs in her pockets; she fetched water from the stream. Each time she arrived, she found the water drained and the food all eaten. Clambering into the branches of an overhanging oak, she’d sit as long as the light and her chores allowed, watching for the wolf.

In the beginning, she rarely saw him, and when she did, he appeared ailing. Desperate. Injured leg dragging, he’d emerge only briefly, then return to his vine-cave. If he sensed her presence, he did not look up. Rae fretted: The bandage she had wrapped was long gone; the wound and infection were deep, still angry and red. But as the weeks wore on, he spent more and more time outside, lying in the sun, rolling in the leaf litter, and though he was thinner, weaker, fur ridged with bones, Rae saw with relief the crisis was passing: He would survive his injury.

Sitting, waiting quietly for him, she came to know the forest in a way she had not before. In her stillness, creatures that had tucked themselves away returned to their chatter—mistle thrushes to their bright, liquid chirrup-ings; squirrels to the quiet pips of their kits; hares to satisfied tuk-ings as they nibbled away. Rae wondered whether any of these creatures—tuk-ing, chirrup-ing, pip-ing—ever said anything beyond the sounds of the wood; she wondered whether the wolf, lying in his vine-cave, had found some sound to name her, the girl who brought him food and water—or if she was just the round goodness of egg, the coldness of stream.

One day, when she’d passed a stretch of afternoon listening to the woodpeckers took-ing as they flitted from tree to tree, she glanced down to see the wolf had come out of his vine-cave. Lying on his belly, he had braced a stick between his paws. He worked his teeth over the wood, gnawing zealously, then, leaping up, tossed it, and tossed it again. He jumped limpingly after it, pouncing on it, bouncing away from it, pouncing and tossing again. Even injured, he was as playful as the lambs in the first days of spring. Rae, lying over the branch, pressed her hand to her lips, trying to smother her giggles.