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Contents ( 127)
  1. I
  2. ELEVENTH, OR COOKED CREAM
  3. II
  4. INTERLUDE—THE DAY OF ACCIDENTS, OR HOW ELEVENTH CAME TO BE FIRST
  5. III
  6. THE ORACLE AND THE APPRENTICE
  7. IV
  8. THE WATERS SPEAK
  9. V
  10. OVERCOOKED AND DESPISED
  11. VI
  12. LIKE THE LEAPING OF FROGS
  13. VII
  14. INTERLUDE—ANOTHER MISFORTUNE
  15. VIII
  16. A SACK OF CABBAGES IN THE DARK
  17. IX
  18. NO WORDS
  19. X
  20. THE MORNING PERAMBULATION OF THE SHEPHERD, OR THE HAREBRAINED AIRMONGER
  21. XI
  22. TENDER MANDIBLES
  23. XII
  24. FUR
  25. XIII
  26. HEARTH
  27. XIV
  28. THE LIMBS OF ANTS AND BEETLES
  29. XV
  30. THE WAY A BEAR LICKS HER CUBS INTO SHAPE
  31. XVI
  32. WHAT ANIMAL?
  33. XVII
  34. TRUTHS, OR TWO WHEELS SHEEP CHEESE
  35. XVIII
  36. ALL-TOOTHY FUR
  37. XIX
  38. AN EMPTINESS ALMOST UNEMPTIED
  39. XX
  40. A DELICATE ANIMAL
  41. XXI
  42. AH, THERE YOU ARE
  43. XXII
  44. NEVER MIND WORDS AND MAGIC AND MEANT TO
  45. XXIII
  46. THE FLOWERS THAT BLOOM IN THE THICK MUCK OF PIGS
  47. XXIV
  48. THE ROUND GOODNESS OF EGG
  49. XXV
  50. JUST A LONE MALE
  51. XXVI
  52. INTERLUDE—AN INFESTATION IN THE PRIESTS’ LIBRARY
  53. XXVII
  54. INKY BEETLES OF TRUTH
  55. XXVIII
  56. LOVE MAKES HER LIGHT AS A LAMB
  57. XXIX
  58. THE PIGLETS GROW FASTER TO PLEASE HIM
  59. XXX
  60. A MOUNTAIN TO MAKE THE SOUND MM
  61. XXXI
  62. WITH SOOT LEFT FROM FLAMES
  63. XXXII
  64. ANOTHER PANCAKE, PERHAPS?
  65. XXXIII
  66. SLIPPERY FISH SCALES
  67. XXXIV
  68. INTERLUDE—A MASSAGE OF THE TOES AND A TONIC OF BEETROOT
  69. XXXV
  70. A FAT, FLABBY RAT IN ITS MOUTH
  71. XXXVI
  72. A LITTLE CLOUD
  73. XXXVII
  74. A LIE, A SEED OF UNCERTAINTY
  75. XXXVIII
  76. NOTHING-FULL
  77. XXXIX
  78. THE SMELL OF BIRDS IN THE AIR
  79. XL
  80. ONETWOTHREEFOURFIVESIX
  81. XLI
  82. THE KING GROWS TIRED OF HIS ACROBATS
  83. XLII
  84. A GREASY SHRIEK
  85. XLIII
  86. TSPTSP, OR THE VIOLENT NOISE OF NATURE
  87. XLIV
  88. THE FEELING OF TEETH IN HIS MOUTH
  89. XLV
  90. A TERRIFYING EAGERNESS, OR CURDS ROUNDING IN WHEY
  91. XLVI
  92. DORMICE, FLAMINGOES, HONEYCAKE, PLUMS
  93. XLVII
  94. SAUSAGE-GREASED FINGERS
  95. XLVIII
  96. ALL BELLY EMPTY AND FULL
  97. XLIX
  98. A PLATTER OF MEAT
  99. L
  100. EMPTY, EMPTY, EMPTY
  101. LI
  102. SOFT, FAT, AND GHOSTLY
  103. LII
  104. DRIP
  105. LIII
  106. THE NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING, OR TTHHHRRRP
  107. LIV
  108. THE UNPICKING
  109. LV
  110. A MIRAGE, A FEVER
  111. LVI
  112. HOW CURIOUS: A WAY IN
  113. LVII
  114. TOO-HASTY SEAMS
  115. LVIII
  116. HE LEAVES THE BONES
  117. LIX
  118. NO-LONGER-A-NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING
  119. LX
  120. SHE SPEAKS! SHE SPEAKS!
  121. LXI
  122. WRRRR
  123. LXII
  124. INTERLUDE—FRAGMENTS AND EPHEMERA
  125. LXIII
  126. LIKE SLEEPING, LIKE DREAMING
  127. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

Pain—sharp, searing—flashed across her. “Ah!” Startled, she fell backward, gripping her arm: A constellation of ruby spots bloomed over her wrist.

She wiped the blood away.

The wolf, panting heavily, head lolling in the grass, stared at her. He could have bitten harder, Rae knew. Injured as he was, he still could have taken her whole arm. He’d only grazed her.

Moving out of reach of his mouth, Rae treated her own wound, smearing salve over the broken skin, then tying a rag over the injury. She could feel the heaviness of a bruise pooling under her skin. She held up her bandaged wrist to the wolf.

“You see?” she said quietly. “The same.”

The wolf’s eyes were wide, his breaths shallow and quick.

Rae frowned. “You need water. And shade,” she said. “But I can give you only one of those.” Emptying the ointments and rags onto the ground, she hurried down the slope with the bowl to fill it at the stream, then climbed back twice as slowly, balancing the sloshing container in front of her.

“Here you are.” She set the bowl as close to the wolf’s snout as she dared. He did not raise his head.

“Come now.” Kneeling, she splashed the water. “You need to drink.”

The wolf’s ribs heaved. He ignored the bowl.

She wiggled her fingers in the water. Tremblingly, she held her hand in front of the wolf’s nose. She felt his hot breath, his quivering whiskers. “Here,” she whispered. She let the water drip on his muzzle. Half shutting her eyes, she braced to feel the wolf’s teeth tear her arm again.

But the wolf did not bite. He licked the droplets on his snout. When she returned to the bowl to fill her hand, he followed. Nose hovering over the water, he drank, tongue lapping languidly, then, with a long shudder, laid his head again in the grass. His breath steadied.

“See?” she murmured. “You needed water.”

For a moment, the wolf fixed his dark gaze on her. Rae shivered—there you are, there you are, she wanted to cry—then his eyes closed again. Rae wrapped her arms about herself. The creature felt like an answer to a question. But what question? She did not know.

Feeling the deep heat of her bruise, she scooted a little away. Below her, the soft woolly bodies of the sheep meandered back and forth on their grazing paths. Above, clouds mirrored the woolly meandering, and the sun grew bright and dark and bright again as they crossed haphazardly over its face.

Gradually, the wolf drifted to sleep. Rae watched his breath slow. Even from where she was sitting, she could see all the different shades that made up his tawny coloring: tufts of gray and tan and cream and almost, even, silver and gold. In the cloud-changing light, the pelt shifted, growing first paler, then duskier, as if he were replacing his coat—or even transforming into one of the creatures he may have devoured and now held in his belly.