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Contents ( 127)
  1. I
  2. ELEVENTH, OR COOKED CREAM
  3. II
  4. INTERLUDE—THE DAY OF ACCIDENTS, OR HOW ELEVENTH CAME TO BE FIRST
  5. III
  6. THE ORACLE AND THE APPRENTICE
  7. IV
  8. THE WATERS SPEAK
  9. V
  10. OVERCOOKED AND DESPISED
  11. VI
  12. LIKE THE LEAPING OF FROGS
  13. VII
  14. INTERLUDE—ANOTHER MISFORTUNE
  15. VIII
  16. A SACK OF CABBAGES IN THE DARK
  17. IX
  18. NO WORDS
  19. X
  20. THE MORNING PERAMBULATION OF THE SHEPHERD, OR THE HAREBRAINED AIRMONGER
  21. XI
  22. TENDER MANDIBLES
  23. XII
  24. FUR
  25. XIII
  26. HEARTH
  27. XIV
  28. THE LIMBS OF ANTS AND BEETLES
  29. XV
  30. THE WAY A BEAR LICKS HER CUBS INTO SHAPE
  31. XVI
  32. WHAT ANIMAL?
  33. XVII
  34. TRUTHS, OR TWO WHEELS SHEEP CHEESE
  35. XVIII
  36. ALL-TOOTHY FUR
  37. XIX
  38. AN EMPTINESS ALMOST UNEMPTIED
  39. XX
  40. A DELICATE ANIMAL
  41. XXI
  42. AH, THERE YOU ARE
  43. XXII
  44. NEVER MIND WORDS AND MAGIC AND MEANT TO
  45. XXIII
  46. THE FLOWERS THAT BLOOM IN THE THICK MUCK OF PIGS
  47. XXIV
  48. THE ROUND GOODNESS OF EGG
  49. XXV
  50. JUST A LONE MALE
  51. XXVI
  52. INTERLUDE—AN INFESTATION IN THE PRIESTS’ LIBRARY
  53. XXVII
  54. INKY BEETLES OF TRUTH
  55. XXVIII
  56. LOVE MAKES HER LIGHT AS A LAMB
  57. XXIX
  58. THE PIGLETS GROW FASTER TO PLEASE HIM
  59. XXX
  60. A MOUNTAIN TO MAKE THE SOUND MM
  61. XXXI
  62. WITH SOOT LEFT FROM FLAMES
  63. XXXII
  64. ANOTHER PANCAKE, PERHAPS?
  65. XXXIII
  66. SLIPPERY FISH SCALES
  67. XXXIV
  68. INTERLUDE—A MASSAGE OF THE TOES AND A TONIC OF BEETROOT
  69. XXXV
  70. A FAT, FLABBY RAT IN ITS MOUTH
  71. XXXVI
  72. A LITTLE CLOUD
  73. XXXVII
  74. A LIE, A SEED OF UNCERTAINTY
  75. XXXVIII
  76. NOTHING-FULL
  77. XXXIX
  78. THE SMELL OF BIRDS IN THE AIR
  79. XL
  80. ONETWOTHREEFOURFIVESIX
  81. XLI
  82. THE KING GROWS TIRED OF HIS ACROBATS
  83. XLII
  84. A GREASY SHRIEK
  85. XLIII
  86. TSPTSP, OR THE VIOLENT NOISE OF NATURE
  87. XLIV
  88. THE FEELING OF TEETH IN HIS MOUTH
  89. XLV
  90. A TERRIFYING EAGERNESS, OR CURDS ROUNDING IN WHEY
  91. XLVI
  92. DORMICE, FLAMINGOES, HONEYCAKE, PLUMS
  93. XLVII
  94. SAUSAGE-GREASED FINGERS
  95. XLVIII
  96. ALL BELLY EMPTY AND FULL
  97. XLIX
  98. A PLATTER OF MEAT
  99. L
  100. EMPTY, EMPTY, EMPTY
  101. LI
  102. SOFT, FAT, AND GHOSTLY
  103. LII
  104. DRIP
  105. LIII
  106. THE NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING, OR TTHHHRRRP
  107. LIV
  108. THE UNPICKING
  109. LV
  110. A MIRAGE, A FEVER
  111. LVI
  112. HOW CURIOUS: A WAY IN
  113. LVII
  114. TOO-HASTY SEAMS
  115. LVIII
  116. HE LEAVES THE BONES
  117. LIX
  118. NO-LONGER-A-NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING
  119. LX
  120. SHE SPEAKS! SHE SPEAKS!
  121. LXI
  122. WRRRR
  123. LXII
  124. INTERLUDE—FRAGMENTS AND EPHEMERA
  125. LXIII
  126. LIKE SLEEPING, LIKE DREAMING
  127. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

And the no-longer-a-boy-boy-king strode back to the palace, leaving the fish-keep shaking his head, leaving Governor-Advisor with worm tail gaping.

XX

A DELICATE ANIMAL

The wolf lay beneath the scrub. His leg was not his leg: Smelling and licking, he sensed it was not. His fur was all salt-tasting. All blood-sticky. Too hot. The leg did not move as it should. He was driven to lick and lick and lick—he could do nothing but. Licking, he felt he would find the leg that was his; he would nose it out, uncover it.

Wide light gave way to wind-carried sounds. He flicked his ears. Nose in the air, he could sense a great woolly mass moving—a herd, smelling of grass and earthy oiliness, droppings and hoof-dented soil.

Leaf-scented shadows swayed over him. He tried to shrink into their coolness. Tongue dry, he licked his salty fur, ears quivering at the oily thuddy bleating—the woolly odorous herd moving toward him. But beneath their thudding and bleating was another. Another animal.

He lifted his head. He sniffed. What animal?

The strange animal again. Two-legged. All nervous smell and trembling skin.

The strange animal—quiet, furless, delicate—swung its head on its delicate neck. Soundless, trembling, it eyed the field. Fear smelled on its skin.

For a moment, the fear smelled like hunger, and he wanted to gnaw it, rip it, chew it, eat it, all the bones and soft furless flesh, but something else twisted beneath his skin. It was not hunger. It was the feeling of den, the feeling of roots and dirt and warmth, the squirming of pups. He sensed the animal as part of the den, part of the wriggling warmth he had known.

The feeling of den. The feeling of hunger.

His leg was hot, all sticky with pain.

He whimpered.

His leg was not a leg.

XXI

AH, THERE YOU ARE

Rae had not wanted to lead the sheep out to the pastures, but she did not know what she could say when Ness asked. “Just bring them up the hill to the ungrazed land, Rae. Mop has a cart to mend, and I’m going to be picking fleece all afternoon.”

“But…” Rae, voice trembling, had hesitated. The wolf, she’d wanted to say. The wolves. She did not want to go into the hills.

How could she admit this?

“You’re old enough now.” Ness had ushered her toward the door. “Lead them out. Mop trusts you to care for the flock on your own.”

So Rae, the word wolf still lodged in her throat, brought the sheep up the hill. With no rain to break the spell, the day was as hot and still as it had been yesterday. Standing in the center of the meadow, she clutched Mop’s staff—nearly twice as tall as she—and scanned the edges of the woods for creeping shadows. Though the sheep grazed peacefully, she could not let go of her disquiet, and the longer she stood, the more unnerved she became.

Something felt wrong.