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  1. I
  2. ELEVENTH, OR COOKED CREAM
  3. II
  4. INTERLUDE—THE DAY OF ACCIDENTS, OR HOW ELEVENTH CAME TO BE FIRST
  5. III
  6. THE ORACLE AND THE APPRENTICE
  7. IV
  8. THE WATERS SPEAK
  9. V
  10. OVERCOOKED AND DESPISED
  11. VI
  12. LIKE THE LEAPING OF FROGS
  13. VII
  14. INTERLUDE—ANOTHER MISFORTUNE
  15. VIII
  16. A SACK OF CABBAGES IN THE DARK
  17. IX
  18. NO WORDS
  19. X
  20. THE MORNING PERAMBULATION OF THE SHEPHERD, OR THE HAREBRAINED AIRMONGER
  21. XI
  22. TENDER MANDIBLES
  23. XII
  24. FUR
  25. XIII
  26. HEARTH
  27. XIV
  28. THE LIMBS OF ANTS AND BEETLES
  29. XV
  30. THE WAY A BEAR LICKS HER CUBS INTO SHAPE
  31. XVI
  32. WHAT ANIMAL?
  33. XVII
  34. TRUTHS, OR TWO WHEELS SHEEP CHEESE
  35. XVIII
  36. ALL-TOOTHY FUR
  37. XIX
  38. AN EMPTINESS ALMOST UNEMPTIED
  39. XX
  40. A DELICATE ANIMAL
  41. XXI
  42. AH, THERE YOU ARE
  43. XXII
  44. NEVER MIND WORDS AND MAGIC AND MEANT TO
  45. XXIII
  46. THE FLOWERS THAT BLOOM IN THE THICK MUCK OF PIGS
  47. XXIV
  48. THE ROUND GOODNESS OF EGG
  49. XXV
  50. JUST A LONE MALE
  51. XXVI
  52. INTERLUDE—AN INFESTATION IN THE PRIESTS’ LIBRARY
  53. XXVII
  54. INKY BEETLES OF TRUTH
  55. XXVIII
  56. LOVE MAKES HER LIGHT AS A LAMB
  57. XXIX
  58. THE PIGLETS GROW FASTER TO PLEASE HIM
  59. XXX
  60. A MOUNTAIN TO MAKE THE SOUND MM
  61. XXXI
  62. WITH SOOT LEFT FROM FLAMES
  63. XXXII
  64. ANOTHER PANCAKE, PERHAPS?
  65. XXXIII
  66. SLIPPERY FISH SCALES
  67. XXXIV
  68. INTERLUDE—A MASSAGE OF THE TOES AND A TONIC OF BEETROOT
  69. XXXV
  70. A FAT, FLABBY RAT IN ITS MOUTH
  71. XXXVI
  72. A LITTLE CLOUD
  73. XXXVII
  74. A LIE, A SEED OF UNCERTAINTY
  75. XXXVIII
  76. NOTHING-FULL
  77. XXXIX
  78. THE SMELL OF BIRDS IN THE AIR
  79. XL
  80. ONETWOTHREEFOURFIVESIX
  81. XLI
  82. THE KING GROWS TIRED OF HIS ACROBATS
  83. XLII
  84. A GREASY SHRIEK
  85. XLIII
  86. TSPTSP, OR THE VIOLENT NOISE OF NATURE
  87. XLIV
  88. THE FEELING OF TEETH IN HIS MOUTH
  89. XLV
  90. A TERRIFYING EAGERNESS, OR CURDS ROUNDING IN WHEY
  91. XLVI
  92. DORMICE, FLAMINGOES, HONEYCAKE, PLUMS
  93. XLVII
  94. SAUSAGE-GREASED FINGERS
  95. XLVIII
  96. ALL BELLY EMPTY AND FULL
  97. XLIX
  98. A PLATTER OF MEAT
  99. L
  100. EMPTY, EMPTY, EMPTY
  101. LI
  102. SOFT, FAT, AND GHOSTLY
  103. LII
  104. DRIP
  105. LIII
  106. THE NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING, OR TTHHHRRRP
  107. LIV
  108. THE UNPICKING
  109. LV
  110. A MIRAGE, A FEVER
  111. LVI
  112. HOW CURIOUS: A WAY IN
  113. LVII
  114. TOO-HASTY SEAMS
  115. LVIII
  116. HE LEAVES THE BONES
  117. LIX
  118. NO-LONGER-A-NO-LONGER-A-BOY-BOY-KING
  119. LX
  120. SHE SPEAKS! SHE SPEAKS!
  121. LXI
  122. WRRRR
  123. LXII
  124. INTERLUDE—FRAGMENTS AND EPHEMERA
  125. LXIII
  126. LIKE SLEEPING, LIKE DREAMING
  127. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

She glanced again at what she had copied of Mop’s market song—Forest shadows held us once in green embrace; now outside and alone, we fear what we’ve forgotten. The lines reminded her of the boy-king; how alone he must have felt, how much he must have feared forest shadows, all nature’s wild patterns of bloom and decay, to build that desperate, dry city. But how much more alone he must have felt inside it. No wonder to share with anyone at all.

“Was it lonely?” she asked. “Being a wolf, was it lonely?”

At first, he seemed not to understand, then he shook his head. “No.”

“And now? Is there loneliness now that you’re no longer a wolf?”

“Yes.”

Rae felt a sudden rush of sadness. “Oh.” She had not realized he was unhappy. She looked away so he would not see her trembling chin. She was happier with him by her side: She had not known she felt the absence of brother until he was with her, and now she could not imagine life without him.

But he nudged her, a gentle elbow at her side. “Sister, I did not… know before. Know you before.” He pointed at their home in the distance. “Mop. Ness. Now I understand… loneliness.”

And Rae realized then that his loneliness was like hers: He, too, could not imagine life without his new family—imagining it was a kind of loneliness.

As they sat on the ridge, swinging their feet in the air, the sun and wind pushed at them. Rom raised his face to the sky, watching a flock of sparrows wing overhead. “Will you sing now?” he asked, squinting into the light.

“Which of Mop’s songs do you want to hear?”

He shook his head. “No, not his—yours. I’m sure I’ve heard you sing yours before. I’m…” He hesitated, searching for the right word. “Cer—certain.”

Rae looked at him, surprised. “The meadows now all wait for us…?” she asked. She had been writing and chanting Mop’s songs for so long, she hadn’t thought he would remember her own singing from their time below.

“No, before. I remember another before.”

Rae gazed at her brother, his shining face, earnest and wind-scrubbed. Could he really remember her long-ago song?

“Once,” she said. “There was a song, once.

“Wolf in the den,

the dark of the earth,

the creeping of root

the scruffling of dirt…”

She started softly, scarcely singing. The words did not really feel right anymore. She began shifting them, reshaping them as they came to her in memory and out of the air.

“Form of the mountain, all shadows and trees,

the silence of moss, of murmurous leaves.

All nature, all wind, all riotous green,

all measureless skies in wild-hearted beast.”

Rae fell silent. Next to her, her brother gazed over the land. Far below, they could see Ness digging in the garden, Mop bent over a lamb. The clouds, seemingly close enough to touch, scudded overhead and cast their shadows on the patchwork of green below. “Yes,” Rom finally said. “Like that. All nature. Like dreaming.”