Back With or Without You
Chapters (84)
  1. Chapter one
  2. Chapter two
  3. Chapter three
  4. Chapter four
  5. Chapter five
  6. Chapter six
  7. Chapter seven
  8. Chapter eight
  9. Chapter nine
  10. Chapter ten
  11. Chapter eleven
  12. Chapter twelve
  13. Chapter thirteen
  14. Chapter fourteen
  15. Chapter fifteen
  16. Chapter sixteen
  17. Chapter seventeen
  18. Chapter eighteen
  19. Chapter nineteen
  20. Chapter twenty
  21. Chapter twenty-one
  22. Chapter twenty-two
  23. Chapter twenty-three
  24. Chapter twenty-four
  25. Chapter twenty-five
  26. Chapter twenty-six
  27. Chapter twenty-seven
  28. Chapter twenty-eight
  29. Chapter twenty-nine
  30. Chapter thirty
  31. Chapter thirty-one
  32. Chapter thirty-two
  33. Chapter thirty-three
  34. Chapter thirty-four
  35. Chapter thirty-five
  36. Chapter thirty-six
  37. Chapter thirty-seven
  38. Chapter thirty-eight
  39. Chapter thirty-nine
  40. Chapter forty
  41. Chapter forty-one
  42. Chapter forty-two
  43. Chapter forty-three
  44. Chapter forty-four
  45. Chapter forty-five
  46. Chapter forty-six
  47. Chapter forty-seven
  48. Chapter forty-eight
  49. Chapter forty-nine
  50. Chapter fifty
  51. Chapter fifty-one
  52. Chapter fifty-two
  53. Chapter fifty-three
  54. Chapter fifty-four
  55. Chapter fifty-five
  56. Chapter fifty-six
  57. Chapter fifty-seven
  58. Chapter fifty-eight
  59. Chapter fifty-nine
  60. Chapter sixty
  61. Chapter sixty-one
  62. Chapter sixty-two
  63. Chapter sixty-three
  64. Chapter sixty-four
  65. Chapter sixty-five
  66. Chapter sixty-six
  67. Chapter sixty-seven
  68. Chapter sixty-eight
  69. Chapter sixty-nine
  70. Chapter seventy
  71. Chapter seventy-one
  72. Chapter seventy-two
  73. Chapter seventy-three
  74. Chapter seventy-four
  75. Chapter seventy-five
  76. Chapter seventy-six
  77. Chapter seventy-seven
  78. Chapter seventy-eight
  79. Chapter seventy-nine
  80. Chapter eighty
  81. Chapter eighty-one
  82. Chapter eighty-two
  83. Chapter eighty-three
  84. Chapter eighty-four

A headlight flashes across the front of the house in a lazy arc like a searchlight, and a motorbike slowly mounts the pavement, pulling up by the wrought-iron railings. The rider dismounts and chains his bike to the bars. I assume it’s Pip as I heard from Jake that he’d got a new mode of transport. He tugs his helmet off and heads towards the door—and me.

‘Hi,’ I say and Pip nearly jumps out of his leathers.

‘Good grief,’ he says. ‘Lyssa! What are you doing here? You’re soaked through. How long have you been waiting?’

The truth is I don’t know how long I’ve been sitting here. Long enough to have made my legs go numb and for the rain to have gone straight through my coat. Why hadn’t I noticed that before?

‘Come on,’ he says. ‘Let’s get you inside.’

‘You’ll have to give me a tug.’ Pip takes my hand in his big, hard leather gauntlet and heaves me up. My knees creak into action.

Pip tuts at me. ‘You’ll catch your death of cold,’ he says and I have to smile because he sounds like someone’s mum. My mum, if I’m not mistaken.

He fiddles about with the key in the lock and then ushers me inside. I follow him through to the kitchen and he throws me a small hand-towel as he starts to peel off his gear. I rub the towel over my hair, which is plastered firmly to my head despite Tigger’s best efforts.

The inside of Pip’s flat is much more spruce than the outside. It has a black slate floor in all of the rooms and streamlined leather furniture in lollipop colours. There are original movie posters on the walls—Casablanca, Brief Encounter, From Here to Eternity. All the ones that make you cry. The kitchen is all steel and boysy.

Pip tugs off his boots and socks and pads round in his bare feet, keeping busy doing nothing. Eventually, he looks back at me. ‘Better?’

‘Yeah.’ I give up with the towel.

He eyes his pile of wet clothes making a nice dark pool on the kitchen floor. ‘It’s not the night to be riding a bike,’ he admits. ‘Or to be squatting on someone’s doorstep.’

‘I’m waiting for Jake,’ I say, and can’t believe how lame I sound.

‘Jake?’ Pip’s eyebrows shoot up in surprise.

I sink onto one of the kitchen chairs. ‘Do you know when he’ll be back?’

‘Er…’

‘I’ve tried calling him, but he never answers his phone.’ My voice sounds so tired and old and weary. ‘Any idea where he is?’

I stop rubbing with the towel and look up at Pip. He’s taken off his wet jacket and is looking vaguely stricken.

‘Er…’ he says again.