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Chapters (80)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Debbie Howells
  3. Readers gave The Vow five stars …
  4. Dedication
  5. Niamh
  6. Chapter One
  7. Niamh
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Niamh
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Niamh
  13. Chapter Five
  14. Niamh
  15. Chapter Six
  16. Chapter Seven
  17. Chapter Eight
  18. Chapter Nine
  19. Niamh
  20. Chapter Ten
  21. Chapter Eleven
  22. Niamh
  23. Chapter Twelve
  24. Chapter Thirteen
  25. Chapter Fourteen
  26. Chapter Fifteen
  27. Niamh
  28. Chapter Sixteen
  29. Chapter Seventeen
  30. Chapter Eighteen
  31. Niamh
  32. Chapter Nineteen
  33. Chapter Twenty
  34. Chapter Twenty-One
  35. Chapter Twenty-Two
  36. Niamh
  37. Chapter Twenty-Three
  38. Chapter Twenty-Four
  39. Chapter Twenty-Five
  40. Chapter Twenty-Six
  41. Niamh
  42. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  43. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  44. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  45. Niamh
  46. Chapter Thirty
  47. Chapter Thirty-One
  48. Chapter Thirty-Two
  49. Chapter Thirty-Three
  50. Chapter Thirty-Four
  51. Niamh
  52. Chapter Thirty-Five
  53. Chapter Thirty-Six
  54. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  55. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  56. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  57. Chapter Forty
  58. Chapter Forty-One
  59. Niamh
  60. Chapter Forty-Two
  61. Chapter Forty-Three
  62. Niamh
  63. Chapter Forty-Four
  64. Chapter Forty-Five
  65. Chapter Forty-Six
  66. Niamh
  67. Chapter Forty-Seven
  68. Chapter Forty-Eight
  69. Chapter Forty-Nine
  70. Niamh
  71. Chapter Fifty
  72. Niamh
  73. Chapter Fifty-One
  74. Chapter Fifty-Two
  75. Niamh
  76. Keep Reading …
  77. Acknowledgements
  78. About the Author
  79. Also by Debbie Howells
  80. About the Publisher

After the aircraft parks, and all the passengers have disembarked, I quickly check my phone and find a voicemail from Andrew. It’s clipped and to the point, no emotion in his voice. ‘I thought you’d want to know Stephanie didn’t make it.’ As the return passengers board, I’m in shock; on automatic. All I can think is what a waste of a life. The flight back to Gatwick is surreal, life suddenly even more tenuous than usual, no less because I’m at thirty-five thousand feet, where a few millimetres of metal is all there is between life and certain death.

*

I try to call James before driving home, but it goes to voicemail. When Andrew gets home that evening he has little to add to his earlier message, other than citing organ failure as the most probable cause of Stephanie’s death.

Whenever I run past the Hamptons’ house in the days that follow, the windows are closed and curtains drawn. Even at night, it’s in darkness and I wonder how long before the bank forecloses, before what’s left of James’s life is gone.

Oddly, I find my husband is suddenly home earlier, and around more often, as Stephanie’s comment from the last time I saw her comes to mind. ‘Do you know how many people would give anything to be in your shoes …’ It makes me think about James’s hatred, about the jealousy in Stephanie’s eyes, and all of a sudden, everything falls into place as I see what’s been right under my nose.

I remember the call I picked up ages ago, before Hollie disappeared. No-one had spoken or left a message. After, I’d written the number down, but never called it. Searching in the kitchen drawer where I would have put the piece of paper I’d written it on, I find it, against the odds. Then I dial the number.

After, as I try to take in what I now know to be fact, I take advantage of the fact that Andrew’s out. Going to one of the cupboards, I start gathering bottles, pouring away every last drop of his beloved Scotch, then taking the expensive red wine he buys outside and hurling each bottle into the dustbin, listening to the glass shatter. Then back inside, I’m forced to wait, on edge, mentally preparing what I want to say to him. When he comes in from work and goes to the cupboard where the whisky’s kept and finds it empty, he glares at me.

‘Elise. My Scotch isn’t here.’ He speaks impatiently, accusingly.