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  1. Cover
  2. Praise
  3. About the Author
  4. Title Page
  5. Intoroduction
  6. ONE
  7. TWO
  8. THREE
  9. FOUR
  10. FIVE
  11. SIX
  12. SEVEN
  13. EITHT
  14. NINE
  15. TEN
  16. ELEVEN
  17. TWELVE
  18. THIRTEEN
  19. FOURTEEN
  20. FIFTEEN
  21. SIXTEEN
  22. SEVENTEEN
  23. EIGHTEEN
  24. NINETEEN
  25. TWENTY
  26. TWENTY-ONE
  27. TWENTY-TWO
  28. TWENTY-THREE
  29. TWENTY-FOUR
  30. TWENTY-FIVE
  31. TWENTY-SIX
  32. TWENTY-SEVEN
  33. TWENTY-EIGHT
  34. TWENTY-NINE
  35. THIRTY
  36. THIRTY-ONE
  37. THIRTY-TWO
  38. THIRTY-THREE
  39. THIRTY-FOUR
  40. THIRTY-FIVE
  41. THIRTY-SIX
  42. THIRTY-SEVEN
  43. THIRTY-EIGHT
  44. THIRTY-NINE
  45. FORTY
  46. FORTY-ONE
  47. FORTY-TWO
  48. FORTY-THREE
  49. FORTY-FOUR
  50. FORTY-FIVE
  51. FORTY-SIX
  52. FORTY-SEVEN
  53. FORTY-EIGHT
  54. FORTY-NINE
  55. FIFTY
  56. FIFTY-ONE
  57. FIFTY-TWO
  58. FIFTY-THREE
  59. FIFTY-FOUR
  60. FIFTY-FIVE
  61. FIFTY-SIX
  62. FIFTY-SEVEN
  63. FIFTY-EIGHT
  64. FIFTY-NINE
  65. SIXTY
  66. SIXTY-ONE
  67. SIXTY-TWO
  68. SIXTY-THREE
  69. SIXTY-FOUR
  70. SIXTY-FIVE
  71. SIXTY-SIX
  72. SIXTY-SEVEN
  73. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  74. CLIMATE EMERGENCY
  75. Copyright

‘The videos. You were on there a few times this week. I can tell. Monday night, or very early Tuesday morning – you not sleeping or something?’ For the briefest of seconds, his concern seems genuine. ‘And again yesterday evening. My brother set up this thing.’ He takes his phone out. On the screen are rows of digits and symbols. ‘These are dates and times, and these are computer addresses. This one’s you, I think.’ He points to a string of numbers. ‘I don’t really get it. He’s a fucking genius with computers, my brother. It’s what he did when he was in.’ Alan’s grin is so genuine it’s almost infectious.

‘In?’ A horse whisper this time. I’m reeling from my week of silence being broken by such enthusiasm.

‘In the army. Before he left.’

I hadn’t meant to go back to that site. And I didn’t watch any videos, just stared at the screen, at a dozen or so thumbnails, freezeframes of streets at night, the back of a few hooded heads.

‘This is you, I think.’ He points again to the string of numbers. I’m not sure he’s pointing to the same one as last time. ‘Like I said, I’m not sure how it works. But did you see this?’ He opens a new window on his phone. It’s a local news website, with a headline ‘Increasing Hate-Crime Threatens Families’ and a picture of some houses. I recognise them as the ones on Jamie’s estate. There’s something written in red paint on one of the garage doors, but I can’t read it. Alan jerks the phone back into his pocket as Mr Walters comes back into the room.

‘Alan?’

‘Sorry, Sir, just asking Josh about something.’ He stays at my bench, casually leaning on it with his elbow. ‘I’m really interested in,’ he leans further over, staring at the page of the textbook, ‘gun-etics. Gun attacks? Is that in Biology sir?’

Vince makes his fingers into a gun and shoots Alan. Alan’s mock-death is carried off with lots of moaning and chest clutching, until Vince puts his finger-barrel to Alan’s head and finishes him off.

‘You mean genetics, Alan, you foul and devious cretin. Don’t get involved, Josh. Alan is a foul and devious cretin.’

‘Aw, Sir, and I thought you liked me.’

‘And for my sins, Alan, I do. I too must be a cretin.’

Alan begins to sidle back to his seat. Mr Walters warms to his theme.

‘For some reason, Alan, I do in truth see some value in you. Some faint glimmer of hope that, contrary to your own insidious actions—’

‘What’s insidious mean, Sir?’ Vince pipes up.