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Chapters (70)
  1. COVER PAGE
  2. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  3. DEDICATION
  4. PROLOGUE
  5. PART I BIRTH
  6. ONE
  7. TWO
  8. THREE
  9. FOUR
  10. FIVE
  11. SIX
  12. SEVEN
  13. EIGHT
  14. NINE
  15. TEN
  16. ELEVEN
  17. TWELVE
  18. THIRTEEN
  19. FOURTEEN
  20. FIFTEEN
  21. PART II LIFE
  22. SIXTEEN
  23. SEVENTEEN
  24. EIGHTEEN
  25. NINETEEN
  26. TWENTY
  27. TWENTY-ONE
  28. TWENTY-TWO
  29. TWENTY-THREE
  30. TWENTY-FOUR
  31. TWENTY-FIVE
  32. TWENTY-SIX
  33. TWENTY-SEVEN
  34. TWENTY-EIGHT
  35. TWENTY-NINE
  36. THIRTY
  37. THIRTY-ONE
  38. THIRTY-TWO
  39. THIRTY-THREE
  40. THIRTY-FOUR
  41. PART III DEATH
  42. THIRTY-FIVE
  43. THIRTY-SIX
  44. THIRTY-SEVEN
  45. THIRTY-EIGHT
  46. THIRTY-NINE
  47. FORTY
  48. FORTY-ONE
  49. FORTY-TWO
  50. FORTY-THREE
  51. FORTY-FOUR
  52. FORTY-FIVE
  53. FORTY-SIX
  54. FORTY-SEVEN
  55. FORTY-EIGHT
  56. FORTY-NINE
  57. FIFTY
  58. FIFTY-ONE
  59. FIFTY-TWO
  60. FIFTY-THREE
  61. FIFTY-FOUR
  62. FIFTY-FIVE
  63. FIFTY-SIX
  64. FIFTY-SEVEN
  65. FIFTY-EIGHT
  66. FIFTY-NINE
  67. SIXTY
  68. EPILOGUE
  69. AUTHOR’S NOTE
  70. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

Winnie doesn’t look convinced. ‘Maybe,’ she says. ‘Do you reckon he was trying it on? Like, did he ask you for a drink after? Or try to get you alone in the change room?’

I shake my head. ‘No, he just left,’ I say.

‘He wants to sleep with you,’ Winnie says knowingly, sipping her coffee. ‘When he says, “Interesting”, he means, “I want to put my penis into your vagina.”’

We start to laugh.

‘It’s really not like that,’ I say, still laughing. ‘I’ve got a massive crush on him and he feels sorry for me. Although he’s also really nice. He’s asked me to help him with this research paper. He reckons if I do an all right job I can go to Sweden in a few months and present it.’

Winnie looks surprised. ‘Wow! That’d be cool!’

I agree. It does sound cool.

‘You can combine your annual leave with a conference and make it tax deductible,’ she says, suddenly reminding me she is a tax lawyer. ‘Heaps of doctors do that.’

‘Good idea.’

‘Anyway, I have to get ready for work,’ she says, jumping up. ‘I like this guy who works on the floor below me and I want to make myself look so attractive he’ll be forced to ask me out for a drink after work.’

‘That sounds—’ I stop ‘—almost normal. For you, I mean.’

Winnie grins. ‘Apparently he’s into weird fetish parties,’ she says casually. ‘Like where people get whipped and shit.’

‘Oh, of course. He couldn’t actually just be normal.’

‘He told me he’s only into ice cubes and stuff, though,’ she says, her grin widening. ‘He’s not full fet, apparently.’

‘So no dungeons, just the freezer?’

We both collapse into hysterical laughter.

‘Sometimes I think we choose our romantic conquests based on how funny the story will be to tell each other,’ I point out, gasping for air. ‘Between my old surgeon and your “it’s just ice cubes” fet guy from work.’

‘You’re an idiot,’ she says, draining her coffee down to the dregs. ‘He could be my soulmate.’

‘Better get a bigger freezer then!’

Her laughter floats down the hallway behind her as she leaves for work. I let the lightness swirl around me and recognise it as an unusual sort of feeling these days, when everything is generally stressful. I wish, for a moment, the hospital was less intense and that Dr Prince was young and single and that we could go for a beer together and make a few slightly off-colour jokes, rather than hover over exposed brain tissue.

I’m pulled from this fantasy by Max emerging from his bedroom.

‘We need to sign our timesheets, Kitty. We forgot last week and that’s why our pay was late! Let’s go do it now while we remember.’

Max grabs his stethoscope and bag, then my coffee.