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Chapters (70)
  1. COVER PAGE
  2. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  3. DEDICATION
  4. PROLOGUE
  5. PART I BIRTH
  6. ONE
  7. TWO
  8. THREE
  9. FOUR
  10. FIVE
  11. SIX
  12. SEVEN
  13. EIGHT
  14. NINE
  15. TEN
  16. ELEVEN
  17. TWELVE
  18. THIRTEEN
  19. FOURTEEN
  20. FIFTEEN
  21. PART II LIFE
  22. SIXTEEN
  23. SEVENTEEN
  24. EIGHTEEN
  25. NINETEEN
  26. TWENTY
  27. TWENTY-ONE
  28. TWENTY-TWO
  29. TWENTY-THREE
  30. TWENTY-FOUR
  31. TWENTY-FIVE
  32. TWENTY-SIX
  33. TWENTY-SEVEN
  34. TWENTY-EIGHT
  35. TWENTY-NINE
  36. THIRTY
  37. THIRTY-ONE
  38. THIRTY-TWO
  39. THIRTY-THREE
  40. THIRTY-FOUR
  41. PART III DEATH
  42. THIRTY-FIVE
  43. THIRTY-SIX
  44. THIRTY-SEVEN
  45. THIRTY-EIGHT
  46. THIRTY-NINE
  47. FORTY
  48. FORTY-ONE
  49. FORTY-TWO
  50. FORTY-THREE
  51. FORTY-FOUR
  52. FORTY-FIVE
  53. FORTY-SIX
  54. FORTY-SEVEN
  55. FORTY-EIGHT
  56. FORTY-NINE
  57. FIFTY
  58. FIFTY-ONE
  59. FIFTY-TWO
  60. FIFTY-THREE
  61. FIFTY-FOUR
  62. FIFTY-FIVE
  63. FIFTY-SIX
  64. FIFTY-SEVEN
  65. FIFTY-EIGHT
  66. FIFTY-NINE
  67. SIXTY
  68. EPILOGUE
  69. AUTHOR’S NOTE
  70. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

I try not to smile too enthusiastically.

‘Hi, Dr Prince.’ To my horror I feel my cheeks start to burn. Honestly. I’m getting really sick of this. I’m a grown woman; I’m too old for a crush. I’m also a doctor, and Dr Prince is an old, slightly overweight man who’s just another doctor.

Doctor … Brain surgeon … Yachtsman … Purveyor of rare antiquities …

I drop the nailbrush in the sink, which makes a loud clang, but he doesn’t say anything, just hands me another one, then another. We both know I’m hopeless, but he pretends not to notice.

‘Is it true you lend ancient art to museums?’ I can’t help asking.

He looks over at me, using his elbows to turn on the tap, like the pro he is. ‘Yes, it is true,’ he says. ‘It’s a special interest of mine.’

‘Cool,’ I say, accidentally splashing water all over myself.

‘Do you like history and art?’ he asks me, as he starts to clean his nails.

‘Yeah … I mean …’ I pause, feeling stupid. ‘I studied history at school, but I don’t know much about art,’ I admit. ‘I like the idea of it.’

He doesn’t say anything, and I regret my response immediately. I should have pretended, made some impressive statement about impressionism or something. Been impressive about impressionism. I almost laugh. I know as much about impressionism as I do about brain surgery—that is, nothing.

‘I don’t know that much either,’ he says surprisingly, stepping away from the sink and turning to walk into the operating theatre, ‘but I like the idea of it too.’

‘Well, I guess art is just an expression of ideas,’ I point out, following him through the door, reminding myself to hold my hands in front of me and not to touch anything.

He smiles. ‘Exactly.’

I laugh. ‘You’re just saying that. You must know heaps.’

He laughs with me. In the operating theatre it’s like seeing him in his living room, in a strange way. He’s more relaxed, he laughs more easily, and he wants to chat.

‘You know what they say …’ I continue as we approach the steel trolley where Mr Wilde lies, drifting in and out of consciousness as the anaesthetist draws up more Propofol. ‘Art is one of the only things in this world that exists solely for pleasure.’

I realise instantly that I’ve pushed it too far.

Behind his mask, his eyes find mine. I can’t see his mouth, but I sense he’s still smiling.

‘That’s true,’ he replies. ‘You’d know if you studied history that the ancient Greeks certainly realised that.’