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Chapters (48)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Introduction
  4. Endland
  5. About Lisa
  6. Shame Of Shane
  7. Who would dream that truth was lies?
  8. Eve & Mary
  9. Chaikin/Twins
  10. James
  11. The Shell Garages History Of Mud
  12. Kelly
  13. Morton & Kermit
  14. Crash Family Robinson
  15. Wendy’s Daughter
  16. Void House
  17. Jonesey
  18. Killing Of Frank
  19. Arse on Earth
  20. The life, movies & short times of Natalie Gorgeous
  21. German Fokker
  22. Carmen by Bizet
  23. They get you most all gone when you always alone
  24. It is murky and opaque
  25. intentions seem good
  26. Cellar Story
  27. I thought I smelled something dirty
  28. Last of the First 11
  29. The Ant and The Grasshopper
  30. The Chapter
  31. Mission of Jobbin
  32. wanted to get a good look
  33. Taxi Driver
  34. Loose Promise
  35. The children of the rich
  36. The Waters Rising
  37. #Dibber
  38. Long Fainting/Try Saving Again
  39. BureauGrotesque
  40. Anger is Just Sadness Turned Inside Out
  41. Maxine
  42. For the Avoidance of Doubt
  43. now not moving
  44. A Note about Endland
  45. Acknowledgements
  46. Dear readers
  47. This book was made possible thanks to the support of:
  48. About the Author

From the windows of her bedroom on a 20th floor Mariam could see what they called The Wildlife come and go in rhythm with the hours of a broken clock, figures scratching themselves in waves across the surface of playgrounds and mini-malls, moving in predictable patterns that showed nonetheless little of immediate logic; arriving at midnight to sit on benches doing nothing, stirring mid-morning to yell insults at drone traffic or at swooping birds, or running to chase leaves for no easy reason, and rising all hours to throw bitter stones at wounded pigeons in the dog-shit verges of the roads. Looked at more closely, from the ground, it was a different story of broken stories, hard to gather into words and hard for M to feel much distant from – Mariam watched The Wildlife obsessively, but she always knew she was part of it too.

For neighbours, in the technical sense, Mariam had none, the other units in the building still judged by Earth’s population too undesirable to rent at market price on which they’d been offered for that purpose. It was all supply and no demand; beyond her unwelcome presence in the refurbished block it remained an empty vessel, a hollow morgue of atmosphere, a crystaline structure formed out of stillness and silence.

Mariam’s life there was small, like that of a child bent double in a cupboard under some stairs, refusing to breath deeply in a game of search and destroy. She was scared of the corridors. Frightened of elevators. Petrified of stairs. At night, as the TV played New Hotel Jurassic and Chrysanthemum Eyes with the sound down, closed captions mistranslated the soap scripts into phrases that Mariam read too easily as threats.

‘They get you most all gone when you always alone’ said Kendrick, supposedly, in New Hotel Jurassic.

‘The silent is what gets into you’ said Hazeel, apparently, in Chrysanthemum Eyes.