Yes I destroyed someone’s life with violence. Yes I did. But I’m trying & will keep trying & maybe someday can help others who are also trying & need help to make better Choices & even maybe Youngsters who have been through things Even Worse than me & I can help by being a friend & that’s worth something isn’t it? Maybe I can be a different kind of Fixer & fix their troubles like I fixed the Uterus & maybe when I’m done fix my own stupid self too. Thank you for your time Judge.

Robbie

Robbie

Let me tell you a secret. I know why Robbies rageful. I know why he hates this town and I know why tonight he wants to mightyduck it up. Fat boy was high as hell one night and he told me the whole sad story. He didnt tell Dag and he didnt tell Midget. This is the kind a thing you keep strictly between robocops.

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A long time after he was a newspaper hero Robbie turned himself into a Knight. He was footballing fierce from the day he started middle school. Robbie says he wasnt fat back then and I believe it cuz you cant be dodging tackles if youre humping around a extra hundred. Every time fat boy hit the field he owned it. Dude was kamikaze. Leaping right over the line. Taking a pass across what he calls the midfield. Win or lose, didnt matter. Robbie laid his body out. Pretty soon bleacher bums start chanting his name and fly cheerleaders start putting special posters on his locker. Boy was living large.

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I havent myself been on any sports teams personally but I know theres hardly no freshmen that go straight to varsity. But thats what happened. Ninth grade and pow. My boys a baller. Butting helmets with king kongs but hes hanging. Getting himself tattooed regular, but hes hanging. Coach S puts a quote in the paper how Robbies got raw talent like hes never seen and thats a badge a honor cuz in this town people respect Coach S better than Jesus. But Coach S also says raw talents not enough and if you want to be a starter at fourteen you got to work twice as hard. So what Coach S does is line up this assistant coach to work with Robbie special after practice.

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You know how teachers are always blabbing on sex abuse like its their favorite thing to blab on? And how all the books the school librarian wants us to read has kids gaining important lessons about sex abuse? Well that boring ass school library junk actually happened for real to Robbie! Hes all sex abused and whatnot and its not boring after all. Ninth grades hardly even started for fat boy when that assistant coach I mentioned starts pulling some serious afterhours unethics.

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