Back Every Little Secret
Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Prologue
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-One
  25. Chapter Twenty-Two
  26. Chapter Twenty-Three
  27. Chapter Twenty-Four
  28. Chapter Twenty-Five
  29. Chapter Twenty-Six
  30. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-One
  35. Chapter Thirty-Two
  36. Chapter Thirty-Three
  37. Chapter Thirty-Four
  38. Chapter Thirty-Five
  39. Chapter Thirty-Six
  40. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  43. Chapter Forty
  44. Chapter Forty-One
  45. Chapter Forty-Two
  46. Chapter Forty-Three
  47. Chapter Forty-Four
  48. Chapter Forty-Five
  49. Chapter Forty-Six
  50. Chapter Forty-Seven
  51. Chapter Forty-Eight
  52. Chapter Forty-Nine
  53. Chapter Fifty
  54. Chapter Fifty-One
  55. Chapter Fifty-Two
  56. Chapter Fifty-Three
  57. Chapter Fifty-Four
  58. Chapter Fifty-Five
  59. Chapter Fifty-Six
  60. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  61. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  62. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  63. Chapter Sixty
  64. Chapter Sixty-One
  65. Chapter Sixty-Two
  66. Chapter Sixty-Three
  67. Chapter Sixty-Four
  68. Chapter Sixty-Five
  69. Chapter Sixty-Six
  70. Chapter Sixty-Seven
  71. Chapter Sixty-Eight
  72. Chapter Sixty-Nine
  73. Chapter Seventy
  74. Chapter Seventy-One
  75. Chapter Seventy-Two
  76. Chapter Seventy-Three
  77. Chapter Seventy-Four
  78. A Letter From Ruby
  79. Acknowledgements
  80. About the Author
  81. Also by Ruby Speechley

‘Not even a message. I keep texting and calling, but his phone’s always switched off. He’s been here though, opened his post, but he makes bloody sure it’s when I’m not in.’

‘He probably wants to calm down, have some time to himself.’

‘But it’s been weeks. How long does he bloody need? We have to talk, not hide from each other.’

‘You know what men are like, it’s a macho thing, they need to feel in charge.’ Julie was married and divorced within two years. Single ever since. Never a good thing to say about men.

‘Whatever it is, I can’t go on like this and I can’t keep making excuses to Jamie.’

They chink their glasses.

‘I brought our favourite: Muriel’s Wedding.’

Alison forces a smile. ‘I’m not really in the mood for that. What are those ones?’ She points to the plastic bag on the floor.

Julie takes all the DVDs out and lays them on the table.

‘I don’t fancy any of them, do you?’

‘It’s up to you, you’re the one who needs cheering up.’

‘Let’s put some music on.’ Alison puts her glass down and leans over the back of the sofa, ‘Something to chill us out.’ She switches on an Amy Winehouse album, Back to Black and skips straight to song two. It was the first thing Adam bought her after they started going out. He must have saved up for it for weeks because it hadn’t been long since his gran died and he needed to pay rent on his room above the fish and chip shop. He was so sweet to her then, worshipped her. She sighs. Shame they never really got those old days back.

They sit with their feet up on the coffee table, both singing the chorus of ‘You Know I’m No Good’ at the top of their voices.

‘Are you sure this was a good choice?’ Julie laughs. Before Alison can reply, the telephone rings. She slides her legs down and picks up the receiver.

‘Hello?’ Silence. ‘Adam, is that you? I can’t hear you, I need to speak to you.’ The line goes dead. ‘Shit. I couldn’t hear a thing.’ She lifts a magazine from a pile under the coffee table and pulls out a packet of cigarettes.

‘I thought you’d given up.’

‘I have, but Adam keeps an emergency supply.’ She shows Julie the half-empty packet with a mini lighter tucked inside. ‘He hides them in the laundry basket because he knows I’ll never get to the bottom of it.’ She offers the packet to Julie.

‘Just the one.’

‘Second thoughts, I better not.’ Alison clicks the lighter for Julie. ‘I just can’t settle. Adam’s been away so often before and it’s never bothered me. Why do I feel so… on edge?’ She opens the patio door and paces around the room.