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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Prologue
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-One
  25. Chapter Twenty-Two
  26. Chapter Twenty-Three
  27. Chapter Twenty-Four
  28. Chapter Twenty-Five
  29. Chapter Twenty-Six
  30. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-One
  35. Chapter Thirty-Two
  36. Chapter Thirty-Three
  37. Chapter Thirty-Four
  38. Chapter Thirty-Five
  39. Chapter Thirty-Six
  40. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  43. Chapter Forty
  44. Chapter Forty-One
  45. Chapter Forty-Two
  46. Chapter Forty-Three
  47. Chapter Forty-Four
  48. Chapter Forty-Five
  49. Chapter Forty-Six
  50. Chapter Forty-Seven
  51. Chapter Forty-Eight
  52. Chapter Forty-Nine
  53. Chapter Fifty
  54. Chapter Fifty-One
  55. Chapter Fifty-Two
  56. Chapter Fifty-Three
  57. Chapter Fifty-Four
  58. Chapter Fifty-Five
  59. Chapter Fifty-Six
  60. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  61. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  62. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  63. Chapter Sixty
  64. Chapter Sixty-One
  65. Chapter Sixty-Two
  66. Chapter Sixty-Three
  67. Chapter Sixty-Four
  68. Chapter Sixty-Five
  69. Chapter Sixty-Six
  70. Chapter Sixty-Seven
  71. Chapter Sixty-Eight
  72. Chapter Sixty-Nine
  73. Chapter Seventy
  74. Chapter Seventy-One
  75. Chapter Seventy-Two
  76. Chapter Seventy-Three
  77. Chapter Seventy-Four
  78. A Letter From Ruby
  79. Acknowledgements
  80. About the Author
  81. Also by Ruby Speechley

Just then a dark cloud of cackling jackdaws swoops across the sky, blistering the silence. They land on the branches of the tallest sycamore, weighing them down, squabbling for position. Maddy and Emily hold hands tightly, heads bowed. A distant gunshot scatters the birds into a splash of black across the sky. Maddy watches them circling the church spire, their mocking chatter grinding through her head.

After Emily has gone to bed, Maddy runs out to the garden and picks up the scythe propped against the greenhouse. Her arms swoop as one in a wide curve, beheading her beloved China roses. This renewed strength surprises her. She clenches her teeth to temper the force pushing her on, groaning with the effort into the eerie silence. Her mind fills with Max’s blackened face floating in water. She tries to shake the image away. She hacks at the rows of delphiniums and hydrangeas, scattering them across the grass. She holds up the blade and turns it so it glints in the light. She wields the scythe again chopping at sunflowers and gladioli, slicing through dahlias and chrysanthemums, watching them topple before she moves on. The compulsion doesn’t end until she has massacred the whole garden. With a last burst of energy, she throws off her shoes and stamps on the fallen flowers, crushing their heads, staining the soles of her feet.

All around her are the remains of the plants and flowers she’s nurtured over a lifetime, like children to her.

The following day, dressed in black and wearing sunglasses, Maddy takes Emily to the nearest garden centre and selects pots of towering black millet, Oriental black bamboo, Black Knight irises, Can-Can Black Moon pansies, Queen of the Night bulbs, black dahlias and Black Baccara roses. She loads them into the car, cramming every space with their fresh pungent smells. The foliage covers all the windows, even part of the windscreen so it’s almost impossible to see out.

Back home, Emily silently helps her unload the various sized pots, lining them up against the wall like a gathering of monks. Maddy digs up any remaining roots, twisting them out of the earth with her fork while Emily sweeps away remnants of the coloured flowers.

They plant deep rows of the millet, bamboo and irises creating a shroud of darkness in front of the fences. They fill the rest of the borders with roses and, finally, nearest the lawn’s edge and around the island of bushes enclosing the sundial in the middle. By the time they finish planting, daylight is fading.

Later, Maddy stands alone in the garden with a glass of white wine, watching the moon’s silver sheen highlight the outline of dark leaves and flowers. She lets out a deep sigh. At last, a sense of peace and calm descends on her. No more pink or blue or yellow flowers, only shades of black.

Chapter Eleven