Back Every Little Secret Save as PDF
Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Prologue
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-One
  25. Chapter Twenty-Two
  26. Chapter Twenty-Three
  27. Chapter Twenty-Four
  28. Chapter Twenty-Five
  29. Chapter Twenty-Six
  30. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-One
  35. Chapter Thirty-Two
  36. Chapter Thirty-Three
  37. Chapter Thirty-Four
  38. Chapter Thirty-Five
  39. Chapter Thirty-Six
  40. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  43. Chapter Forty
  44. Chapter Forty-One
  45. Chapter Forty-Two
  46. Chapter Forty-Three
  47. Chapter Forty-Four
  48. Chapter Forty-Five
  49. Chapter Forty-Six
  50. Chapter Forty-Seven
  51. Chapter Forty-Eight
  52. Chapter Forty-Nine
  53. Chapter Fifty
  54. Chapter Fifty-One
  55. Chapter Fifty-Two
  56. Chapter Fifty-Three
  57. Chapter Fifty-Four
  58. Chapter Fifty-Five
  59. Chapter Fifty-Six
  60. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  61. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  62. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  63. Chapter Sixty
  64. Chapter Sixty-One
  65. Chapter Sixty-Two
  66. Chapter Sixty-Three
  67. Chapter Sixty-Four
  68. Chapter Sixty-Five
  69. Chapter Sixty-Six
  70. Chapter Sixty-Seven
  71. Chapter Sixty-Eight
  72. Chapter Sixty-Nine
  73. Chapter Seventy
  74. Chapter Seventy-One
  75. Chapter Seventy-Two
  76. Chapter Seventy-Three
  77. Chapter Seventy-Four
  78. A Letter From Ruby
  79. Acknowledgements
  80. About the Author
  81. Also by Ruby Speechley

Emily joins a boy of about ten who is digging a moat for his sandcastle. Bleached twigs and razor shells decorate the turrets. Emily digs down and soon reaches the bed of gluey mud underneath. Maddy leaves them to it and strolls on until she reaches a small pool of water. She crouches down and dips her fingers in. It’s warmer than she expected. Warm like blood. So much blood. She doubles over and tips onto her side, landing in a puddle. I need you here, Max, I can’t do this on my own. Emily calls to her but she doesn’t respond. She doesn’t want to move. She wants to stay here and lose herself in the vast sky.

Chapter Fourteen

On Monday morning, Maddy drives back to Lawn End. The roads are busy but she arrives at 8.30 a.m. The woman with blonde hair leaves with the boy at 8.35 a.m. At 8.45 a.m. a woman with chestnut-coloured hair and an empty laundry basket walks from her house across the cul-de-sac and lets herself in. Five minutes later she comes back out. The basket is so full, the woman can just about see over the top of it.

At 11.30 a.m., the neighbour brings the clothes back on hangers and a neatly ironed pile. There is no sign of Adam Hawkins or any man come to that. Maddy checks her watch. The longest she dares stay today is midday because of getting back for the school run.

She’s about to leave when the Nissan whizzes past her and parks on the drive. The blonde woman gets out, slams the car door and goes in the house. Is she Adam’s wife or girlfriend or maybe sister? Maddy’s been toying with the idea of putting a note through the door, explaining her situation. But now she may as well go and speak to her in person.

She stands on the doorstep for a moment thinking through what she’ll say. She taps lightly, but no one comes. She knocks louder. The dog starts barking and the door swings open causing another out the back to slam. The blonde woman is still wearing her coat. Maddy’s eye is drawn away from her to the flowery wallpaper, so similar to theirs at home. How odd. Her mind goes blank.

‘Yes?’ The woman scowls in a husky voice. She’s younger than her, fierce red lipstick perfectly fills her pouty lips. Maddy’s eyes are drawn away from the woman’s made-up elfin face, towards the carpet on the stairs and its crimson border running all the way up. Identical to the carpet in their house.

‘Erm… could I speak to Adam Hawkins, please?’ she manages to ask.

‘What do you want him for?’ The woman taps her long painted nails on the door frame.

‘I think he knows my husband.’ Maddy focuses back on the woman. ‘He’s gone missing.’