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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Prologue
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-One
  25. Chapter Twenty-Two
  26. Chapter Twenty-Three
  27. Chapter Twenty-Four
  28. Chapter Twenty-Five
  29. Chapter Twenty-Six
  30. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-One
  35. Chapter Thirty-Two
  36. Chapter Thirty-Three
  37. Chapter Thirty-Four
  38. Chapter Thirty-Five
  39. Chapter Thirty-Six
  40. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  43. Chapter Forty
  44. Chapter Forty-One
  45. Chapter Forty-Two
  46. Chapter Forty-Three
  47. Chapter Forty-Four
  48. Chapter Forty-Five
  49. Chapter Forty-Six
  50. Chapter Forty-Seven
  51. Chapter Forty-Eight
  52. Chapter Forty-Nine
  53. Chapter Fifty
  54. Chapter Fifty-One
  55. Chapter Fifty-Two
  56. Chapter Fifty-Three
  57. Chapter Fifty-Four
  58. Chapter Fifty-Five
  59. Chapter Fifty-Six
  60. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  61. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  62. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  63. Chapter Sixty
  64. Chapter Sixty-One
  65. Chapter Sixty-Two
  66. Chapter Sixty-Three
  67. Chapter Sixty-Four
  68. Chapter Sixty-Five
  69. Chapter Sixty-Six
  70. Chapter Sixty-Seven
  71. Chapter Sixty-Eight
  72. Chapter Sixty-Nine
  73. Chapter Seventy
  74. Chapter Seventy-One
  75. Chapter Seventy-Two
  76. Chapter Seventy-Three
  77. Chapter Seventy-Four
  78. A Letter From Ruby
  79. Acknowledgements
  80. About the Author
  81. Also by Ruby Speechley

‘This house is full of cracks. They’re worst at the front. Dad said the old lady who lived here before them told him a bomb fell on the house across the road during the Second World War.’

‘This is actually crumbling away, though. I’ve never seen anything so bad. When was it built, 1930s?’

‘Yes, 1933, I think. Dad said something about the glue they used back then wasn’t very good.’

‘So the plaster wouldn’t stick to the brickwork.’

‘Something like that.’ Maddy picked a chunk out of the wall. ‘Mum pretended the cracks weren’t there. If we pointed one out to her she’d say: There are no cracks in my walls.’ She gave a half-hearted laugh and followed the jagged line with her finger. ‘He papered over them. Do you know she’d really lost it by the end? I think the anger kept her alive.’

Max didn’t know what to say. Her parents sounded as fucked up as his.

‘I’d better take this chair out. I don’t want it getting damaged,’ she said.

‘I can do that.’ He picked it up.

‘It’s an Arts and Crafts piece,’ Maddy said, following him into the sitting room. He carefully placed it against the wall. ‘Mum loved it.’

‘You’re wasted in that cafe. You should have been an antiques dealer.’

‘Mmm, maybe. I didn’t really have a choice.’

‘Why was that?’

‘I had to keep an eye on Mum, look after her. I ended up being her carer and taking over the cafe soon after I left school.’

‘So the cafe was her business originally?’

‘Yes. Both my parents ran businesses, but unfortunately it meant they didn’t spend enough time with each other.’

‘What do you really want to do? You have a choice now, surely?’

‘I have been wondering about selling up.’

‘It would set you free. You can do what you like now.’

‘I suppose I can. Look, why don’t I fix us something for lunch while you carry on here?’

‘Yeah, great.’

‘I’ve got Lincolnshire sausages from the butcher and some fresh white rolls. Does that sound good?’ She gave him one of her warm smiles that made all his bad thoughts melt to nothing.

‘Sounds perfect.’ He smiled back, letting his eyes sweep over her. She’d started wearing a bit of make-up, not too much, not tarty, but it really suited her, made her even more gorgeous. Lately, when he got back to his lodgings in the evening, he couldn’t stop thinking about her. How crazy was that when he was with her every single day? But it was real, it made his chest ache with longing. He hadn’t known anyone apart from Gran who was so straightforward and kind. For a second he fought the urge to pull her to him and kiss her. But he needed to pick his moment, not scare her off.