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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Prologue
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-One
  25. Chapter Twenty-Two
  26. Chapter Twenty-Three
  27. Chapter Twenty-Four
  28. Chapter Twenty-Five
  29. Chapter Twenty-Six
  30. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-One
  35. Chapter Thirty-Two
  36. Chapter Thirty-Three
  37. Chapter Thirty-Four
  38. Chapter Thirty-Five
  39. Chapter Thirty-Six
  40. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  43. Chapter Forty
  44. Chapter Forty-One
  45. Chapter Forty-Two
  46. Chapter Forty-Three
  47. Chapter Forty-Four
  48. Chapter Forty-Five
  49. Chapter Forty-Six
  50. Chapter Forty-Seven
  51. Chapter Forty-Eight
  52. Chapter Forty-Nine
  53. Chapter Fifty
  54. Chapter Fifty-One
  55. Chapter Fifty-Two
  56. Chapter Fifty-Three
  57. Chapter Fifty-Four
  58. Chapter Fifty-Five
  59. Chapter Fifty-Six
  60. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  61. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  62. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  63. Chapter Sixty
  64. Chapter Sixty-One
  65. Chapter Sixty-Two
  66. Chapter Sixty-Three
  67. Chapter Sixty-Four
  68. Chapter Sixty-Five
  69. Chapter Sixty-Six
  70. Chapter Sixty-Seven
  71. Chapter Sixty-Eight
  72. Chapter Sixty-Nine
  73. Chapter Seventy
  74. Chapter Seventy-One
  75. Chapter Seventy-Two
  76. Chapter Seventy-Three
  77. Chapter Seventy-Four
  78. A Letter From Ruby
  79. Acknowledgements
  80. About the Author
  81. Also by Ruby Speechley

‘Shut up,’ Max yells.

He turns to Maddy, gripping her arms now, pinching the flesh away from her bones. ‘You need to tell me where our baby is, Maddy. Do you hear me?’ He shakes her and her head sways back and forth, clicking and crunching, her eyes opening and shutting like a doll.

The baby is crying again. The sound seems to inhabit the whole house, reverberating like a tight violin string. She aches to hold her baby boy. A kaleidoscope of images spins in her head. A telephone ringing and Emily face down in the bath water. Chloe singing to an audience and finding her dead. The faces of her father, mother and Lisa, the identical wallpaper and the photo of Max with another family. Seeing Alison pregnant and picturing Max falling from a bridge and her baby not kicking, all going around and around and around.

She sinks to her knees, rocking her empty cradling arms. ‘He stopped moving and kicking and they said he was dead inside me and I don’t know why I was carrying a dead baby, is that what I deserved? And they made me take a pill to get rid of him and there was so much blood for days and I waited for you to come home to tell you, but you were missing and I needed to tell my husband first, but I thought you died falling from a bridge and I just needed to tell you that I’d called him Sam and that it wasn’t our fault; the doctors said it wasn’t my fault. But Sam was in the hospital cot waiting for me and it was Chloe who brought him back for us as a gift.’

‘I’m so sorry our baby died and I wasn’t there.’ Max crouches in front of her.

‘What the fuck are you telling me here?’ Alison pulls at Max’s arm.

‘Shut up,’ Max snarls, yanking away from her.

‘Who is this woman?’ Alison’s accusing blister-red face is more than Maddy can stand.

‘I’m his wife,’ Maddy yells.

‘You fucking bastard!’ Alison thumps Max in the back.

Maddy tries to grab Sam, but Alison twists away and elbows her in the face.

‘I’ve got to save my boy.’ Maddy lunges again, but Alison is too quick, turning away and kicking out behind her.

‘See, he never changed, he’s not worth your breath.’ The man muscles forward and head-butts Max square on the forehead.

‘Fuck off, Ray, if it wasn’t for you and your scum of a father lying to me…’ Blood drips down Max’s face. As Ray turns away, Max surprises him with an uppercut that sends him crashing backwards. Alison screams. The sound of a siren approaching fills the air.

‘We were just trying to protect Ali from your lies.’ Ray holds his jaw, giving Alison a sideways glance.