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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Prologue
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-One
  25. Chapter Twenty-Two
  26. Chapter Twenty-Three
  27. Chapter Twenty-Four
  28. Chapter Twenty-Five
  29. Chapter Twenty-Six
  30. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-One
  35. Chapter Thirty-Two
  36. Chapter Thirty-Three
  37. Chapter Thirty-Four
  38. Chapter Thirty-Five
  39. Chapter Thirty-Six
  40. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  43. Chapter Forty
  44. Chapter Forty-One
  45. Chapter Forty-Two
  46. Chapter Forty-Three
  47. Chapter Forty-Four
  48. Chapter Forty-Five
  49. Chapter Forty-Six
  50. Chapter Forty-Seven
  51. Chapter Forty-Eight
  52. Chapter Forty-Nine
  53. Chapter Fifty
  54. Chapter Fifty-One
  55. Chapter Fifty-Two
  56. Chapter Fifty-Three
  57. Chapter Fifty-Four
  58. Chapter Fifty-Five
  59. Chapter Fifty-Six
  60. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  61. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  62. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  63. Chapter Sixty
  64. Chapter Sixty-One
  65. Chapter Sixty-Two
  66. Chapter Sixty-Three
  67. Chapter Sixty-Four
  68. Chapter Sixty-Five
  69. Chapter Sixty-Six
  70. Chapter Sixty-Seven
  71. Chapter Sixty-Eight
  72. Chapter Sixty-Nine
  73. Chapter Seventy
  74. Chapter Seventy-One
  75. Chapter Seventy-Two
  76. Chapter Seventy-Three
  77. Chapter Seventy-Four
  78. A Letter From Ruby
  79. Acknowledgements
  80. About the Author
  81. Also by Ruby Speechley

It’s not long before Max appears, hurtling around the corner. Without a second thought, Maddy jumps out of her car and runs down the street after him. He’s unstrapping Sam from his seat when she reaches them and, as he lifts Sam under his sleep-suited arms, she tries pulling him to her.

‘Maddy, no, please.’ Max swings Sam away from her and bangs on the door, calling out to Alison.

‘But he’s my baby.’ Maddy’s heart pushes into her throat. She reaches for him again. Max dodges her, moving around the side of the car. Sam’s almost close enough for her to kiss his sweet-smelling skin.

Alison runs out of the house crying, ‘Charlie!’ Jamie follows holding a TV remote ready to zap her but smiles when he sees the baby. Max lays Sam in Alison’s arms and she sobs into his downy hair as she takes him into the house.

A trickle of lava runs through Maddy’s veins. Sam is your baby, take him back, her mother’s voice instructs her. Where are the police? They need to come and save him. She pushes past Max, into the house. ‘I want my baby,’ she whimpers but Max holds her arms, keeping her away.

A rumble of thunder cracks open the sky followed by a sudden deluge of rain. Max shuts the front door and tells Maddy to wait there, but she doesn’t want to and she wonders if the storm is inside her, too, because she can feel it building. Jamie is in the living room she has come to know so well. He steals a glance at her over his shoulder then flicks from one channel to the next, the volume rising, louder and louder so it hurts Maddy’s ears. She wants to hold Sam so much, kiss his flushed cheeks. When are they going to give him back to her? A flash of lightning illuminates his startled face. Alison sits on the sofa holding him, kissing his cheeks, his hair, his hands, but he wants to be with Maddy, she can sense he wants his mummy. Alison descends into noisy heaving sobs, clutching Sam so tightly that Max gently loosens her grip, whispering to her as he does. When Sam roots around her chest for milk, she lifts her top up and after a few false starts, she breast-feeds him, rocking back and forth.

A crescendo of rain wipes out all other noise. Maddy imagines standing outside soaked to the skin, screaming to be heard, watching Max through the glass, in this other life of his. She relives the moment she first saw inside this house. The shock of seeing the same wallpaper and stair carpet as theirs. Max’s face beaming out from photos with his secret family.