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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Prologue
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-One
  25. Chapter Twenty-Two
  26. Chapter Twenty-Three
  27. Chapter Twenty-Four
  28. Chapter Twenty-Five
  29. Chapter Twenty-Six
  30. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-One
  35. Chapter Thirty-Two
  36. Chapter Thirty-Three
  37. Chapter Thirty-Four
  38. Chapter Thirty-Five
  39. Chapter Thirty-Six
  40. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  43. Chapter Forty
  44. Chapter Forty-One
  45. Chapter Forty-Two
  46. Chapter Forty-Three
  47. Chapter Forty-Four
  48. Chapter Forty-Five
  49. Chapter Forty-Six
  50. Chapter Forty-Seven
  51. Chapter Forty-Eight
  52. Chapter Forty-Nine
  53. Chapter Fifty
  54. Chapter Fifty-One
  55. Chapter Fifty-Two
  56. Chapter Fifty-Three
  57. Chapter Fifty-Four
  58. Chapter Fifty-Five
  59. Chapter Fifty-Six
  60. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  61. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  62. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  63. Chapter Sixty
  64. Chapter Sixty-One
  65. Chapter Sixty-Two
  66. Chapter Sixty-Three
  67. Chapter Sixty-Four
  68. Chapter Sixty-Five
  69. Chapter Sixty-Six
  70. Chapter Sixty-Seven
  71. Chapter Sixty-Eight
  72. Chapter Sixty-Nine
  73. Chapter Seventy
  74. Chapter Seventy-One
  75. Chapter Seventy-Two
  76. Chapter Seventy-Three
  77. Chapter Seventy-Four
  78. A Letter From Ruby
  79. Acknowledgements
  80. About the Author
  81. Also by Ruby Speechley

‘I didn’t know she’d had him, honestly.’ He moves to the edge of the sofa. His hands across his eyes, kneading his skin.

‘And you expect me to believe that after all your lies?’ She springs up and stands in the middle of the room, hands on hips.

‘It’s the truth, Maddy.’

‘So, when did you find out this delightful piece of news?’

‘When I met Alison again,’ he hesitates, ‘two years ago.’

‘Behind my back. Lying to me for two whole years.’

‘I’m so sorry.’ His hands sweep over his face.

‘Are you really, Max? I don’t believe you. You had every opportunity to tell me.’

‘I’m honestly truly sorry.’

‘So come on, help me out here – Max Saunders doesn’t actually exist, does he?’

‘He does, I mean I do. It’s still me, your husband who loves you.’ He holds out his hands to her, but her arms stay crossed. He sinks back into the sofa. For several moments they don’t speak. The clock in the hall chimes midnight.

‘I stupidly convinced myself you were the one person I could trust.’ She starts to cry.

‘Maddy… please…’

‘Now I know how my mother felt when she found out my dad had been cheating with half the neighbourhood. Is that what you’ve been doing too?’

‘No Maddy, no.’ He reaches out and tries to touch her arm.

‘Why should I believe a word you say? I finally understand the pain my father put her through.’

‘I wanted to be a proper father to my son, to the child I didn’t know existed until he was six years old.’

She finishes her drink. Don’t let him get away with it.

‘Let’s start afresh, move away, if you can just help me clear my debts.’

Maddy stares at the photo of Chloe and Emily. ‘I don’t think so.’

‘We can work it out, I know we can. It’s you I love, not her.’

Her head is pulsing. Does this even mean anything to her?

‘It’s you I want. I know I’ve been an idiot.’

‘I can’t think right now.’ She pours another finger of whiskey and drinks it down.

‘Just say you’ll give me another chance.’ He slides off the sofa onto his knees. There are tears in his eyes.

‘I don’t think I can.’

‘Do you want me to go?’