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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Prologue
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-One
  25. Chapter Twenty-Two
  26. Chapter Twenty-Three
  27. Chapter Twenty-Four
  28. Chapter Twenty-Five
  29. Chapter Twenty-Six
  30. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-One
  35. Chapter Thirty-Two
  36. Chapter Thirty-Three
  37. Chapter Thirty-Four
  38. Chapter Thirty-Five
  39. Chapter Thirty-Six
  40. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  43. Chapter Forty
  44. Chapter Forty-One
  45. Chapter Forty-Two
  46. Chapter Forty-Three
  47. Chapter Forty-Four
  48. Chapter Forty-Five
  49. Chapter Forty-Six
  50. Chapter Forty-Seven
  51. Chapter Forty-Eight
  52. Chapter Forty-Nine
  53. Chapter Fifty
  54. Chapter Fifty-One
  55. Chapter Fifty-Two
  56. Chapter Fifty-Three
  57. Chapter Fifty-Four
  58. Chapter Fifty-Five
  59. Chapter Fifty-Six
  60. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  61. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  62. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  63. Chapter Sixty
  64. Chapter Sixty-One
  65. Chapter Sixty-Two
  66. Chapter Sixty-Three
  67. Chapter Sixty-Four
  68. Chapter Sixty-Five
  69. Chapter Sixty-Six
  70. Chapter Sixty-Seven
  71. Chapter Sixty-Eight
  72. Chapter Sixty-Nine
  73. Chapter Seventy
  74. Chapter Seventy-One
  75. Chapter Seventy-Two
  76. Chapter Seventy-Three
  77. Chapter Seventy-Four
  78. A Letter From Ruby
  79. Acknowledgements
  80. About the Author
  81. Also by Ruby Speechley

‘What me and Jamie need, and the new baby come to that, is having you around more.’ She stroked her tiny bump. ‘I mean things never get done around here. The garden’s still a tip and Jamie needs somewhere safe to play.’

‘Which I’m doing. Didn’t you see I bought bark to tidy up the borders? Anyway, you should trust him to play out the front or go to the park once in a while.’

‘I don’t think so. Last week, Sharon from number fourteen said some teenagers hanging about the park went up to her Daniel with a flick knife.’

‘But a boy needs some freedom. You can’t keep him locked up. It’s better for him to be a bit streetwise, isn’t it?’

‘I’m telling you it’s not safe out there.’

‘I wonder what your dad would make of that.’ He laughed.

‘Oh, shut up.’

Silence edged between them. Ali took out a pan and started scraping potatoes. She pushed the peelings into the dustbin.

‘Why don’t you use the compost bin for those?’ He scooped the shavings out and opened the back door.

Ali submerged the chopping board in soapy water. ‘Because it’s easier to put them in the bin.’

‘But I’ve moved the compost nearer the back door for that reason. It doesn’t take any more effort.’ He lifted the lid and dumped them in. ‘Do you have to be so wasteful?’

‘If you want to take over the cooking, feel free. I was trying to make us a special meal.’

‘I’m not talking about the cooking. I mean everything. Look at this.’ He pulled an empty can of baked beans and a folded cereal packet out of the rubbish. ‘These can be recycled.’ He pictured Maddy digging compost into the flower beds and the girls having fun threading milk bottle-tops around a wire frame to hang in the apple tree. They were always mending and reusing things. He couldn’t believe how wasteful Ali was, throwing things away without a thought. Spending money like there was an endless pot.

‘Look, we can’t have this baby, Ali.’ He took a swig of Guinness.

‘Give me one decent unselfish reason why not.’ She put her hands on her hips.

‘We can’t afford it for a start. I’ve told you to cut down on shopping, stop buying all your silly knick-knacks, make-up, clothes, boots, shoes and God knows what else. My credit cards can’t take it anymore.’

‘What, getting my hair and nails done or buying decent shoes and clothes is silly, is it?’

‘Can’t you do your nails yourself? Do you need so much stuff?’

‘Stop turning it around to me being the problem.’ She prodded her finger in his arm. ‘What about you? Why can’t you commit yourself to us a hundred per cent?’