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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Prologue
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-One
  25. Chapter Twenty-Two
  26. Chapter Twenty-Three
  27. Chapter Twenty-Four
  28. Chapter Twenty-Five
  29. Chapter Twenty-Six
  30. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-One
  35. Chapter Thirty-Two
  36. Chapter Thirty-Three
  37. Chapter Thirty-Four
  38. Chapter Thirty-Five
  39. Chapter Thirty-Six
  40. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  43. Chapter Forty
  44. Chapter Forty-One
  45. Chapter Forty-Two
  46. Chapter Forty-Three
  47. Chapter Forty-Four
  48. Chapter Forty-Five
  49. Chapter Forty-Six
  50. Chapter Forty-Seven
  51. Chapter Forty-Eight
  52. Chapter Forty-Nine
  53. Chapter Fifty
  54. Chapter Fifty-One
  55. Chapter Fifty-Two
  56. Chapter Fifty-Three
  57. Chapter Fifty-Four
  58. Chapter Fifty-Five
  59. Chapter Fifty-Six
  60. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  61. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  62. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  63. Chapter Sixty
  64. Chapter Sixty-One
  65. Chapter Sixty-Two
  66. Chapter Sixty-Three
  67. Chapter Sixty-Four
  68. Chapter Sixty-Five
  69. Chapter Sixty-Six
  70. Chapter Sixty-Seven
  71. Chapter Sixty-Eight
  72. Chapter Sixty-Nine
  73. Chapter Seventy
  74. Chapter Seventy-One
  75. Chapter Seventy-Two
  76. Chapter Seventy-Three
  77. Chapter Seventy-Four
  78. A Letter From Ruby
  79. Acknowledgements
  80. About the Author
  81. Also by Ruby Speechley

‘What is it?’ He shut the van door.

‘I’ve got a lovely surprise.’ She gave a little clap of her hands.

He hated surprises.

She pecked him on the stubble of his cheek and trotted into the house.

Inside, the musky smell of an incense stick wafted towards him. Ali had laid out the dining table for two. In the middle was a bottle of champagne and two glasses.

‘Have I forgotten your birthday?’ His hands reached for her hips, pulling her towards him.

‘No, try again.’ She giggled.

‘It’s our anniversary – do we have an anniversary? Two years, is it?’

‘Adam…’ she took a deep breath and steepled her fingers, ‘we’re going to have a baby.’

Max stepped back from her as though she’d thrown ice in his face. ‘I thought you were on the pill?’

‘I am, well, I was, but when I was ill a few weeks ago, we forgot to take precautions.’

‘Are you sure?’ He massaged his brow, his thoughts leaping in all directions.

‘I’ve been to see the doctor this morning to book in with the midwife.’

‘How far…?’

‘I’m ten weeks tomorrow.’

‘And you… want to go ahead?’

‘’Course, why wouldn’t I?’ She crossed her arms high on her chest.

‘Because we didn’t plan it.’ He followed her into the kitchen and opened the fridge.

‘I thought you’d be pleased. I mean, we’re a proper couple now, aren’t we?’

‘It doesn’t mean we’ll be tying the knot, if that’s what you’re fishing for.’ Max took out a Guinness and cracked it open, but it fizzed into his face. ‘Fuck it.’ He wiped his arm over his eyes.

‘Did I even mention getting married?’ She passed him a tea towel and crossed her arms again.

‘You didn’t plan this, did you?’ He wiped his face.

‘Is that what you think of me?’ She swung round, storming into the hall.

‘Okay, so tell me, what are we going to do?’ He shouted after her, pouring the rest of the drink into a pint glass.

She came back in. ‘Keep it, of course. I can’t believe you’re even suggesting… why are you being like this?’

‘It’s a big thing – something people usually plan together.’

‘It hardly ever happens like that,’ she shouted.

‘What, most kids are mistakes, are they? We should’ve been more careful.’

‘Like the first time? Are you saying you wish I hadn’t had Jamie?’ She stood at the sink holding her stomach as though she was about to vomit.

‘You know I didn’t mean that.’ Once upon a time he’d have wanted nothing more than a brother or sister for Jamie, but how would they afford another one? Worst of all, it was another level of betrayal. Jesus, he’d never meant to do any of this to Maddy.