Back You Are The Reason
Chapters (104)
  1. Author Note
  2. Playlist
  3. Acknowledgments
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter One
  6. Kinsley
  7. Chapter Two
  8. Kinsley
  9. Chapter Three
  10. Kinsley
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Kinsley
  13. Chapter Five
  14. Kinsley
  15. Chapter Six
  16. Tanner
  17. Chapter Seven
  18. Kinsley
  19. Chapter Eight
  20. Jesse
  21. Chapter Nine
  22. Kinsley
  23. Chapter Ten
  24. Kinsley
  25. Chapter Eleven
  26. Tanner
  27. Chapter Twelve
  28. Tanner
  29. Chapter Thirteen
  30. Kinsley
  31. Chapter Fourteen
  32. Tanner
  33. Chapter Fifteen
  34. Kinsley
  35. Chapter Sixteen
  36. Tanner
  37. Chapter Seventeen
  38. Kinsley
  39. Chapter Eighteen
  40. Jesse
  41. Chapter Nineteen
  42. Tanner
  43. Chapter Twenty
  44. Kinsley
  45. Chapter Twenty-One
  46. Kinsley
  47. Chapter Twenty-Two
  48. Kinsley
  49. Chapter Twenty-Three
  50. Kinsley
  51. Chapter Twenty-Four
  52. Jesse
  53. Chapter Twenty-Five
  54. Kinsley
  55. Chapter Twenty-Six
  56. Kinsley
  57. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  58. Tanner
  59. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  60. Kinsley
  61. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  62. Kinsley
  63. Chapter Thirty
  64. Jesse
  65. Chapter Thirty-One
  66. Tanner
  67. Chapter Thirty-Two
  68. Tanner
  69. Chapter Thirty-Three
  70. Jesse
  71. Chapter Thirty-Four
  72. Kinsley
  73. Chapter Thirty-Five
  74. Kinsley
  75. Chapter Thirty-Six
  76. Tanner
  77. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  78. Jesse
  79. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  80. Jesse
  81. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  82. Tanner
  83. Chapter Forty
  84. Kinsley
  85. Chapter Forty-One
  86. Jesse
  87. Chapter Forty-Two
  88. Kinsley
  89. Chapter Forty-Three
  90. Kinsley
  91. Chapter Forty-Four
  92. Tanner
  93. Chapter Forty-Five
  94. Kinsley
  95. Chapter Forty-Six
  96. Tanner
  97. Chapter Forty-Seven
  98. Kinsley
  99. Chapter Forty-Eight
  100. Kinsley
  101. Chapter Forty-Nine
  102. Tanner
  103. Harley’s Book
  104. Need to debrief?!

Nurses and Doctors surrounded the car, carefully removing Jesse, laying his body on a stretcher and wheeling him away. Then two others in white scrubs stepped forward and a fierce protective instinct washed over me as they reached for Kinsley. Despite their pleas of bullshit policies and procedures, I forced my way through them. I scooped her up and cradled her in my arms, marching her limp body into the hospital myself. After checking her over and clearing her of any physical injuries, they insisted on monitoring her until she woke up. I couldn’t disagree, I saw the darkness in her eyes from the rearview mirror as we drove to the hospital; she was lost so deep within herself.

Now I’m standing, arms folded across my chest, in the doorway of the room where Jesse’s body lays lifeless. ‘I’ll give you all a moment’. I scoff at the comment the nurse had made. I’ll be damned if anyone is interrupting the time Kinsley and Marie want to have in here, I’ll stand with my feet planted here all day if I have to.

I watch the two of them for a while, before stepping out of the room and pulling my phone out of my pocket. There is someone I need to call. My fingers swipe across the screen; the dial tone rings in my ear four times and I almost end the call when a feminine voice answers.

“Hello?”

“Hey Soph, it’s Tanner.”

“Hey, what’s up? Everything okay?”

“How quickly can you get down to Blackwater Hospital?”

“Uhm.” Her fingers tapping the phone screen. “I can be there in thirty-five minutes.”

“Soph,” my voice thick with warning. “It’s not good.”

“Stay with her, I’ll be there soon.”

Ending the call, I turn back to look through the glass. Kinsley is sitting on the far side of the bed brushing Jesse’s curls out of his eyes; her lips moving whispering all the things she never got to say. He knew. In the weeks I spent alone with Jesse I learnt a lot about him; his devotion to Kinsley and his promise to Kyle.

When they were kids, their relationship started out as a schoolyard crush, she was just his best friend’s little sister. But as they got older, especially after Kyle passed away, she became less of his best friend’s little sister and more of the woman he served to protect, his twin flame; the one he wanted but couldn’t have.

They had a continuous ‘Right Person, Wrong Time’ situation on their hands. Only Kinsley never knew it. Somehow she was oblivious to it all. Now, as she sits at his bedside, I can see the regret written all over her face. How the fuck am I going to help her through this?