Back You Are The Reason
Chapters (104)
  1. Author Note
  2. Playlist
  3. Acknowledgments
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter One
  6. Kinsley
  7. Chapter Two
  8. Kinsley
  9. Chapter Three
  10. Kinsley
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Kinsley
  13. Chapter Five
  14. Kinsley
  15. Chapter Six
  16. Tanner
  17. Chapter Seven
  18. Kinsley
  19. Chapter Eight
  20. Jesse
  21. Chapter Nine
  22. Kinsley
  23. Chapter Ten
  24. Kinsley
  25. Chapter Eleven
  26. Tanner
  27. Chapter Twelve
  28. Tanner
  29. Chapter Thirteen
  30. Kinsley
  31. Chapter Fourteen
  32. Tanner
  33. Chapter Fifteen
  34. Kinsley
  35. Chapter Sixteen
  36. Tanner
  37. Chapter Seventeen
  38. Kinsley
  39. Chapter Eighteen
  40. Jesse
  41. Chapter Nineteen
  42. Tanner
  43. Chapter Twenty
  44. Kinsley
  45. Chapter Twenty-One
  46. Kinsley
  47. Chapter Twenty-Two
  48. Kinsley
  49. Chapter Twenty-Three
  50. Kinsley
  51. Chapter Twenty-Four
  52. Jesse
  53. Chapter Twenty-Five
  54. Kinsley
  55. Chapter Twenty-Six
  56. Kinsley
  57. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  58. Tanner
  59. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  60. Kinsley
  61. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  62. Kinsley
  63. Chapter Thirty
  64. Jesse
  65. Chapter Thirty-One
  66. Tanner
  67. Chapter Thirty-Two
  68. Tanner
  69. Chapter Thirty-Three
  70. Jesse
  71. Chapter Thirty-Four
  72. Kinsley
  73. Chapter Thirty-Five
  74. Kinsley
  75. Chapter Thirty-Six
  76. Tanner
  77. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  78. Jesse
  79. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  80. Jesse
  81. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  82. Tanner
  83. Chapter Forty
  84. Kinsley
  85. Chapter Forty-One
  86. Jesse
  87. Chapter Forty-Two
  88. Kinsley
  89. Chapter Forty-Three
  90. Kinsley
  91. Chapter Forty-Four
  92. Tanner
  93. Chapter Forty-Five
  94. Kinsley
  95. Chapter Forty-Six
  96. Tanner
  97. Chapter Forty-Seven
  98. Kinsley
  99. Chapter Forty-Eight
  100. Kinsley
  101. Chapter Forty-Nine
  102. Tanner
  103. Harley’s Book
  104. Need to debrief?!

He is kinda obsessed with her in a ‘if you touch her, you’ll die’ kind of way but the scary thing is, I’m not sure how far he would actually go on that statement. Stop it Jesse, he wouldn’t actually kill someone … But how would I know? He is moody enough, his side-eye alone nearly killed me the first time I met him.

When I’m sure she is asleep I roll out of bed and tuck the blankets around her to mimic the pressure of my hold. I close the curtains to allow her to sleep and decide to go off in search of foods which not even she can deny.

* * *

Kinsley

My stomach rumbles. Opening my eyes, I see that the curtains are closed, the smallest amount of light filtering in. Jesse is nowhere to be seen, I’m not sure how much time has passed but the other times I’ve glanced around, he’s been sitting in my reading chair or lying next to me. Deciding I don’t want a victory party for actually leaving the bed, I slip out whilst I’m here alone.

I can’t physically lay in that bed any longer, however the sight of the stairs sends a shiver up my spine. I’m not ready to leave the comfort of my little abode up here. Hmm, maybe Jesse has gone to get me food? I think I recall him throwing the blankets off of me earlier, demanding I get up and eat something. I’m not sure what day it is or even the time. All I know is that Jesse has been here, looking out for me, fussing over me. The least I could do is try to pull myself together, even if I’m not ready to walk downstairs in my own apartment yet.

Bath or shower? The shower would hide my tears, but the bathtub will cocoon me, hold me and keep me safe.

“Bubble Bath?” Jesse speaks from behind me. The smell of baked goods follows him. He’s holding two bakery trays in brown paper bags. “I got all your favourites.”

A smile creeps onto my face, I can’t help it. “Yes, please,” I say, taking the trays of food from his hands. The water begins to run, filling the bathtub as I take the food back into the bedroom.

“Hallelujah!” Jesse cries out when he sees me chewing. “She isn’t going to die of starvation.”

I flip him off, unable to speak with my mouth full of pastries. I hold up the tray, gesturing for him to grab something.

“Oh, I wouldn’t dare,” he laughs, holding his hands up in front of himself.

“I can’t physically eat all of this, Jesse; help a girl out here.”

He approaches with caution. “Fine, but only if you go and get in the bath.”

I stand, giving him the best version of a smile I can muster.